“Is it?” He lowered his head, slowly closing into her. So close that she can see herself reflected in his eyes. … “No, I can’t, I can’t…” Si Nian’s tears began to overflow. Cheng Chen was so frantic from her tears that he clumsily held onto her. Only after coaxing her gently for a long time, Si Nian quieted down. In a timid voice, she said, “Say, do you think I’m built differently? I never heard that it would hurt this much…” Cheng Chen wiped away her tears with regained calmness. “Since it’s your first time, it’s very normal.” Si Nian guiltily looked at Cheng Chen. Contemplating for a long time, she finally said, “Why don’t you… go to the bathroom?” “… go to sleep.” Cheng Chen turned off all the lights and then hold her tightly in his embrace. After a while, the sound of breathing beside her ears began to calm. He must be asleep. Si Nian hesitated for a moment before grabbing her phone to send Shen Wei Jue a text. The reply was almost immediate: “Aren’t you in your marital bed?” Si Nian almost bit her tongue. “How did you know?” Shen Wei Jue: “My idol told me. Just now he called me to gossip.” … She didn’t know whether to cry or laugh. When she was still thinking how to respond, Shen Wei Jue had already sent her another text. “Did you succeed?” Si Nian: “Not yet…” Shen Wei Jue: “It couldn’t be, could it? Did you simply had a talk under the quilt? You’re both at marriage age, what innocence are you guys trying to fake?” Si Nian: “What marriage age…” Shen Wei Jue: “It’s true that your chest is a little small, perhaps he lost interest after seeing you. Didn’t I say, you should be eating more...” Si Nian: “What… it’s he who doesn’t know how to do it!” Shen Wei Jue: “… do you think this is doing a maths question? All men know how to do this!” Si Nian quietly thought about this for a moment, then slipped the phone under the pillow. She turned over and shook Cheng Chen awake. “What’s wrong?” His voice was thick of sleep, he was still half awake. “Continue?” … Cheng Chen was quiet, neither did he move. He went back to sleep… Si Nian lightly turned under the quilt. When she was about to give up completely, an arm firmly embraced her waist. He was no longer as accommodating as he was in their previous tries. In the dark, her entire body was flushed with heat. She hugged him nervously. “Were you pretending... weren’t you not able to do it earlier?” Cheng Chen laughed. “I’m afraid that you’ll be hurt. The moment you said it hurts, I stopped immediately.” Now, he was no longer afraid? He helplessly tried to distract her, saying in a quiet voice, “I think if I don’t finish this thoroughly, you won’t let me sleep in these few days…” His tongue gently probed hers, whatever words were left unsaid. His hand propped her neck, adjusting the angle of their kiss, not giving her a chance to respond. … “Si Nian?” She was left completely deprived of energy, her heart still furiously beating to the point she was beginning to feel numb. After Cheng Chen called her name again, she gritted her teeth and made a sound of acknowledgment. She then kicked him softly in the leg. How sly, he actually pretended he didn’t know how to do it… “Do you want to take a bath?” He gently stroked her hair. “I’ll carry you there?” “… Don’t want to.” She just wanted to go to bed and sleep to death. “Then I’ll go?” Cheng Chen still humoured her good-naturedly. “It’s almost five. I’m starting work at six. If you want to go back to Shanghai, I’ll have my assistant book you a ticket for tomorrow.” Si Nian made an “en” sound, hugging his waist.