Regret
The ball is over .
I go back to the mansion while being shaken in the carriage .
Next to me, Bern was looking outside through the window .
"Sister, how are you feeling?"
Suddenly, he asked me when he noticed my sight .
" . . . I got a bit dizzy again now that we're in the carriage, but I'm more or less okay . When we get back to the mansion I will take some rest and I'll be up and wonderful again shortly . "
"That would be the best"
I divert my line of sight, as if escaping from Bern's caring look and words .
Silence covered the carriage one more time . The sound of the horse galloping comes into the ear .
" . . . Hey, Bern"
It was me who broke the silence .
"Why did you fall in love with Yuri?"
To my question, Bern blinked his eyes as if surprised .
" . . . I was . . . feeling like I was in a dream . . . She made everything so sweet and nice . . . She went in by the scars I had . . and made me feel like with her I would not need any other thing . . all would be perfect . . . "
However, I had a bitter smile when I heard that .
" A dream . . . "
"Yes, I was caught by the sweetness of the unreal, and afterwards I drowned when I knew it was all a lie . . "
"so……"
A dream, is not it? . . . . . . It may be strange for someone "perfect" as her to exist .
"Is a dream made to someday wake up?"
"At that time I thought that I had to wake up . . . "
"At that time I thought that I had to wake up . . . "
I wonder if the time will come when Dan wants to wake up too . . . It is unknown . . .
But I can only wish for that time to come .
While I thought about such a thing, I arrived at the mansion unnoticed .
I lie in my bed as soon as I return to the room .
I clung to the sheeting with tightness so as to suppress the tremor of my body .
It is pure anger that occupies my heart .
. . . . I was helpless . . . . again . . .
Yuri was working without stop while I was in the territory .
Tending nets as a spider . . and poisoning anyone she caught to live a dream . . . .
Now there is no one despising her as a baroness and they even let her pose as royalty .
She fascinated everyone and built her own side .
The result is this . . . . . . . I lost my precious friend to the same suffering I went through .
Speaking of what I could do to help her avoid this, I only appealed to my friend honestly and that did not work .
I regret it . It was a miserable intent .
I raise my fist in anger and pound on the pillow .
I raise my fist in anger and pound on the pillow .
Boom, boom, the sound can be heard .
I repeat it many times . As I seek for a way to calm down my anger .
I regret it . It was painful .
While lying down, I was at the mercy of those intense emotions and I could not feel sleepy at all .
. . . . . . No matter how bad it is, the sun rises and the night ends .
I ended up still pounding on the pillow at the morning as I could not sleep after all .
While exhaling, I change clothes .
I had breakfast, headed to the office quickly and began to work .
There are various things to do, like urgent requirements, reports, authorizations accompanying them, etc .
Especially during my stay in the Kingdom, I have limited time to work on this because I have to do social work . Build relationships and the likes .
Even so, because of the lack of sleep my head doesn't work .
……no . I guess the feelings of what happened yesterday is dragging me behind .
" . . . Excuse me . "
Tanya entered the room with a knocking sound .
"Tanya . . . I have something I want to ask you . . . "
I was struggling a while . . . . . . . Whether or not to let Tanya investigate the matter of Mimosa .
My father advised me that I should not touch the matter of Yuri too much, and Mimosa herself does not want it .
However, I'll regret again if I do not know .
It is enough for me to regret when something like yesterday happens .
I hate being powerless .
Knowing that, then I think about it again .
. . . Yes, I will ask her . . . I conclude .
This is my ego . For my ego, I involved Tanya .
Even though danger may reach Tanya while investigating Yuri .
Tanya may also explain the risks, before I have a firm decision .
But she smiled at my wish and just told me that she was "available" .
Regret The ball is over . I go back to the mansion while being shaken in the carriage . Next to me, Bern was looking outside through the window . Sister, how are you feeling Suddenly, he asked me when he noticed my sight . . . . I got a bit dizzy again now that we 39 re in the carriage, but I 39 m more or less okay . When we get back to the mansion I will take some rest and I 39 ll be up and wonderful again shortly . That would be the best I divert my line of sight, as if escaping from Bern 39 s caring look and words . Silence covered the carriage one more time . The sound of the horse galloping comes into the ear . . . . Hey, Bern It was me who broke the silence . Why did you fall in love with Yuri To my question, Bern blinked his eyes as if surprised . . . . I was . . . feeling like I was in a dream . . . She made everything so sweet and nice . . . She went in by the scars I had . . and made me feel like with her I would not need any other thing . . all would be perfect . . . However, I had a bitter smile when I heard that . A dream . . . Yes, I was caught by the sweetness of the unreal, and afterwards I drowned when I knew it was all a lie . . so A dream, is not it . . . . . . It may be strange for someone perfect as her to exist . Is a dream made to someday wake up At that time I thought that I had to wake up . . . I wonder if the time will come when Dan wants to wake up too . . . It is unknown . . . But I can only wish for that time to come . While I thought about such a thing, I arrived at the mansion unnoticed . I lie in my bed as soon as I return to the room . I clung to the sheeting with tightness so as to suppress the tremor of my body . It is pure anger that occupies my heart . . . . . I was helpless . . . . again . . . Yuri was working without stop while I was in the territory . Tending nets as a spider . . and poisoning anyone she caught to live a dream . . . . Now there is no one despising her as a baroness and they even let her pose as royalty . She fascinated everyone and built her own side . The result is this . . . . . . . I lost my precious friend to the same suffering I went through . Speaking of what I could do to help her avoid this, I only appealed to my friend honestly and that did not work . I regret it . It was a miserable intent . I raise my fist in anger and pound on the pillow . Boom, boom, the sound can be heard . I repeat it many times . As I seek for a way to calm down my anger . I regret it . It was painful . While lying down, I was at the mercy of those intense emotions and I could not feel sleepy at all . . . . . . . No matter how bad it is, the sun rises and the night ends . I ended up still pounding on the pillow at the morning as I could not sleep after all . While exhaling, I change clothes . I had breakfast, headed to the office quickly and began to work . There are various things to do, like urgent requirements, reports, authorizations accompanying them, etc . Especially during my stay in the Kingdom, I have limited time to work on this because I have to do social work . Build relationships and the likes . Even so, because of the lack of sleep my head doesn 39 t work . no . I guess the feelings of what happened yesterday is dragging me behind . . . . Excuse me . Tanya entered the room with a knocking sound . Tanya . . . I have something I want to ask you . . . I was struggling a while . . . . . . . Whether or not to let Tanya investigate the matter of Mimosa . My father advised me that I should not touch the matter of Yuri too much, and Mimosa herself does not want it . However, I 39 ll regret again if I do not know . It is enough for me to regret when something like yesterday happens . I hate being powerless . Knowing that, then I think about it again . . . . Yes, I will ask her . . . I conclude . This is my ego . For my ego, I involved Tanya . Even though danger may reach Tanya while investigating Yuri . Tanya may also explain the risks, before I have a firm decision . But she smiled at my wish and just told me that she was available .