"2017, February 19th . My situation is worse than expected . I can feel my senses receding by the day . I no longer feel the need to smile, to cry, or even to feel pain . I feel like a walking dead . The dosage of the tranquilizer has increased from 4 to 8 per intake . "
"2017, February 21st . During lunch, I realize I can no longer taste food . More importantly, during the meeting, I couldn't bring myself to announce the ending of the meeting . The words simply won't come to my mouth . Am I missing the ability of speech right after missing the ability of taste?"
"2017, February 23rd . I'm afraid that I'll collapse randomly one day before the date of her wedding, before I leave Beijing . I've increased the dosage of the tranquilizer, but the anxiety still remains . In my annoyance, I shredded a contract worth several hundred million . I don't even know who I am anymore . I agreed to Song Menghwa's request to meet a girl because I want to let her know I'm trying my best to live up to my end of the promise . "
"2017, February 25th . Today, I haven't said one single word . When I returned home, I tried talking to myself because I was really afraid that I had lost the power of speech . I realized the words 'Tingting' and 'Qingchun' roll off my tongue easily . I increased the dosage of the tranquilizer, and I finally had a good night's sleep, but I understand that was because I passed out from the overdose . "
"2017, February 25th . Today, I haven't said one single word . When I returned home, I tried talking to myself because I was really afraid that I had lost the power of speech . I realized the words 'Tingting' and 'Qingchun' roll off my tongue easily . I increased the dosage of the tranquilizer, and I finally had a good night's sleep, but I understand that was because I passed out from the overdose . "
"2017, February 27th . I found myself unwilling to get up from bed because I dreamed about her . Only in my dreams do I dare love her . "
"2017, March 3rd . I found a lawyer to split up the stocks under my name . 30 percent I'll give her, and 20 percent I will leave for mother and Song Menghwa . As for the real estate, mother and she will each share half . After the lawyer left, I stared out the window, blanking out for a long time . I've known that I will inevitably lose her since many years ago . Even though she has never really been mine, as her wedding date draws closer, I feel like the distance between us grows bigger . I realize I'm not as strong as I imagine . That night, the Su Zhinian at Hai Nan who gave her the promise, the beautiful dream has also given her his life . "
"2017, March 3rd . I found a lawyer to split up the stocks under my name . 30 percent I'll give her, and 20 percent I will leave for mother and Song Menghwa . As for the real estate, mother and she will each share half . After the lawyer left, I stared out the window, blanking out for a long time . I've known that I will inevitably lose her since many years ago . Even though she has never really been mine, as her wedding date draws closer, I feel like the distance between us grows bigger . I realize I'm not as strong as I imagine . That night, the Su Zhinian at Hai Nan who gave her the promise, the beautiful dream has also given her his life . "
Liar, big liar… The person who suggested to return to a life under the sun after the date was over is you, but the first to renege is also you .
He had lied to her many times, and she would always fall for it .
Liar, big liar…
He had lied to her many times, and she would always fall for it .
Liar, big liar…
Song Qingchun wiped away her tears and turned the page . Only one last entry remained .
"2017, March 5th . I finally brought the girl I've met with three times home . Tingting was home as well . She seemed to have a good rapport with the girl . Speaking of which, I haven't really spoken a full sentence to that girl before . Actually, I really didn't want to smile at the girl, but Tingting was there, so I forced myself to . I've promised her, we will both walk away into a better life . Even though I'm faking it, Tingting has to see that I'm living up my end of the bargain so that she will commit to hers . "
2017, February 19th . My situation is worse than expected . I can feel my senses receding by the day . I no longer feel the need to smile, to cry, or even to feel pain . I feel like a walking dead . The dosage of the tranquilizer has increased from 4 to 8 per intake . 2017, February 21st . During lunch, I realize I can no longer taste food . More importantly, during the meeting, I couldnt bring myself to announce the ending of the meeting . The words simply wont come to my mouth . Am I missing the ability of speech right after missing the ability of taste? 2017, February 23rd . Im afraid that Ill collapse randomly one day before the date of her wedding, before I leave Beijing . Ive increased the dosage of the tranquilizer, but the anxiety still remains . In my annoyance, I shredded a contract worth several hundred million . I dont even know who I am anymore . I agreed to Song Menghwas request to meet a girl because I want to let her know Im trying my best to live up to my end of the promise . 2017, February 25th . Today, I havent said one single word . When I returned home, I tried talking to myself because I was really afraid that I had lost the power of speech . I realized the words Tingting and Qingchun roll off my tongue easily . I increased the dosage of the tranquilizer, and I finally had a good nights sleep, but I understand that was because I passed out from the overdose . 2017, February 27th . I found myself unwilling to get up from bed because I dreamed about her . Only in my dreams do I dare love her . 2017, March 3rd . I found a lawyer to split up the stocks under my name . 30 percent Ill give her, and 20 percent I will leave for mother and Song Menghwa . As for the real estate, mother and she will each share half . After the lawyer left, I stared out the window, blanking out for a long time . Ive known that I will inevitably lose her since many years ago . Even though she has never really been mine, as her wedding date draws closer, I feel like the distance between us grows bigger . I realize Im not as strong as I imagine . That night, the Su Zhinian at Hai Nan who gave her the promise, the beautiful dream has also given her his life . Liar, big liar… The person who suggested to return to a life under the sun after the date was over is you, but the first to renege is also you . He had lied to her many times, and she would always fall for it . Liar, big liar… Song Qingchun wiped away her tears and turned the page . Only one last entry remained . 2017, March 5th . I finally brought the girl Ive met with three times home . Tingting was home as well . She seemed to have a good rapport with the girl . Speaking of which, I havent really spoken a full sentence to that girl before . Actually, I really didnt want to smile at the girl, but Tingting was there, so I forced myself to . Ive promised her, we will both walk away into a better life . Even though Im faking it, Tingting has to see that Im living up my end of the bargain so that she will commit to hers .