I got up and stretched my body, looked around Kang Zixian's room which had a simple robust style, purely a man's room. In fact, at this height, outside the ceiling to floor full panel glass window, the whole urban scenery was the best point of this room. Not to mention the large tracts of golden sunshine that flooded through the window into the room. I think, waking up in a place like this every day would particularly brighten up a person's mood.
My mood which was bright suddenly did not become so bright after all.
Li Fang had mentioned earlier that Kang Zixian had an American girlfriend before. Now that I think of it, I felt a little guilty. According to Fei Ge's words, a man was like a gust of wind and a gust of rain. Sometimes, they would want to be both wind and rain.
Whoever believes in a man's words is a silly idiot.
I had to admit that last night, the situation was appropriate. Kang Zixian's voice and eyes were so confusing and in addition, when I was young, I had visualized the night-masked man as my beau. Now, there is such a charming invincible man, my mind in a daze, I had actually surrendered.
I pouted my lips and in a huff, used my hands to knock my head several times. Last night I had only intended to wake him up to boost my courage. In the end, how did I get so muddleheaded to fall into his gentle offensive? And.....and also went into his room and climbed onto his bed?
I stared at the big blue bed, surrounded by the man's smell, strange and fatal. Suddenly I felt shocked and quickly jumped out of the bed like a frightened bird placed in a cupboard on the defensive with my heart in a mess.
The Bureau had often educated us to fight into enemy territory but how could I enter so deeply into his territory?
"Do you normally greet the morning with this expression?"
There was a sound of the door opening, I turned around and looked. Kang Zixian smiled and looked at me. Contrary to my depressed expression, he was bright and lively, his facial expression showing his happiness and satisfaction.
I did not move, held my gaze and looked at him thoughtfully. It was said that some carnivores whilst hunting, their blood vessels would expand. The more intense its prey tries to flee, the more intense the fun will be. Sometimes stalking, sometimes in hot pursuit and will not give up until the prey is finally caught.
These type of animals like the process of taming, like the smell of blood more than peace.
The handsome man leaning against the door frame could conquer Eastern and Western women, with a mouth that spewed honey, an excellent man, a rich son of a wealthy, prominent family.......can I believe him?
Believing in him would make me a silly idiot as Fei Ge had said and I was definitely not a silly idiot.
Seeing that I did not speak, Kang Zixian dropped his smile and resumed his dignified look, came to stand in front of me.
I looked up at him. He took my hand, held it up to his lips and gave it a light kiss. "Can you tell me what is your little melon head thinking about?"
The hand that he kissed felt as if it had received an electric shock, the streak of electric current passing through made it numb. I felt uneasy and pretended nothing had happened. I casually withdrew my hand, acting relaxed and pretended to look around. "Oh, I was thinking.....your room is really high up and any day when you look up into the sky, you may see an UFO.....*he, he, he*. And yes, your bed is also very comfortable and sleeping in this bed, spending a lifetime in dreams is also worth it. I'll go back and save money to buy one too.....ai, how much does one cost?"
I was smiling but in fact, my heart was beating like crazy because every time when I stand near him, he would look intently at me with his dark black eyes. My brain would freeze and when I opened my eyes wide to talk, my heart would quiver and I would sweat.
And every time I rambled nonsensically, he would be able to ruthlessly expose my deeds.
It is the same this time.
Kang Zixian looked at me, his eyes shining brightly. "I remembered the last time when you looked at me like this, with that troubled look on your face, you pushed me out of the door, left your house and simply ran away." He lifted the loose hair near my cheek, pushed it behind my ear and smiled. "So this time, is your melon head planning another escape plan? But you must also be clear I know where to find you."
Although he had a well-mannered and gentle smile, his words were like a sharp knife and I was like chicken claws under his knife. If I behaved well then he would let me leap around a few more times.....but if I was to misbehave, then I was waiting to be cut down.
Such a man was too high-handed and also had the perseverance.....of not giving up until he had accomplished his objective. He could see through me but I could not see through him. We were not of the same level.
Our difference in level was too drastic, my chicken neck was held in a deadlock.
I could not out-play him.
Unable to out-play him then I had to hide from him but he persistently did not allow me to hide. Then I could only ask him to stop his one-sided launch of the game.
I said. "Let me wash up first. Wait for me downstairs, I have something to tell you."
Splashing cold water on my face, I felt clear headed. I looked into the mirror and saw my wet, blur face which probably should be the legendary 'face caught in the web of love'.
I looked at myself left and right and laughed for a moment. To tell the truth, this face which was 'caught in the web of love' was actually quite flirtatious.
Having said that, I remembered when I was dating Fu Chen, I was not tormented like this. I did not have to worry about being dumped the next second and did not have to worry about being replaced by someone new because, in my eyes, Fu Chen is not a womanizer.
I should consider myself as blind. Not only did he find someone new but also had to choose my cousin sister which really was a slap in my face.
I went downstairs bravely and in high-spirits, looked for Kang Zixian hoping to negotiate and saw him sitting at the table reading the newspaper. When he saw me coming, he put down his newspaper. Before I could speak, he lowered his eyebrow and said. "Eat your breakfast first. After eating you will have the strength to speak."
I sat down and shook my head. "No...... I'll have a good mood to eat only after speaking."
He nodded slightly and I continued bravely. "Let's forget about last night's conversation. That....you know, at night the brain is usually chaotic like glue and we are prone to say things that we do not mean. This.... you can rest assured that I will keep it in my heart. Who had never said a wrong thing before, right? Although you are a successful man but do not be too confident because there are times you make mistakes, I.......we are not suited to each other, actually, we do not match."
As I was speaking, I stole a few glances at Kang Zixian. He listened quietly and took a sip of his fruit juice.
I simply looked at him, blinked my eyes once and bravely spat out all the words that were held in my heart. "From young, my mother had taught me, the pie that falls from the sky is sometimes not a pie. Sometimes it is a heavy metal disc that can kill people. I think for me, you are a pie that fell from the sky. I'm quite baffled. My sisters had also said that rich people are quick to fall in love and also quick to fall out of love......uh. I did not say you're like that but just meant it in general. Although my mind is confused but what my heart wants, I know. I.....I like a steady long-lasting relationship. I told my ex-boyfriend the same, steady and long-lasting, it was quite......."
"The man I saw in the shopping mall last time, was he your ex-boyfriend?" Kang Zixian suddenly cut off my words. He looked up with bright eyes.
I hesitated for a moment. After a long while, I solemnly nodded my head. "Yes, it was him. We......broke up six months ago."
I bowed my head, played with my chopsticks and said. "I'm not ready......we can still be friends."
I stared at the table top. A pair of big simple hands stretched over and covered my hands, gave me a reassuring squeeze. I lifted my head and looked at him.
Kang Zixian smiled at me. It seems that my proposal did not surprise him. He said. "I'm sorry. It seems that I had pushed you too hard, let's take this slowly."
I did not speak.
"If you like a steady long-lasting relationship then we will have a steady long-lasting relationship but I do not agree with your suggestion of us being friends. I will not accept it."
"The so-called rich people are quick to fall in love and also quick to fall out of love.....cannot be taken as your reason to refuse me. We just need time to understand each other......... I'll wait for you to be ready to accept new feelings, new love. It does not matter how long it takes because....." Kang Zixian suddenly paused, affectionately looked at me. "Because in my eyes, Fang Liang Liang is unique, one and the only one. I will not hand her over to someone else."
When he said those words, I choked back the rejection on my lips and swallowed it back into my stomach. My heart was overwhelmed and I was at a loss.
"So, can you tell me the answer?" Kang Zixian asked me.
"Well, okay." I scratched my head. "Maybe after some time, you will find that I'm not as good as you imagine. Anyway, we'll do what you suggest."
Hastily I finished my breakfast, went back into my room and combed my hair to 'Jian Mei Da' silly girl style of two braids and transformed myself from a matured woman into a naive young sister.
Yesterday I had texted Jiang Li a message to meet me in the library for self-study which was the glorified term for assignment.
He readily agreed.
I carried my pink-color school bag and walked out of my room. Kang Zixian was working on his computer at the dining table and glanced at me twice as I came out. I gave him a sunny girl smile and lay my upper body on the table, asked him in a low voice. "Uncle, am I lovely?"
He did not look at me, ruthlessly said. "Come back early or I'll call you every ten minutes."
"Uncle is so petty."
"If it is you.....your girlfriend is going out with an 18-year-old boy for dating and you cannot do anything, what will you think?"
"Hey, I'm not your girlfriend."
Kang Zixian gave me a sad look and my happy mood was dampened by his sad expression. Gathering my feelings, I left.
I took a taxi and arrived at the library located in a scenic spot. I got off from the taxi and saw his tall, slim and straight young figure brimming with vigor and vitality. His handsome face was cold and expressionless but it was enough to attract the admiration from a few girls passing by.
In the morning I had to deal with a difficult man and now I had to handle another one. I had no more fighting spirit but still had to perk up myself to wave warmly at him.
"Jiang Li! ! ! !" I called to him from afar, he looked over at me and I waved at him. I stood in front of him, exaggeratedly covered my mouth in pretense and exclaimed. "Wow, Jiang Li, you're so handsome."
He was really handsome, wearing beige pants and a pure white V-neckline T-shirt coupled with his fair skin. His one glance would cause girls to swoon and be love-struck.
But fortunately, this auntie was calm because I had seen another man more handsome this morning.
But Jiang Li's icy expression seemed to be colder than usual like the first time we met, like a stranger. He simply said. "Let's go in."
And then taking big strides, he walked into the library.
I could only follow behind him, flattered him and tried to find a topic to talk to him.
"Jiang Li, what did you do yesterday? Last night, I watched a horror film called The Curse. Wa.....that film was scary, so scary that I cried. I really cried, look at me.....is there any dark circles under my eyes? Last night I was so scared that I did not sleep and I told my family that I will never watch horror film again in my life........"
I endured a belly full of nausea to act cute, tried to show my lovely side and my act was remarkably perfect.
Jiang Li who was walking in front suddenly stopped and coldly turned around. He looked at me with his narrowed eyes, impatiently glanced at me and then suddenly the corner of his mouth lifted into a smile although his smile was a bit cold. "Are you really scared?"
I nodded silently and was curious about the way he reacted.
He laughed with a trace of evil and said. "Suddenly I do not want to do my assignment. Follow me."
He took me to the third floor where there was an electronic reading room.
When he started the computer and I sat at the side with a bright smile. From the movie library, he picked up the film The Curse and then my brilliant smile became distorted.
Last night Kang Zixian and I had watched The Curse 2 and now he was watching The Curse 3.
Jiang Li looked at me, smiling slightly. He sucked in his cheeks, smiling like a hideous devil, said in a strange way. "Since you've mentioned it, I suddenly want to watch this too. Let's watch together."
"I want to go to the toilet."
"Endure."
I looked sideways at the handsome young man beside me with his gloomy face and gulped. Suddenly I realized that recently, men were like female ghosts.......they make me feel afraid inside out.