Yawang walks towards the bus stop with her head down, it’s still early to be going to work with a few people standing by the bus stop. She don’t need to wait long for the No. 23 bus to arrive in front of them. She climbs up to the bus and swipes her card, sitting herself down near the back of the bus. As the bus starts to move, she stares ahead blankly. After half an hour, the bus stops at the stop near her company. She gets off the bus and walks to a nearby breakfast cafe and orders a bowl of wonton. She waits in her seat, looking out at the window, being able to see the people across the street clearly. She looks far ahead, looking slightly absentminded.
Four years ago, this was where she saw Tang Xiao Tian standing across the street. That time, she was away from home for two years, she didn’t tell anyone where she went. In the middle, she missed her mother too much so she decided to call her. Her mother cried on the phone, telling her to take care of herself and to come back whenever she’s ready. Shu Yawang kept on nodding her head at her mother’s words.
“After you left, Xiao Tian still kept writing letters to you everyday. He would always come here when he have breaks, he said he won’t look down on you, he will wait for you.” Shu Yawang grips onto the phone tightly and bites her lips.
“Tell him to not wait for me, don’t wait for me.”
“Yawang-ah, Xiao Tian wrote you a lot of letters, how about I send them over to you?”
“No, Mom, don’t send them to me.” She quickly rejects her mother’s suggestion. She’s scared of seeing Xiao Tian’s letters, scared that she won’t be able to control how she misses him, scared that she won’t be able to persist, scared that she will betray Xia Mu who is in prison.
Even though she rejects the letters, her mother still sends the bulk of letters to her. She didn’t dare to open them, not even one! She stacks them up and hides them underneath her bed. How many times did she wanted to open those letters, she can’t remember…
Then one day, as she goes on to her normal routine of heading to work, she sees someone who she didn’t think she will ever see again. She sees him rushing towards her as the cars pass by so she frantically hides herself. She sees him looking frantically at the crowd of people on the streets, trying to find her. She sees him walking towards her direction and shrinks back, thinking that he might find her. But he didn’t, he just got too tired. He leans his body against the wall while she’s been hiding behind that wall, covering her mouth as she whimpers softly. He leans against the wall, biting onto his lips as his eyes redden, looking at the crowd with a sad face. Shu Yawang thought that time was just a coincidence, that he would leave W City soon. However, every day after that encounter, she would see him standing there, trying to look for her, waiting for her.