Chapter 40
episode 40
Translator : Missme Editor : Aru
‘She’s not trembling right now . ’
Angela’s hands, which were scurrying away from the bottle and collecting the dirty carpet, remained silent, with no sign of trembling again .
‘What was it?’
Even if I was mistaken, I witnessed it too clearly .
‘Did she do it because she was nervous?”
Even if she was, I have no way to make her guilty here .
Then it’s my fault………? Why did I just ask her name…
‘No, even if she’s just working for many days, I can’t just call her for that . ’
At least, I knew her name anyway . I soon soaked myself in the prepared bath, soothing myself . And I noticed at this time that, regardless of everything, Angela was a capable maid .
The water temperature was just right and sufficiently warm . It was good enough to say that it was perfect .
It was an excellent choice to choose a rose bath . Shall I ask her to tell me where the product came from later on?
“Ha . ”
A languid breath flowed out .
I clapped my hands in the bathtub and put my head down .
The ceiling of the bathroom, hidden in the fog, caught my eye .
This made me feel relaxed and drowsy, but in the corner of my mind, I suddenly felt uncomfortable thorns, whether I could be like this .
Although it was meaningless at a time when I was already doing this .
By the time my body was relaxed, I left the bathtub . When I got out of the bath like that, a maid other than Angela was waiting for me .
“Viscount Bifren is looking for you . ”
The interior of the study decorated on one side of the living room was not a bit different from what I remembered . Even now, the interior was still antique and stylish to be changed in just three or four years .
“Would you like a drink?”
Lucas stuck out a transparent glass containing purple-coloured liquor . He put his head down and sat opposite .
“What about Ash?”
“How can I disturb him when he’s busy?”
Did he just call me then?
So did I look free? All right, that wasn’t wrong, so I ignored it .
No matter how complicated my mind is these days, it’s true that I don’t have a routine on the outside .
Although I didn’t think much about drinking, I decided to suit Lucas’s circumstances .
“It’s been a while since I’ve seen you . His Excellency’s face has become so thin than when I saw him before . ”
“Yes . ”
“Of course, you’ve become more beautiful . ”
“Your whiskers are much shrivelier than before . ”
“Haha, thank you . I’ve been working hard all day and night . ”
To be honest, whenever I saw him working so hard, I wondered why, but I decided to swallow my unnecessary honesty .
Then Lucas looked sentimental as to remember the past . There were creases around the narrow eyes .
“Time flies . ”
“……”
“It feels like yesterday when the former Duke and Duchess were like His Excellency and Princess . ”
Then he looked back at me and gave me a blank look .
“I made a slip of the tongue . ”
“It’s all right . ”
It has been three years since my parents died . It’s past time to cry because of the mention of my parents . I said it was okay, but Lucas changed the subject as if he was uncomfortable .
“By the way my lady, you must be feeling reassured . His Excellency has become so imposing . ”
“……yes . ”
“You’re still on good terms these days, aren’t you? I can see that you are coming here together . ”
Nodding my head without a word . Lucas put the glass he was holding down on the table .
“But when I see your special bond, I feel very proud of you both . By the way, Mrs Wedner would have been as happy to see it too . ”
“Mrs Wedner?”
“She’s my maternal grandparents . ”
Ah .
I’ve heard her name a few times, but it’s the first time I’ve heard she’s mentioned by her last name .
My Mother’s mother, I knew she was dead in an accident when I was very young . There is a piece of memory that my mother would sometimes take out a portrait of a middle-aged woman with a longing eye from the bedside .
“You must have been close to her . ”
“No, but I do think of her when I see the princess . ”
“Me?”
“You look a lot like the late Mrs Wedner . ”
Come to think of it, I happen to resemble my mother’s family . It was a story I’ve heard before .
In particular, the hair colour is characteristically similar . My pure detection, often likened to a full-blown rose, was once said to be a colour that proved my maternal lineage .
Although it has faded a lot nowadays . My mother’s hair colour was close to orange .
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Anyway, thanks to this, my origin has never been suspected, even though I don’t look much like my parents or Ash .
It was a strange thing . Well, they adopted me because I looked like her in the first place .
“Mrs . Wedner was as beautiful as you were in her youth . ”
“I see . ”
“It seems, You’ve got a lot of offers . What about the princess? Looks like a suitor will line up to the outside of the mansion . ”
“No, no carriages couldn’t even go that way at one time . ”
After that, Lucas and I talked a few more words . Although it was almost like he was talking to himself . I just kept Lucas in tune so that he wouldn’t feel lonely .
As a result, time slowly passed .
Since it was late, it was time to say let’s leave .
“……Ah . ”
Lucas’s gaze stopped somewhere . I mysteriously followed his eye .
“To change the frame . ”
There was a framed picture on the wall right next to the bookcase . Lucas clouded his words with an air of difficulty .
It was a family portrait .
I don’t remember exactly when it was painted, but it was quite a long time ago .
In the painting was a relatively young-looking mother and father, and a younger me, smiling brightly, holding the younger Ash’s hand .
I fixed my eyes on the frame . Lucas’s eye-catching look stuck in my profile .
But I wasn’t looking at my parents in the portrait, contrary to what he might be doing .
I was smiling broadly in the picture . Is it seven, or eight?
That’s when I found out that my parents would keep the secrets of my birth and that I wouldn’t be kicked out of the mansion .
And at the same time, the future like this is a time of total ignorance .
“……I’ll just go in . I’m tired . ”
“Oh, princess . ”
Lucas caught my body while I’m turning . When I looked at him in doubt, he handed me back the glass he had put out earlier .
“Since we talked, I thought you’d be thirsty . There’s almost no alcohol . It’s different from what it looks like . ”
I looked at it and soon got it and drank it at once .
I wasn’t going to drink it, but I felt stuffy and thirsty . Maybe it was because of the portraits . As if to support the saying that there is little alcohol, the drink went over more smoothly than it looked .
“Then take a good rest . ”
I turned away from Lucas, who greeted me .
The walk was heavy . I couldn’t tell whether it was just my feeling or my body was tired .
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As I walked in the hallway, the portrait where I held Ash’s small hand firmly and smiled, revealed to my eyes every step of the way .
Maybe it’s because the bed has changed . I couldn’t fall asleep until I tossed around for a while .
*****
My eyes opened .
‘Morning…?’
No, it’s dark .
It was dark in the room, even though the curtains were opened .
I squint one’s eyelids . Soon it was lifted completely . Did I wake up at an ambiguous time? I felt thirsty because I woke up from sleep, so I stuttered around the table .
Then I was surprised .
“…… . !”
I blinked my eyes .
“Mom, Dad?”
I saw people who were not supposed to be there .
On the bedside .
Maybe I woke up from sleep, but my voice was locked out . No, but it doesn’t make sense . I realized something the next moment when I saw two people sitting still staring at me .
‘I can see it so well and clear . ’
It was pitch-dark everywhere . But it was so clear in the midst of such dark darkness .
‘Oh, it’s a dream . ’
Think like that, my mother moved . A soft hand touched my cheek .
It was real .
‘It’s a vivid dream . ’
I can’t believe it’s a dream .
Then there was a voice as sweet as her touch .
“Lydia . Our daughter . ”
“……”
“We’re sorry . ”
“Mom . ”
I’ve had that echo in my mouth for the first time in a while . It’s been a long time since I’ve seen them in my dream . It’s been a long time since I dreamed of my parents .
‘Maybe it’s because I saw the portrait earlier . ’
Even a cold daughter can’t help it . A year after my parents’ death, I stopped dreaming about them at night . I’ve had so many dreams before .
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Is this the same dream as before? The moment I thought so, my father opened his mouth .
“I shouldn’t have adopted you . ”
“……Daddy?”
“If I had known this was going to happen, then I would have told you not to . ”
“Daddy . ”
Why are you saying that all of a sudden?
The question came down to my neck, but I could soon see for myself how meaningless it was to spit it out .
This is my dream . I’m meeting two people created by my unconsciousness .
So, in the end, that’s what I was thinking .
I’d rather not be adopted, hah .
“……no . ”
But I shook my head . In the end, I denied it even though I knew it was a conversation with me .
“No, I don’t . ”
I got choked up . I bit my lips .
Reading the future seemed to bring the world down, but it wasn’t . Yeah, it wasn’t . No matter how I did, I never regretted entering this house .
I didn’t want to go back to what never happened .
I met my parents, I stayed with other people in the mansion, I got to know them, and……
“It’s not like that, really . The word of resentment I don’t even have in my heart . That’s all, so don’t say that . ”
I felt like crying . The parents who hugged me were warmer as if they were true .
What a vivid dream .
Sadly .
How long would I have been hugged like that, suddenly, my parents disappeared . I just blinked blankly, hugging the air in the form of two people scattered like fog .
I know it’s a dream, and I know it’s all a fantasy, but it’s not easy to carry on with the sense of loss .
It was then .
“……Ash?”
A different face appeared on behalf of the missing parents . Somehow I was much more surprised than before .
I saw a family portrait, and then my parents appeared in my dream, so I thought Ash might appear next .
But even if he appeared, I thought I’d get childhood Ash, as I saw in the portrait .
As I saw yesterday, it’s not Ash who has become a multi-faceted adult .
“Noonim . ”