And the light won't return Until you're in my arms, girl.
Oh-ooooh-ooooh-oooh, Burning so bright.
We'll light up the sky, Like a meteorite.
Oh-ooooh-ooooh-oooh, Oh-ooooh-ooooh-oooh.
Jillian Interviews Damian If you weren't Twisted Dreams lead singer, what would you be?
I hope to have my own label. I'm not sure what will happen with our band, but I see myself in the music industry in some way for a really long time.
We learned from Keatyn about one of your most embarrassing moments, when you tripped on the stage and fell flat on your face. Care to share that story?
I guess I probably deserve this question, since I'm always teasing Keats about her drunken night. Let's see if I can set this up right. Hot girl crush in the audience wearing the shortest skirt I think I'd ever seen. I'm not usually nervous on stage, but she made me nervous. I downed a few shots. Went out there. Tried to impress. I was going to be all suave and sing to her. I sauntered toward the edge of the stage, my eyes locked to hers while I sang. Then I tripped over a speaker. Not only did I fall flat on my face, I also fell off the stage and landed on one of her shoes. I never bothered to try and get her number.
You and Keatyn have been friends for a long time. You've written songs about her. Any romantic notions there?
I've known Keatyn almost my whole life. We've always been friends. Because we're close in age and because she was always bossing me around, I guess I probably treat her more like a sister. Do I think she's beautiful? Yes. Have I thought about what it might be like with her? Yes. Did I think it would be good? No, which is why I have never pursued it. Keats and I are a lot alike. That makes for a great friendship, but I don't think it would make for a good relationship.
What did you think of Brooklyn and Keatyn together?
I've known Brook for a couple years. I've known Keats my whole life. I should also point out that I was the one who started calling her Keats. At her dad's funeral, someone must've read a poem by John Keats. I wasn't very old, only eight, but I remember thinking I hated to see her cry. I wasn't really listening to the service, but I heard the word Keats and for some reason it stuck in my brain and I started calling her that. When Brook started calling her Keats too, it kinda pissed me off. And when she told me about his "Keats for my Keats" I kinda wanted to punch him. She's always been my Keats. My friend. I've never thought Brook was the right guy for her, but she crushed on him. I was happy for her when they got together, but I could tell it was already falling apart when they visited us on tour. He seemed on edge all the time. She was having a blast. Keatyn's a pretty girl. Guys notice her, for sure. It's going to take a guy with a lot of confidence to be with her long term. I never expected them to be much more than a fling. He's not the right guy for her. Did you notice that it was me she clung to after she was nearly kidnapped and not him? That should have been a good indication that he wasn't the one.
Tell me something fun that happened on Twisted Dreams' European tour.
Troy, our drummer, literally had his shirt ripped off by some crazy fans. It was nuts. We all call him Rip now, just to piss him off.
I don't know if you'll think this is funny or not. We all thought it was hilarious. So the whole band was pretty sick of Brook being around at this point. He was always complaining about something. I told him more than once to go back to the beach or shut the f*&% up. We knew if we got Keats up on stage it would really piss him off. He's kinda weird in that respect. I mean, come on, if you're gonna date a girl like her, you have to know that she soaks up the spotlight. That she loves being the center of attention. So for London show, we decided we'd get her up there. It was our biggest show and she looked crazy hot. It was awesome. The audience-well, the guys probably-loved it. She danced. Sang along with me. We finished by jumping off the stage to crowd surf. The look on his face when I put my hand out to pull her up on stage was priceless. He didn't stay and watch. He walked out. It was awesome. I know they got into a big fight because of it, so I felt a little bad about that, but still. It was awesome. And he's also going to freak out when I ask her to star in one of our band videos. If they are still together at that point.
What did you think of Keatyn and Aiden together?
He's the guy for her. I could see it clearly when I met him in St. Croix. And his sister. Let's just say that she got my creative juices flowing.
What do you like to do for fun?
Chill with my friends, write music, play guitar, and surf.
Are you into the rock-star life style-sex, drugs, and rock and roll?
No comment.
What about groupies?
It's great to have an enthusiastic fan base. That's probably all I should say on the subject.
The songs you write are so dreamy. We'd love to know who inspired them.
I find inspiration from many sources. Friends, family, loves.
Keatyn Douglas stars in your new music video. We hear she stopped dating professional surfer Brooklyn Wright for you.
She's my best friend. I told you that before. Nothing there, other than friendship.
DELETED SCENES.
Other than scenes deleted early on in the series, it was really kind of rare for me to delete a full scene from a book. The Kiss the Wolf scene was actually important from a who will she choose standpoint, and it gives a lot of clues as to what the ending of the book would be. Crazy as I sound talking about my dreams, this scene also is something that I dreamed. I woke up remembering the wolves chanting their song. At the time, I didn't really understand what this scene even meant. I'm not sure I do now, even. LOL. But yet, there's something about it. The primal sounds of the wolves. The sadness in their eyes. The fairytale possibilities.
Deleted Scene from Love Me Kiss the Wolf I'm on stage in a full-blown musical production.
One that feels very weird.
I'm wandering through the woods like Little Red Riding Hood. Happily visiting my grandmother when a wolf starts stalking me. He's big and dark and scary. He doesn't sing, but rather howls as the orchestra plays the kind of music that is foreboding. Based on the music I hear, I know the wolf wants to eat me. I wrap my cape around me tighter, hoping it will protect me, and run home.
In the next scene, I'm in a cabin lying on a big fluffy bed with a patchwork quilt. The set is an exact replica of the suite in France where B and I did it for the first time.
A different wolf with eyes the color of the ocean comes into my room. I'm scared because a wolf is in my room, but when I look in his eyes, I know I shouldn't be afraid.
Somehow, this wolf gets me to follow him into the woods.
The set background changes again. I'm now in a forest clearing surrounded by wolves. A wolf walks to the center of the circle. You can tell by the way he holds his head high, the shininess of his black fur, and the way the other wolves bow down to him, that he is their leader.
He speaks to me in a half howl-half English mix that I'm somehow able to interpret.
He tells me that the wolves need my help overthrowing the evil in the forest.
The leader sings to me in a deep baritone voice: "Rise up and let us out.
Show the world what you're about.
Don't be afraid to shine on stage.
Rid him of his evil ways.
True love's kiss will set them free.
Eyes and fur only man can see.
Feel his soul.
Rise and shout.
Kiss the wolf and let us out."
Then all the wolves start howling/singing in chorus. "Aaaaarroooo! Kiss the wolf and let us out!"
Three wolves move in front of me. The blue-eyed wolf that led me here, an emerald-eyed wolf, and a dark-eyed wolf.
The wolves seem familiar.
Could there be a human trapped inside the wolf? Obviously, they can't morph on their own, or they wouldn't need my help. Maybe they are cursed? Like that fairytale of the prince who got turned into a frog.
The blue-eyed wolf nuzzles against me. His light brown fur smells salty, like the ocean. I suddenly feel like I'm home, and I know without a doubt that B is trapped inside this wolf's body. He licks my hand then turns his head toward wolf number two.
This wolf is taller, broader, and has a shiny light-colored coat. His bright emerald eyes peer into my soul and when he sets his paw on top of my hand, it causing an electrical current to run through my veins. That would be Aiden.
The Aiden wolf slowly nods his head at me, like he read my thoughts, then turns his nose toward the next wolf.
This wolf has darker fur and eyes, his shoulders are slumped a little, like he's casual and laid back. The wolf opens his mouth and smiles a smile that I've loved forever. Then he proceeds to lick his wet tongue up the side of my face making me laugh. He sits down next to me like he's guarding me. I feel safe. Damian.
The Damian wolf sings to me: "True love's kiss will set us free.
Eyes and fur only man can see.
Feel our souls.
Rise and shout.
Kiss the wolf and let us out."
Am I supposed to kiss a wolf?
My true love wolf?
Or am I supposed to kiss all three and see if one works?
And why the hell is Damian in this mix? Shouldn't it be Dawson?
I think about curses in fairy tales. I don't think I can kiss them all and see. I have to know the wolf is my true love for it to work. I have to feel it in my heart.
Wolf Damian stands in a line with the B Wolf and the Aiden Wolf.
The wolves howl louder and louder. "Kiss the wolf and let us out. Kiss the wolf and let us out. Kiss the wolf and let us out. Kiss the wolf and let us out."
It gets so loud I cover my ears with my paws and cower.
Wait. I'm a wolf too?
I peek back at the three expectant wolves. They are growling at me, urging me to decide.
I look into each one of their eyes, take two steps, and kiss my true love as the wolves behind them start to transform back to men.
I wake up with a start.
Wondering who the hell I kissed.
The next deleted scene isn't actually a scene. It's the story of The Bachelor Prince play. I considered putting it in the book as Keatyn read the script, but decided it would be more fun for you to see pieces of it as she was rehearsing it. Also, to be honest, I was a little worried that it would give away who she would ultimately choose.
The Bachelor Prince The Good Prince (GP) sees the Cheerleader at a football game. He falls in love with her and asks her on a date.
They go on one of those all day dates.
They have a crazy quick love connection.
And to end their date, they share true love's kiss on the beach under a bright full moon.
(The Bad Prince (BP) and his butler witness this kiss.) The Queen tells the Princes that they must compete in a reality TV show to find their wife. To find their love. Not really because she believes in love. Mostly, because the monarchy is going bankrupt and they need the money.
The BP gets the Cheerleader to come on the show. He knows that the GP didn't tell her he was a prince. He knows this will defeat any shot the GP has of becoming king.
The Cheerleader agrees to go on the show and is shocked when she meets the GP. She's very mad he lied to her. Also, he hasn't called. (But it's only really because of this whole reality TV thing.) The BP wants to win the competition. He plays all the contestants, making them all believe that they are the one for him. He does this so none of them will fall for his brother. There is a hilarious hot tub scene where the BP is holding dates and kissing each contestant. The Cheerleader is the only girl he doesn't kiss.
The GP tells the Cheerleader that he loves her and apologizes for lying. She doesn't believe him and runs away, stopping to spill her guts to the BP.
There is a final TV scene. It's the big night. A ball in the castle's gardens, where each brother is supposed to announce who they love by giving her a rose. The BP rigs it so he goes first and although everyone expects him to pick the Debutante, they are shocked when he offers the rose and a massive engagement ring to the Cheerleader.
The GP leaves the ball, devastated. He wrongly assumes that the Cheerleader will say yes to his brother, and he can't bear to watch. The Queen watches all that is happening.
The Cheerleader tells the BP that although being a princess would be really cool, she doesn't love him. She leaves and chaotic hilarity ensues. All the finalists giving it one last shot to win the BP's ring. There is kissing, fighting, hair pulling, flirting.
And once the dust settles, the BP gets engaged to the Debutante.
The Cheerleader knows she's ruined things with the GP, so she goes to their beach, where they kissed under the moon, to cry it out.
But the GP is there.
"When we kissed the first time, I didn't know you were a prince. You were just the man I had fallen in love with."
She tells him she doesn't care about being a princess, or about his brother, and that she loves him.
He pulls a ring out of his pocket and proposes in the moonlight.
And she says yes.
The final scene of the play is the Queen announcing that the GP will be the King.
The final deleted scene is from Get Me. Although I feel these scenes are important, it happened while Keatyn was planning to leave Eastbrooke to go find a kidnapped Brooklyn. Because the time while Brooklyn was kidnapped was so tense, they interrupted the flow of the book and were ultimately taken out. For those of you who have gone on to read the Hollywood Love series, which features many of the characters as adults after the Keatyn series ends, you will also appreciate this scene in understanding Whitney and Dawson's relationship.
Wednesday, January 5th Too tired to deal.
Lunch Whitney is sitting at her table all by herself. This time, she doesn't look okay with it.
"Should we invite Whitney to sit with us?" Annie, always thoughtful, asks.
"No," Peyton says firmly. "No fucking way I'm sitting with her."
"Oh," Annie says. "Okay."
I look over at Whitney. She looks miserable. I feel bad for her. And under normal circumstances, I might have gone to sit with her just to show the school that I'm not mad at her. No one knows what she almost did to Peyton. And outing me was not that big of a deal in the scope of things going on in my life.