Chapter 41
episode 41
Translator : Missme Editor : Aru
Ash called me .
It was a quiet voice . It was low and calm .
And I couldn’t move at this time . Somehow I was stuck . As if I were caught in some kind of spell that constrains me .
Soon I could see what it was that tied me up to do nothing like this .
Ash’s eyes .
Ash was staring at me coolly with his golden eyes that had no emotion at all .
As if he was looking at the others .
Ash reached out his hand . The straight, large, hard hand brushed my cheek just like my mother’s hand did and then wrapped my neck the next moment .
“…… . !”
Ash’s hand slowly squeezed in .
The fact that it was a dream made me feel pressure and pain, but at this moment I felt pain elsewhere .
“Why… . . ”
Ash’s face drew closer . Ash whispered softly in my ear from a breathable distance .
“……Did you lie to me?”
It was a harsh voice .
“……Gasp!”
I woke up screaming . I sat up in bed, tingling .
As soon as I did, I reached my throat unknowingly .
Light leaked through the curtains .
The room was not dark, but bright .
I stared blankly around and soon fumbled for the hand mirror . Then I glanced at my neck with it .
Of course, there was no handprint .
“………ha . ”
A sigh broke out like a suppressed breath .
I put the mirror down . My hands trembled .
I had a nightmare .
It’s a very vivid nightmare .
‘Why did you lie to me?’
I remembered a voice that had been spreading coldly in my ears . My shoulders crouched at once .
I wanted to say no .
No, it’s not . I tried to answer that I didn’t mean to deceive you .
But I couldn’t speak because I was strangled . I wanted to speak out, but I couldn’t do that and just mumbled in pain .
Then, at one point, my consciousness became distant, as if submerged underwater, and I woke up from a dream like that .
I sat at the edge of the bed like that, sitting motionless as if I had been rooted on the bed .
Soon I covered my face .
‘What is this?’
It was unbelievable .
‘What kind of dream is this……’
The dream was so vivid, wondering if it should have been . My parents were my parents, but Ash’s dream after that was so real that it was creepy .
A low-pitched voice, a feeling of strangling .
Even the way he looked at me in a cold gaze without warmth .
It was all true . I still felt like it was all stuck to me .
I rubbed my cheeks and ears in a huddle and then pulled the string near the bedpost .
“Did you cough? I’ll bring some water to wash in . ”
It was not Angela who came into the room, but a maid with a face I had never seen before . It’s not an important fact . I added before she went out for a wash .
“Coldwater, please . ”
I added it out of fear that it might not be enough .
“In awfully cold water . ”
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After a while, she appeared with icy cold water, as I asked the maid too .
I dipped my hand in the basin and then fell silent for a moment .
I asked for it, but…
The cold temperature made my skin ache . Instinctively hesitated and soon closed my eyes .
I started washing my face with the water .
“Uh . ”
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Whenever I poured water on my face, I felt like I was suffering from reflexes .
However, I repeatedly wash my face with the harsh cold water . Then I thought .
‘It’s a dream . ’
This is just a dream .
‘No matter how vivid it was, it’s just a dream . Forget it! Don’t think about it!’
Finally, I dipped my face in the basin as if giving a shock therapy – and it seemed like I heard a small scream of a maid waiting on one side of the room – and quickly recovered it .
“Puha . ”
Oh, this was crazy .
Anyway, thanks to it, I felt like it was working . Even though I was shivering at the first wash .
I got out of the back bed with a soft towel . I don’t know how hard labour is this morning .
I then took off my bed and changed into an indoor dress with the help of the maid .
There was no purpose, but I wanted to get out of the room . When I came out into the hallway like that, I saw Bessie, who seemed to have just come out like me .
“Lady! Did you sleep well?”
“Uh-huh . ”
I answered equivocally .
I couldn’t cheer up and say, “No, I couldn’t sleep . I had a terrible nightmare . It was a terrible time nightmare . It’s amazing . Do you want to listen to it?” I couldn’t have said that .
“Hold on, there’s a dark spot under your eyes . ”
“What? No . ”
“I’m just saying the truth . The bed has suddenly changed, so I was wondering just in case . I’m glad you said no . ”
Sharp Bessie……… I’m starting to get a twinge inside, and then Sir Davery comes out from his room .
“Good morning . Oh? Miss, you look like you’re not sleeping . ”
“You are late . Bessie already said it . ”
“Oh . ”
As if it were a pity – no, why – Sir Davery, kicked his tongue, Alex also showed up – and, by the way, Alex went to the territory together as a porter .
Soon the party moved together to the dining room . To be honest, I had no appetite, but when I said I would skip breakfast, it seemed like I was advertising that my night was bad, so I followed them silently .
“It hasn’t changed much here in a long time . ”
Bessie said on the way . Sir Davery answered .
“Well, yes . ”
“Come to think of it, how long Sir Sack hasn’t come to the territory?”
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“I have recently returned . ”
“What did you do then?”
“It wasn’t a big deal . I heard the bandits in the neighbourhood were coming in near the perimeter, so just to clean up a little… . ”
“Oh, bandits?”
“Somehow, it was . You could have caught them too, Bessie . If Mace loses . ”
“Thank you for looking at me so highly . ”
We walked around chatting . Without saying a word, I stared at the scenery outside the window . It was then .
“Your Excellency . ”
I stopped walking for a moment .
“Did you have a good sleep at night?”
My heart throbbed . The voice heard from that front belonged to Lucas, but not to anyone who owned the voice .
I was walking by the window, so I didn’t look at him yet .
I stood in my seat with a nail in my head . My heart fluttered .
Eventually, I turned on impulse .
“Lady?”
“Where are you going?”
“That’s……a walk . That’s right! I’ll be back after a morning walk!”
I hurriedly left my seat with a sudden and diligent excuse . At the back, Bessie and Sir Davery embarrassedly called me, but I ignored and hastened my steps .
I went down the stairs recklessly out of the hall . Fortunately, there was no unseemly loss of way out of the mansion .
As I came outside, I could see a well-built garden on one side of the large site .
I walked straight there . I’ve been acting like I’m taking a walk .
Entering the entrance, I walked more into the garden and sat down on the bench as if I had been waiting .
As soon as I sat down, I was out of breath .
‘What am I doing?’
I was conscious of what I just did . This was a run . An undeniable escape
I couldn’t dare to see Ash’s face .
Is it because of the nightmare? I wasn’t confident to see him as usual .
‘Ah……’
I lowered my head and covered my face . I can’t believe my ice wash, that harsh method didn’t work this much .
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‘This is all because of Lucas . ’
I suddenly cursed Lucas who was not here .
‘Why did he have to call me there yesterday? Why? Otherwise, I wouldn’t have seen that portrait there…’
Then I wouldn’t have dreamed of this .
‘If you were bored, you should be drinking alone and talking to yourself looking at the wall . Fucking Lucas . Damn Lucas . Ugly Lucas and I don’t know why he grows that ugly moustache . ”
At this point, I even snorted at Lucas, but soon felt guilty, so I stopped .
Yeah, what’s the point? Doing this here .
Relaxed from the shoulder . I leaned my body against the bench .
Actually, I didn’t know this would happen .
This is not to say that I didn’t know I would have this dream . I knew my death .
Although I only saw it fragmentarily and superficially through the book, it would be nice to say that I know my destiny in advance .
So it wasn’t a nightmare that I couldn’t have . Perhaps it is a natural flow that can be explained . To have a dream like this at this point . In other words, it was a dream that could be expected .
But, uh…
I touched my chest . An unstable echo passed through the palms of the hand .
I didn’t know this would happen . I didn’t know it was this much .
Much more than I imagined, much more than I’d assumed .
It hurt a lot more .
When I was strangled in a dream, I couldn’t wake up to the pain even though I was thinking it was a dream .
It’s not my neck . It hurts here .
My heart sank as I faced the dull, cool golden eyes . Then pain poured in .
The inside of my heart seemed to crack and collapse, leaving no shape and slowly breaking . The pain was so great that it was unbearable . Even in the choking, chilling sensation, my nerves were all focused on it .
“…… . ”
Recalling the pain, the hand around my chest gave me strength . The drab top of the dress, which had no ornament, was wrinkled .
Soon I let out a gasp of laughter .
I had a guess . To some extent .
However, how much did it end up to?
I was scared .
After my previous life, I died without even half of my life .
And more than that, dying at the hands of Ash .