Companions of Paradise.
by Thalassa Ali.
To all those who have been brave enough to speak the truth in the face of opposition
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
First, I want to thank my fabulous editor, Kate Miciak, who bought The Paradise Trilogy from a rookie writer, and never looked back. Kate, if it weren't for you, A Singular Hostage, A Beggar at the Gate A Singular Hostage, A Beggar at the Gate, and now Companions of Paradise Companions of Paradise would never have seen the light of day. Thanks also to my energetic agent, Jill Kneerim of Kneerim and Williams, who took me on, and had the very good sense to show my first manuscript to Kate. would never have seen the light of day. Thanks also to my energetic agent, Jill Kneerim of Kneerim and Williams, who took me on, and had the very good sense to show my first manuscript to Kate.I owe much to my friend and consultant on all matters Afghan: the excellent historian and editor Kamar Habibi, and to my writing teacher, the late, incomparable Arthur Edelstein.Thanks to my writing group, who stood by me as I struggled and complained my way through all three books, including Companions of Paradise: Companions of Paradise: Lakshmi Bloom, Elatia Harris, Cathie Keenan, Kathleen Patton, Pam Raskin, and Jane Strekalovsky. Each of you has made a valuable contribution to this trilogy. Thank you all from the bottom of my heart. Lakshmi Bloom, Elatia Harris, Cathie Keenan, Kathleen Patton, Pam Raskin, and Jane Strekalovsky. Each of you has made a valuable contribution to this trilogy. Thank you all from the bottom of my heart.There are many others who have helped me in varous ways:My dear, patient friend Zeba Mirza, who was left out of the acknowledgments for A Beggar at the Gate. A Beggar at the Gate. Shelale Abbasi, Gillo and Ali Afridi, Dure Afzal, Shehryar Ahmad, Faqir Syed Aijazuddin, Bunny Amin, Kathleen Baldonado, Bill Bell, Brian Bergeron, Upty Clouse. Lenny Golay, Tariq Jafar, Farida and Asad Ali Khan, Judy and Bazl Khan, Tahireh and Zafar Khan, Jessica Lipnack and Jeff Stamps, Janet Lowenthal, Erika McCarthy, Cornelia McPeak, Rashid and Bano Makhdoom, Azim Mian, Kyra and Coco Montagu, Fauzia Najm, the Pakistan Mission to the UN, Ann and Frank Porter, Sharon Propson, Samina Quraeshi, Meheriene Qureshi, my sister Ala Reid, Sam and Juliet Reid, Sally Redmond, Shakil and Rehana Saigol, Mansoor Suhail, Javed and Farida Talat, Audrey Walker, Serita Winthrop, and Joyce Zinno. Shelale Abbasi, Gillo and Ali Afridi, Dure Afzal, Shehryar Ahmad, Faqir Syed Aijazuddin, Bunny Amin, Kathleen Baldonado, Bill Bell, Brian Bergeron, Upty Clouse. Lenny Golay, Tariq Jafar, Farida and Asad Ali Khan, Judy and Bazl Khan, Tahireh and Zafar Khan, Jessica Lipnack and Jeff Stamps, Janet Lowenthal, Erika McCarthy, Cornelia McPeak, Rashid and Bano Makhdoom, Azim Mian, Kyra and Coco Montagu, Fauzia Najm, the Pakistan Mission to the UN, Ann and Frank Porter, Sharon Propson, Samina Quraeshi, Meheriene Qureshi, my sister Ala Reid, Sam and Juliet Reid, Sally Redmond, Shakil and Rehana Saigol, Mansoor Suhail, Javed and Farida Talat, Audrey Walker, Serita Winthrop, and Joyce Zinno.And of course my greatest allies, my children Sophie and Toby Ali.Thank you, thank you, thank you all.
HISTORICAL NOTE
For all its remoteness and high, inaccessible mountains, Afghanistan played an important role in the Great Game- the epic, nineteenth-century struggle between Britain and Russia for control of Central Asia.Afghanistan's value lay in its trade routes, for it stood at the heart of a network of ancient caravan tracks known collectively as the Silk Route. Those narrow, treacherous roads connecting Russia and China with India and Rome had been used for thousands of years to transport rock salt, lapis lazuli, tea, and silk, but they had also served as invasion routes for the armies of Alexander the Great, Genghis Khan, and other conquerors.By the late 1830s, the British had established colonies in much of southern and central India and had begun to look north, toward the rich kingdom of the Punjab on the Afghan border. But even as they approached Afghanistan from the southeast, their rivals, the Russians, were moving down from the northwest, and had begun to threaten Persia.It was not difficult for the British to convince themselves that the Russians would soon take over Afghanistan, invade India, and snatch away Britain's possessions there. Their solution was to preempt this threat by deposing the Afghan king, Amir Dost Mohammad, and replacing him with Shah Shuja, his British-leaning rival.In 1839, the British implemented their plan. Having driven out Amir Dost Mohammad and declared Shah Shuja king, they settled their army and ten thousand camp followers into a cantonment, or fort, north of Kabul, and sent for their wives and children.Two years later, they paid dearly for their folly.Of the characters in Companions of Paradise Companions of Paradise, Akbar Khan, Abdullah Khan, Aminullah Khan, Shah Shuja-ul-Mulk, Sir Alexander Burnes, Sir William Macnaghten, Lady Macnaghten, General Sir William Elphinstone, General Sale, his wife Lady Florentia Sale, his son-in-law Captain Sturt, Brigadier Shelton, and Major Wade are all historical figures.Mariana Givens, her uncle Adrian Lamb, and her aunt Claire Lamb are fictional characters, as are Harry Fitzgerald, Charles Mott, Hassan Ali Khan, his son Saboor, his father Shaikh Waliullah Karakoyia, and his aunt Safiya Sultana, Munshi Sahib, Haji Khan, Nur Rahman, and all the servants.[image][image]
March 21, 1841Mariana Givens sat at a small camp table inside her tent doorway and looked uneasily at the stony landscape in front of her.She could see nothing unusual about the caravan halting station of Butkhak. Its scrubby, sloping hills seemed to fold into each other in the same way as those she had seen at every stopping place between India and Afghanistan. The walled town itself looked unremarkable. Even the ragged nomads with their black tents, their camels, and their herds of jostling sheep were identical to the ones she and her English traveling companions had encountered for the past six weeks.She shivered, and adjusted her shawls. Why, then, did this place, only a day's march from Kabul, tug insistently at her imagination? Perhaps it had been responsible for the strange, upsetting vision that had come to her a few nights earlier, as she lay waiting for sleep.Mariana was no stranger to prescient dreams, for they had come to her before, but no previous vision of hers had been as troubling as the great funeral procession that had appeared without warning and passed before her-a silent horde of English people, its leaders on horseback, the rest of the mourners in carriages or on foot, all wearing solemn black, down to the tiniest bonneted girl.To what melancholy destination had they been going as they filed down a rock-strewn slope, and out of sight? And why had her queasy dread at the sight of them been accompanied by a quickening in her heart, as if something quite different and very important was about to happen to her?A folded paper lay in front of her on the table. Covered with elegant right-to-left script, it was her Persian poetry lesson for the day. As she glanced at it without interest, a discreet shuffling came from outside.A moment later, an elderly man appeared, shoeless, in her doorway. He wore the characteristic long shirt and baggy trousers of northern India and Afghanistan. A shawl lay draped across his shoulders."As-salaam-o-alaikum, Bibi," he offered mildly, and he stepped inside. he offered mildly, and he stepped inside.Mariana leapt to her feet, her skirts swaying, the fingers of her right hand pressed to her forehead in greeting. "And peace be upon you, Munshi Sahib," she replied, glad that her aunt Claire had not witnessed such respectful treatment of an Indian native.Her munshi was exactly the person she wanted to see.At first glance, Mariana's language teacher seemed no more than a wispy old man with a three-day growth of beard and a qaraquli qaraquli hat set squarely on his narrow head, but Munshi Sahib was far more than that. He was a Follower of the Path, and a custodian of secrets that Mariana longed to learn. hat set squarely on his narrow head, but Munshi Sahib was far more than that. He was a Follower of the Path, and a custodian of secrets that Mariana longed to learn.He did not sit down, although she had invited him to do so many times. Instead, he came and stood as usual beside her chair, rocking a little on his stocking feet, his hands clasped behind his back."Have you finished your translation, Bibi?" he asked, inclining his head toward the paper on the table."I have, Munshi Sahib," she replied, frowning up at him, "but today is not a day for mystic poetry. There is something else I need to know."Her dread returned as she told him of her dream. While she spoke, he shifted his gaze to the doorway and looked outside, as if he were imagining the same column of black-clad mourners marching noiselessly past her tent."Can you tell me what it means?" she asked, when she had finished.He looked into her questioning face, his expression unreadable. "I can, Bibi," he replied gently, "but not today.""Please, Munshi Sahib," she begged."I will say this much," he said gravely. "Whatever may happen in the future, you must not fear for yourself. You must allow yourself to be drawn toward your destiny."He straightened his shoulders. "I will recite a verse," he announced. "It does not explain your dream, but it offers knowledge that may prove useful to you when the time comes."With that, he began to declaim in a language Mariana did not understand, his eyes half closed, his voice a minor singsong. He drew out some sounds and hurried past others, producing the same throaty vowels and half-stops that had beckoned to her ever since she had first heard them.He was speaking neither Urdu nor Persian, for she had studied both languages."I have recited a small portion of the Holy Qur'an in Arabic," he said when he had finished, confirming her guess."Like all Qur'anic verses, this one has multiple meanings," he added. "I will give you the most straightforward of them. You must keep it in your heart."She nodded, wondering why he looked at her with such intensity."I call to witness," he intoned, bringing his hands in front of him, moving them in arcs as he drew out his words, he intoned, bringing his hands in front of him, moving them in arcs as he drew out his words, "the ruddy glow of sunset; "the ruddy glow of sunset;"The Night and its Homing, and The Moon in her Fullness; Thou shalt surely travel From stage to stage."She nodded, then unable to help herself, she blurted out her other question, the one she had wanted to ask ever since they left India, three weeks earlier."Please tell me, Munshi Sahib," she pleaded, certain he could tell her, but equally convinced he would not, "will I return to Lahore? Will I ever see Saboor or his father again?"Her teacher smiled. "That, Bibi," he said gently, "is for you to discover yourself."Why had he chosen that particular verse? she wondered, as he vanished around a corner of her tent after bidding her a polite good-bye.Did it explain her dream? Did it reveal her future?THAT SAME afternoon in a bright courtyard in the walled city of Lahore, a merchant raised his voice."Speak to us of Paradise," he said.He wore gold rings and an intricately embroidered shawl, but for all his obvious prosperity, the merchant lowered his eyes before the man in a tall, starched headdress who sat before him on a padded platform, the sun warming his back.Shaikh Waliullah, leader of the Karakoyia Brotherhood of Sufis, nodded gravely.As he surveyed his seated followers, several of them exchanged meaningful glances. "Have you noticed?" they murmured. "Have you seen?"The object of their gossip was the Shaikh's powerful gaze. At once intimidating and healing, it had been feared and venerated throughout the walled city for thirty years.In the past few weeks it had softened.Some said this change was due to the sweet presence of the Shaikh's successor, his four-year-old grandson who now sat beside him, listening, round-eyed, to each afternoon's conversation, a small hand resting on his grandfather's knee.Others believed it was due to worry, for the Shaikh's son lay in an upstairs room, recovering from grievous wounds. Still others blamed it on grief, for the old man's foreign daughter-in-law, the woman who had once rescued Saboor from certain death, had abandoned the family, and run away to Kabul with her own people.The Shaikh cleared his throat."Paradise," he began in his deceptively light voice, "is the Garden of the Beloved. Its very air is filled with Divine Love."Nowhere on earth," he added, as his audience sighed in unison, "will you find its equal-not even among the fertile valleys of Kashmir. Our finest fruits-our mangoes and grapes, our melons and blood oranges-are but a weak imitation of the glorious fruits of Paradise."In the Garden, the fortunate will find loving companions. They will drink from the fountain of Salsabil. And those who have striven hardest will have the greatest reward of all, for they will come face to face with the Beloved."The child Saboor shifted at his grandfather's side, and looked up into his face."What is it, my darling?" inquired the Shaikh looking down at this small interruption. "What do you wish to know?""Is An-nah coming home soon?" the child whispered."He wants his foreign stepmother," murmured the followers. "He wants her to return."The Shaikh frowned. "You have not been listening, Saboor."The little boy hunched his body. "I am afraid," he said in a small voice. "I am afraid for An-nah.""Ah," the followers whispered uneasily, "the child knows something. He has seen into the future."
March 22, 1841.
Mariana Givens rode into the capital of Afghanistan on the morning after the Afghan New Year. Riding sidesaddle next to her aunt's palanquin with its twelve trotting bearers, and followed on foot by a tall groom and a tough, albino mail courier, she played only a modest role in the dignified procession of English people that paraded past the great, frowning citadel, then turned toward the British cantonment.
Sir William Macnaghten, the Political Envoy, and his beaming, newly arrived wife, led the march on an elephant, preceded by a cavalry escort. Mariana's uncle rode behind them on horseback with his foppish assistant, Lady Macnaghten's Charles Mott, who was also nephew. Mariana and her aunt came next, followed by more cavalry and a long line of trudging servants and coolies and scores of pack animals carrying the camp tents, Lady Macnaghten's silver, bone china, and Bohemian glass; the household goods of Mariana's family; and enough champagne and brandy to last the Residence for a year.
Aunt Claire held the curtain of her palanquin aside, and put her head out. "Sir William seemed very pleased to see his wife again after all these months," she observed in the sonorous tone she reserved for the discussion of senior officials and their families. "And Lady Macnaghten appeared especially happy this morning as we were leaving Bootik, or wherever that was. She looked positively girlish!"
Mariana did not respond. Instead, she glanced behind her, over the heads of Yar Mohammad and Ghulam Ali, past the cavalry and the baggage train, toward the forbidding Hindu Kush Range that divided India from Central Asia. Those mountains, whose stony valleys and dangerous passes they had crossed so laboriously, seemed no farther behind them than they had been when the travelers had set out from camp four hours earlier.
She blinked, hoping it was only the bright, deceiving air that made them seem to follow her, then drew her shawls closer about her, longing for the warm plains of India, where she had left her heart.
Dust storms would rise soon from the flat plain of the Punjab, turning the sun to a red disk and filling the air with fine grit that irritated people's eyes and crunched between their teeth. The hot weather would bring the dreaded lu lu, the hot, arid wind that killed children and old people, and dropped farmers dead of heatstroke in their fields. But for all the discomfort of India, if Mariana's circumstances had allowed it, she would gladly have abandoned her aunt and uncle and the rest of Lady Macnaghten's traveling party and turned back to Shaikh Waliullah's house in the walled city of Lahore. There, while the dust blew in through the haveli's haveli's shuttered windows, she would have sung nonsense rhymes to little Saboor, and laid cool compresses on Hassan Ali Khan's forehead-that is, if he had wished her to do so. shuttered windows, she would have sung nonsense rhymes to little Saboor, and laid cool compresses on Hassan Ali Khan's forehead-that is, if he had wished her to do so.
Surely she would find a way to return there, and atone for her mistakes Ringed by snow-topped mountain ranges and watered by a winding river that bore its name, the city of Kabul stood six thousand feet above sea level. Bounded on the northwest by the Kabul River, on the south by the Sher Darwaza heights, and on the southeast by the Bala Hisar, its great fortress of kings, the city occupied a roughly triangular area on the western edge of its high, fertile plateau.
When Lady Macnaghten's traveling party emerged from the mountains and onto the Kabul plain, its members had found themselves in a demi-paradise. The sky above the tree-lined road was a sharp blue, quite different from the bleached sky of India. Bright light fell upon vast mulberry and apricot orchards, still veiled in the wispy red that precedes the green of spring. The skirts of the surrounding hills, some still boasting ancient fortified walls, were beginning to turn green, while here and there tulips and hyacinths pushed their way up through the soil. The air was so clear that Mariana easily made out the facial expressions of three men standing on a distant road.
Traveling west from Butkhak, they had crossed the Logar River at Begrami, then paraded past the frowning Bala Hisar before turning northwest toward the Kohistan Road and the newly built cantonment, symbol of the recent political triumph of the British, and their powerful military presence in Afghanistan.
Men passed on the road, their loose garments flowing about them, carrying loads on their heads or leading strings of camels. Mariana studied them, amazed by how different they were from the Indians she was accustomed to.
Bristling with weapons, their backs upright, these men moved swiftly, with fluid, ground-covering strides, their eyes fixed on the distance, unlike the Indians, who moved about unarmed, their shoulders hunched thoughtfully.
A stocky fellow stepped toward Mariana. Greasy hair hung below his loosely tied turban. The handle of a knife protruded from an opening in the man's coarse, woolen coat. His face was narrow and harsh. Mariana saw that his eyes were circled with black kohl. He was followed by a youth with a large bundle on his back.
"As salaam-o-alaikum, may peace be upon you," she offered politely.
He strode past without acknowledging her, but the youth behind him paused. He stared into her face with startlingly beautiful eyes, his heart-shaped face intent. Before she had time to nod, the older man looked over his shoulder. His mouth twisting, he reached for his knife. The boy dropped his gaze and hurried after the man.
There had been something odd about the boy.
"What are you doing, child?" Aunt Claire inquired, putting her head out for a second time between her palanquin curtains. "Surely you were not speaking to the natives natives!"
The British cantonment and its neighboring residence compound for government staff stood on the Kohistan Road, a mile north of the Bala Hisar, where the new British-approved puppet king had been installed. A walled parallelogram built to accommodate the British army and its twelve thousand camp followers, the cantonment was surrounded prettily by irrigated orchards and overlooked by the nearby Bibi Mahro and Sia Sang hills.
Mariana's old interest in military matters quickened as the cantonment's long ramparts became visible through the trees. She studied its fortifications, remembering the books she and her father had read together, imagining the questions he would ask in his next letter.
A large bazaar had been built outside one of the fort's heavy corner towers. Through several openings in its mud brick outer wall, Mariana glimpsed narrow, busy streets filled with small shops displaying colorful wares. Peopled by the artisans and shopkeepers who had accompanied the British army, the bazaar looked like any Indian town; indeed, it was larger than many towns, for it housed several thousand souls. As the procession passed by it, the air that had been perfumed with the scent of poplar balsam took on the added tang of wood smoke, sewage, and spices.
After the procession had halted, and the Macnaghtens and Charles Mott had been ushered ceremoniously away to their grand house in the Residence compound, Mariana frowned.
"I had thought the walls would be higher, Uncle Adrian," she said thoughtfully. "After all, we are invaders here. And I wonder why the surrounding ditch is so narrow. It seems to me-"
"You and the Would-Be-General must wait for that information," her uncle replied. "Once we are settled, you will have plenty of time to pepper everyone with your military questions. As for me, I shall barely have the time to fulfill my own duties. I understand that only a few of our people here are able to speak Farsi, and hardly anyone knows a word of Pushto."
"Poor Uncle Adrian." Mariana dropped her voice. "I don't suppose Charles Mott is any use, either."
Her uncle spread his hands. "Charles Mott holds Lady Macnaghten's elbow, that is all."
The polyglot population of Afghanistan had two principal languages. Of these, Farsi, or Persian, would always do as a court language, but Pushto was spoken by all the tribesmen who lived near the border with India-the same area the British army had passed through on its triumphant march to Kabul.
"How will you be able to communicate with people and gather information?" she asked.
Her uncle shrugged. "We can use Farsi," he replied, as they followed a young officer to their assigned bungalow in the Residence compound. "But if we cannot understand the subtleties of a man's own language, we will never know what he is thinking."
"I UNDERSTAND," Mariana's aunt Claire declared two mornings later, as she, her husband, and Mariana sat on mismatched chairs in their dining room, "that Kabul is becoming quite a gay station. It is no wonder that our officers are now sending for their wives and children. They are playing cricket and putting on theatricals. They are even arranging picnics to lovely places within reach of the city."
She sighed happily as an elderly manservant poured her a cup of coffee. "I shall be delighted to stretch my legs, now that we are away from that stifling Indian heat."
"There is to be a race meeting tomorrow," Uncle Adrian put in. "I understand that Afghan horsemen will participate."
"A race meeting?" Aunt Claire sniffed. "I have no intention of attending a third-class horse race with a lot of Afghans. Besides," she waved toward a heap of bundles on the drawing room floor, "we haven't even had the carpets unrolled, and that hunched-over servant of Mariana's pretends not to understand a word I say. How will I have the pictures hung if you're gone all afternoon?"
Uncle Adrian signaled for more toast. "Shah Shuja, our new Amir," he said, "is expected to be present with his court. All our senior officers will be in attendance on the king, but there will be a separate tent for the other officers and all the ladies. Both Lady Sale and Lady Macnaghten are expected."
His wife sat straight in her chair. "Why did you not say so?" she cried. "Of course I shall be delighted to-"
"Now, Mariana," he went on, "you must be very very careful at the race meeting. Do not speak to the Afghans, or meet their eyes. In Central Asia it is considered extremely bad manners for a woman to look openly at a strange man." careful at the race meeting. Do not speak to the Afghans, or meet their eyes. In Central Asia it is considered extremely bad manners for a woman to look openly at a strange man."
"Adrian, I am shocked!" The edging on Aunt Claire's lace cap quivered with indignation. "Surely an innocent Englishwoman may look at whomever she pleases!"
"Furthermore," he persisted, "the good opinion of our own officers is vital to your future, Mariana. You must do your utmost to behave correctly. Your reputation has suffered considerably in the past two years. And you must on no account on no account reveal that you are technically married to an Indian native." reveal that you are technically married to an Indian native."
Mariana laid down her fork. "Uncle Adrian, there is no need to remind me-"
"You are the only eligible Englishwoman in Afghanistan, and since young Lieutenant Fitzgerald may be coming tomorrow-"
"Fitzgerald?" Aunt Claire's pudgy face turned radiant. "If there is the slightest chance Lieutenant Fitzgerald will be at the horse race tomorrow," she announced, "then I would not miss it for Aunt Claire's pudgy face turned radiant. "If there is the slightest chance Lieutenant Fitzgerald will be at the horse race tomorrow," she announced, "then I would not miss it for all the world. all the world."
"I AM looking forward to my first public appearance," Lady Macnaghten confided as she and Mariana perched together on a sofa in the Residence's sitting room. "I shall wear my blue watered-silk, and a few feathers. As my husband is to be seated in the royal enclosure with the Shah," she added with a little sigh, "I shall have to manage without him."
Mariana smiled politely. What time was it? How long would she have to listen to Lady Macnaghten talk about herself?
As if she had heard Mariana's thoughts, Lady Macnaghten leaned toward her, close enough to reveal a few faint lines around her eyes. "Lieutenant Fitzgerald has returned from Kandahar," she whispered meaningfully. "I have told him that he must on no account miss the race meeting. You must therefore look your very very best. I am sending Vijaya to you this afternoon." best. I am sending Vijaya to you this afternoon."
Fitzgerald. The person Mariana most dreaded seeing. If the lieutenant came tomorrow, her appearance would be the very least of her worries. "That is very kind of you, Lady Macnaghten," she demurred. "But I am sure I shall manage perfectly well." The person Mariana most dreaded seeing. If the lieutenant came tomorrow, her appearance would be the very least of her worries. "That is very kind of you, Lady Macnaghten," she demurred. "But I am sure I shall manage perfectly well."
"Perfectly well will not not be good enough." Lady Macnaghten waved a manicured hand. "Your hair and skin are dry. You have let yourself go entirely since we left India. When Vijaya is done," she added confidently, "you will look as pretty as you did then. And after tomorrow, it will be only a matter of time before Fitzgerald proposes. be good enough." Lady Macnaghten waved a manicured hand. "Your hair and skin are dry. You have let yourself go entirely since we left India. When Vijaya is done," she added confidently, "you will look as pretty as you did then. And after tomorrow, it will be only a matter of time before Fitzgerald proposes.
"And of course," she added, ignoring Mariana's stricken face, "I shall not mention this to a soul."
Mariana got hastily to her feet. "Thank you so much, Lady Macnaghten," she said firmly, "but I must leave. I fear my aunt is waiting for me."
Proposes. If Lady Macnaghten, or the British community, learned the truth about her marriage to Hassan, they would stop forcing her on Harry Fitzgerald. If Lady Macnaghten, or the British community, learned the truth about her marriage to Hassan, they would stop forcing her on Harry Fitzgerald.
If they knew, they would never speak to her again.
Two hours later, she sat at a makeshift dressing table in her bedroom, a towel about her shoulders while Lady Macnaghten's silent, sari-clad maid combed henna paste through her hair.
Only Lady Macnaghten, who herself made good use of Indian beauty tricks, had noticed Mariana's transformation after her visit to Lahore, from clumsy English girl to elegantly cared-for native wife. She alone had seen that transformation fade, then disappear, on the journey from Lahore.
Mariana did not need to look in her hand glass to know how much she had changed since her arrival in India three years earlier.
On that first day, twenty years old, pink-cheeked and clumsy, she had flung herself into Aunt Claire's arms, certain she would be married to a handsome English officer before a year had passed. Young, and optimistic, she had believed she had nothing to lose.
But she had lost, then lost again, and with each failure she had given up a little more of her innocence about herself.
Her face had thinned a little in that time, and her rosy cheeks had turned to ivory, but her skin already felt smooth from Vijaya's efforts, and after a tortuous session with a cat's-cradle of twisted string, her brows now formed graceful arches over her eyes. The henna would tame her curls, and make them shine.
By the time Vijaya left, Mariana would, ironically, look once again like Hassan's wife.
Of course, myopic Aunt Claire would be unlikely to notice any of these changes. Only yesterday, as she poked fretfully through her jewelry, she had listed the same tired complaints she always made concerning her niece's looks and deportment.
"I hope you will listen to me this time," she had warned. "As you are about to make an entirely undeserved new start in British society in Kabul, you must rein in your outspoken manner. Cultivate demureness. And for goodness sake do something about that huge, unfashionable smile of yours."
Mariana had sighed as her aunt swept from the room. The new start that Aunt Claire referred to was more than undeserved. It was a sham.
Three weeks after she had taken painful leave of the unconscious Hassan, his luminous little son and his fascinating family and joined Lady Macnaghten's traveling party, Mariana had gathered her courage and swept into her uncle's tent. Expecting no sympathy from her cholera-ridden uncle or his exhausted wife, she had gone straight to the point.
"I must tell you," she had blurted out, without any softening preamble, "that I did not divorce Shaikh Waliullah's son while I was in Lahore. He may have divorced me me since then, but I do not believe he has." since then, but I do not believe he has."
As she spoke, she had reached up and touched the bodice of her gown. Under the fabric, her searching fingers found the gold medallion the wounded Hassan had sent after her, carried by the courier Ghulam Ali.
A wavering note had accompanied his gift. For my wife For my wife, it had read.
Giddy with happiness, she had sent Hassan a passionate, gushing letter of thanks. In the five weeks since then, he had not replied.
"He might also," she had added, her voice dropping, "have died."
Uncle Adrian's face had changed color. "You never never divorced that man, after all the trouble we went to?" he had croaked from his pillows. divorced that man, after all the trouble we went to?" he had croaked from his pillows.
"I tried, Uncle Adrian, I really did. There was fighting in the city and my husband was constantly-"
"Never mind 'fighting in the city,' " Aunt Claire cut in from her folding chair. "For the past weeks you have led us to believe that all was accomplished, that you were free to marry an Englishman once we reached Afghanistan. You have lied to us You have lied to us, Mariana."
"I merely avoided the truth. Uncle Adrian has been so ill. I did not wish to burden you with more than-"
"I should have insisted." Aunt Claire's chins wobbled with outrage. "I should have questioned you as soon as you returned from the city." Her eyes narrowed. "Mariana, I demand to know the truth. Did you ruin yourself while you were there? Did you allow your native husband to take liberties with you at his father's house?" Did you allow your native husband to take liberties with you at his father's house?"
"Please, Claire. Adil is here." Uncle Adrian signaled to the elderly manservant who hovered, fascinated, near the doorway of the tent.
"I allowed nothing," Mariana snapped, as soon as the servant had gone. "With Lahore under attack, there simply was no time for a divorce. Besides, my husband was wounded during the battle at the Citadel."
"But we told you a thousand times that your one one chance at happiness depended upon the dissolution of that hateful native alliance of yours. Even with your uncle half-dead with cholera I should never have trusted you. My mother-in-law," Aunt Claire said cruelly, "told me chance at happiness depended upon the dissolution of that hateful native alliance of yours. Even with your uncle half-dead with cholera I should never have trusted you. My mother-in-law," Aunt Claire said cruelly, "told me never never to trust a woman with green eyes. Everyone thinks you are free now," she added mournfully. "Lady Macnaghten has told me herself that Lieutenant Fitzgerald is waiting anxiously for you in Kabul." to trust a woman with green eyes. Everyone thinks you are free now," she added mournfully. "Lady Macnaghten has told me herself that Lieutenant Fitzgerald is waiting anxiously for you in Kabul."
She found her handkerchief and dabbed her eyes. "Why "Why do you do these things? do you do these things? What What will your mother say? I promised her I would look after you-" will your mother say? I promised her I would look after you-"
"Why should we tell anyone?" Uncle Adrian interrupted. "People will not talk about something they do not know."
"Oh, but they will, Adrian, they will! will! But wait-" Aunt Claire's tired face had brightened. "Perhaps you are right." But wait-" Aunt Claire's tired face had brightened. "Perhaps you are right."
"Aunt Claire. I-"
"No, Mariana. You must listen to us. That native wedding of yours was a fraud from the beginning-nothing but mumbo jumbo recited outside a tent by a native in a headdress. Since you were never really married, there is no need for a divorce. We shall go on exactly as we had planned," she concluded firmly, holding up a silencing hand when Mariana tried to speak. "No one "No one is to learn what you have told us. They must continue to believe your marriage has been dissolved. As far as we are concerned is to learn what you have told us. They must continue to believe your marriage has been dissolved. As far as we are concerned you are free to wed an Englishman." you are free to wed an Englishman."
After leaving them, Mariana had stopped outside, straining to hear what her aunt would say next, then jumped back, stung by what she heard, and furious with herself for listening.
"Nothing would make me happier," her aunt had declared, "than to learn that the man is dead."
Three weeks later the camp had folded its many tents and set off for the Khyber Pass and the journey into Afghanistan.