"It would have happened just the same, some day or another," he replied with conviction.
They still gazed at each other, seeking to read each other's inmost thoughts.
"I do not believe that I shall recover," he said at last. "I suffer too much."
"Do you suffer very much?" she murmured.
"Oh, yes!"
Bending a little lower, she brushed his forehead, then his eyes, then his cheeks with slow kisses, light, delicate as her care for him. She barely touched him with her lips, with that soft little breath that children give when they kiss. This lasted a long time, a very long time. He let that sweet rain of caresses fall on him, and they seemed to soothe and refresh him, for his drawn face twitched less than before.
"Any!" he said finally.
She ceased her kissing to listen to him.
"What, my friend?"
"You must make me a promise."
"I will promise anything you wish."
"If I am not dead before morning, swear to me that you will bring Annette to me, just once, only once! I cannot bear to die without seeing her again. . . . Think that . . . to-morrow . . . at this time perhaps I shall have . . . shall surely have closed my eyes forever and that I never shall see you again. I . . . nor you . . . nor her!"
She stopped him; her heart was breaking.
"Oh, hush . . . hush! Yes, I promise you to bring her!"
"You swear it?"
"I swear it, my friend. But hush, do not talk any more. You hurt me frightfully--hush!"
A quick convulsion passed over his face; when it had passed he said:
"Since we have only a few minutes more to remain together, do not let us lose them; let us seize them to bid each other good-by. I have loved you so much----"
"And I," she sighed, "how I still love you!"
He spoke again:
"I never have had real happiness except through you. Only these last days have been hard. . . . It was not your fault. . . . Ah, my poor Any, how sad life is! . . . and how hard it is to die!"
"Hush, Olivier, I implore you!"
He continued, without listening to her: "I should have been a happy man if you had not had your daughter. . . ."
"Hush! My God! Hush! . . ."
He seemed to dream rather than speak.
"Ah, he that invented this existence and made men was either blind or very wicked. . . ."
"Olivier, I entreat you . . . if you ever have loved me, be quiet, do not talk like that any more!"
He looked at her, leaning over him, she herself so pale that she looked as if she were dying, too; and he was silent.
Then she seated herself in the armchair, close to the bed, and again took the hand on the coverlet.
"Now I forbid you to speak," said she. "Do not stir, and think of me as I think of you."
Again they looked at each other, motionless, joined together by the burning contact of their hands. She pressed, with gentle movement, the feverish hand she clasped, and he answered these calls by tightening his fingers a little. Each pressure said something to them, evoked some period of their finished past, revived in their memory the stagnant recollections of their love. Each was a secret question, each was a mysterious reply, sad questions and sad replies, those "do you remembers?" of a bygone love.
Their minds, in this agonizing meeting, which might be the last, traveled back through the years, through the whole history of their passion; and nothing was audible in the room save the crackling of the fire.
Suddenly, as if awakening from a dream, he said, with a start of terror:
"Your letters!"
"What? My letters?" she queried.
"I might have died without destroying them!"
"Oh, what does that matter to me? That is of no consequence now. Let them find them and read them--I don't care!"
"I will not have that," he said. "Get up, Any; open the lowest drawer of my desk, the large one; they are all there, all. You must take them and throw them into the fire."
She did not move at all, but remained crouching, as if he had counseled her to do something cowardly.
"Any, I entreat you!" he continued; "if you do not do this, you will torture me, unnerve me, drive me mad. Think--they may fall into anyone's hands, a notary, a servant, or even your husband. . . . I do not wish. . . ."
She rose, still hesitating, and repeating:
"No, that is too hard, too cruel! I feel as if you were compelling me to burn both our hearts!"
He supplicated her, his face drawn with pain.
Seeing him suffer thus, she resigned herself and walked toward the desk.
On opening the drawer, she found it filled to the edge with a thick packet of letters, piled one on top of another, and she recognized on all the envelopes the two lines of the address she had written so often.
She knew them--those two lines--a man's name, the name of a street--as well as she knew her own name, as well as one can know the few words that have represented to us in life all hope and all happiness. She looked at them, those little square things that contained all she had known how to express of her love, all that she could take of herself to give to him, with a little ink on a bit of white paper.
He had tried to turn his head on the pillow that he might watch her, and again he said: "Burn them, quick!"
Then she took two handfuls, holding them a few seconds in her grasp.
They seemed heavy to her, painful, living, at the same time dead, so many different things were in them, so many things that were now over--so sweet to feel, to dream! It was the soul of her soul, the heart of her heart, the essence of her loving self that she was holding there; and she remembered with what delirium she had scribbled some of them, with what exaltation, what intoxication of living and of adoring some one, and of expressing it.
"Burn them! Burn them, Any!" Olivier repeated.
With the same movement of both hands, she cast into the fireplace the two packets of papers, which became scattered as they fell upon the wood. Then she seized those that remained in the desk and threw them on top of the others, then another handful, with swift movements, stooping and rising again quickly, to finish as soon as might be this terrible task.
When the fireplace was full and the drawer empty, she remained standing, waiting, watching the almost smothered flames as they crept up from all sides on that mountain of envelopes. They attacked them first at the edges, gnawed at the corners, ran along the edge of the paper, went out, sprang up again, and went creeping on and on. Soon, all around that white pyramid glowed a vivid girdle of clear fire which filled the room with light; and this light, illuminating the woman standing and the man dying, was their burning love, their love turned to ashes.