And even as he stepped back in alarm, the pain-filled blue eyes stared back at him, recognition-and resignation-in them.
THE MAN STARTED to say something, shook his head, and then found the words in English. to say something, shook his head, and then found the words in English.
"A long way from France." His voice was quiet, pitched so that Elizabeth couldn't hear him. Her soothing words to the spaniel had roused the puppies, and they were whimpering.
Rutledge, with Hamish hammering at the back of his mind, asked harshly, "Who the hell are you?" "Who the hell are you?" A dozen images pressed and overlapped and faded with such speed that he was unable to sort through them or comprehend their significance. He was on a road-a road filled with figures, men he didn't know-there were caissons and lorries, abandoned where they stood-voices he couldn't understand-confusion, and a blank, impenetrable haze. . . . A dozen images pressed and overlapped and faded with such speed that he was unable to sort through them or comprehend their significance. He was on a road-a road filled with figures, men he didn't know-there were caissons and lorries, abandoned where they stood-voices he couldn't understand-confusion, and a blank, impenetrable haze. . . .
"Don't you know? I've come-" The man winced, caught his breath, and went on, "-I've come back from the dead."
"You don't belong here-"
"True. Yes. I know that."
Rutledge's mind was reeling, fighting shock and disbelief.
And then relief surfaced, the realization that what he'd seen on Guy Fawkes Day two weeks before had been no hallucination, no slippage of the mind into madness. The man was real. He was real. He was real.
Rutledge had no idea who he was-or where he had come from-except out of the darkness of war.
And Hamish was saying, "But he's deid. You said yoursel' he's deid." "But he's deid. You said yoursel' he's deid."
"I thought you were dead," Rutledge found himself repeating aloud. "I watched you die!"
"Yes. Well. I am hard to kill." The man shivered, and Rutledge came back to the present, staring at the warm blood on his fingers, at the sweater thick with it. He reached out and fumbled for an instant, lifting the heavy wet wool, then found his pocket knife and began to cut it away. With his hands busy, his mind seemed to anchor itself, as if rejecting anything but the work that needed to be done.
He could hear Elizabeth walking back down the passage, her feet hurrying.
The man cautioned hastily, "We will talk about the war another time. Not now."
She came into the hall, moving quickly to help Rutledge pull away the last of the ripped yarn, gasping at the dark wet blood all over the man's shirt.
Rutledge cut the shirt in its turn, saying to Elizabeth, "Water. Hot if you can manage it, and cloths. Bandages. Then send someone for the doctor." His voice sounded different in his ears, strained and brutal.
She went away quickly to do his bidding, but not before he'd seen the glance exchanged between the German and Elizabeth.
"Leave her out of this," the German was saying. "She has nothing to do with this. I will go with you to the doctor. You must not bring him to this house. It would cause-" He stopped and caught his breath again. "-It will cause comment. Talk. What do you call it?"
"Gossip. You should have thought of that before passing out on her doorstep."
"I had very little choice. I was nearer this house than where-where I am living now."
"You're a German national." Rutledge was still trying to sort through it.
The man managed a smile. "Even German nationals need a-need a roof when they travel. This hurts like the very devil!"
The knife blade had slashed down from the shoulder across another, older wound that had scarred over on the man's chest. Deep, but not dangerously so. Rutledge, working carefully, explored the wound.
"Someone didn't very much care whether they killed you or not," he told the German. "What had you done to him, to deserve this?"
"I had done nothing. I was walking along the road, my coat over my-over my arm. There was a man at the side of the road. As I came closer, he hobbled out and struck. Then he was-he was gone."
Sweat was running down the man's face. His jaw, set now against another wave of pain, quivered with the effort to keep himself alert.
Elizabeth came back with the water in a kettle, and cloths with which to bathe the wound lying across a basin. She handed them to Rutledge and stood back, looking close to fainting herself.
"Go find the doctor," Rutledge told her, pouring the water into the basin and dipping a cloth into it. Almost too warm, he thought; the stove must have just been banked for the night.
But she stood there, mesmerized, unable to move.
Rutledge cleaned up the wound as best he could, unable to staunch the bleeding even with the water and pads of cloths. In the end, he simply packed it and wound strips of linen around it. It reminded him, more than he cared to admit, of his own wound, hardly a month healed.
"The cook," Hamish was saying, "willna' know where her tea towels have got to."
And Rutledge saw the embroidered initials on one of the strips. An absurdity in the nightmare. Like all nightmares, he thought to himself. . . .
"Give him something to drink. Whisky, with a little of the hot water to dilute it," he said to Elizabeth, and like a sleepwalker, she turned away to do as he asked.
The German drank it down gratefully, when she handed him the crystal glass, and he gave it back to her with a wry smile. "However will you explain this to the servants tomorrow?" he asked, glancing at the bloodied cloths and the basin full of dark red water.
It was as if he were trying to tell her to get rid of the evidence of his presence. Elizabeth, starting awake from her shock, said, "I'll-I'll deal with it." She bent down to lift the basin of water at Rutledge's feet and nearly dropped it as she looked into the bloody depths.
As she walked away to pour it out, forgetting the kettle sitting on the floor by the chair, the German said, "You have a motorcar? I thought I heard one before you came."
"Yes. It's in the drive."
"Then if you will get me out of here, I will tell you whatever you want to know."
"I'm taking you to the local doctor, and then to the police station."
"No, I think you will not do eith-either of these things once you-once you have heard what I have to tell you." He tried to stand, to pull his coat over his bare shoulders. But the effort was too much. He sank back in the chair, saying ruefully, "I think you must help me again. I don't quite seem to know-to know where my feet are!"
Elizabeth came back, picked up the bloody towels and strips of clothing with distaste, and carried them away with the kettle.
She said, returning, "I put the cloths in the stove. It's an awful smell! But they'll burn." She looked up at Rutledge expectantly, as if waiting for him to solve all their problems.
Hamish said, "She wants him to go. But she isna' happy with his going."
Indeed, she seemed to be torn, her hands gripping each other tightly, the knuckles white as the silence in the hall lengthened.
Rutledge said peremptorily, "Elizabeth, go to bed. I'll see to him. You look as if you'll fall down any minute. He's not dying. There's nothing more you can do. He needs better medical care than this-" He gestured to the rough bandaging.
Rousing herself with an effort, she said angrily, "Just because you're a policeman-" And then she stopped, thoroughly ashamed.
"It's because I'm a policeman that I'm telling you to go to bed," he answered without heat. "Leave this to me. He will live, and I'll see to him."
She stared at him for an instant longer and then, without looking at the German, walked to the staircase.
21.
IT WAS WITH SOME DIFFICULTY THAT R RUTLEDGE GOT THE wounded man out of the Mayhew house and into the motorcar. Afterward he walked back through the open door and looked around the room. There was no sign that they had been there, neither blood nor bits of cloth nor shifted furniture. He went out again, shutting the door firmly behind him. wounded man out of the Mayhew house and into the motorcar. Afterward he walked back through the open door and looked around the room. There was no sign that they had been there, neither blood nor bits of cloth nor shifted furniture. He went out again, shutting the door firmly behind him.
The man in the passenger seat was slumped to one side, as if trying to cushion the torn muscles of his shoulder.
Hamish was asking, "Where does your duty lie, then? Ye canna' protect the lass from this folly."
It was true. Throw the German into a police cell, and by morning Elizabeth would be pounding on the door demanding to see him. Folly indeed- "She's no' the only person who has seen him," Hamish reminded him. "He canna' go free!"
There was the Webber child, for one. And certainly Miss Whelkin, in Seelyham, who had described Tristan. And the drunk on the road? Holcomb. Would he be able to identify this man? Witnesses indeed. And even though they had failed to place the accent the German strove to conceal, they were all certain that he was not a Kent man.
"They wouldna' know him for a German. He speaks verra' well!"
Rutledge cranked the motor and got in, thinking rapidly.
The wound was clean enough, and bandaged well enough despite the simple field dressing he'd applied to stop the worst of the bleeding. There was time-time to decide whether he carried this man to the doctor, or directly to the police station, leaving it to Dowling to summon the doctor.
Hamish was muttering behind him-loudly enough, or so it seemed, to be heard by all but the very deaf.
"I can't deal with it now," he silently responded. "Leave it!" He pulled out of the driveway and drove back into the center of Marling, stopping his vehicle under the gaze of the Cavalier.
Beneath the broad brim the eyes seemed to bore into Rutledge's, as if judging him.
Rutledge looked away and took the car out of gear, setting the brake. He turned to consider his companion.
As if sensing his attention, the other man struggled back to alertness.
"I know who you are." Rutledge spoke with more confidence than he felt. "You're a German officer. That much has come back to me. I don't know why you should be in Britain, much less here in Kent. I don't know why a man should stab you without provocation. If I'm to decide what to do with you, I need the truth."
The man said nothing. And in the lengthening silence, under the barrage of Hamish's complaint, Rutledge was thrown back to another time-another place . . .
THERE HAD BEEN speculation since the beginning of the month, the first of November, a year ago now. The Allies had made great strides-the Germans were in disarray-Berlin had been taken over by a Revolutionary council-the Kaiser was to lead his troops out of France to restore order at home-there was widespread famine in Germany-negotiations for a truce had begun-broken down-It was impossible to separate truth from rumor. speculation since the beginning of the month, the first of November, a year ago now. The Allies had made great strides-the Germans were in disarray-Berlin had been taken over by a Revolutionary council-the Kaiser was to lead his troops out of France to restore order at home-there was widespread famine in Germany-negotiations for a truce had begun-broken down-It was impossible to separate truth from rumor.
The only certainty was that the fighting and dying hadn't stopped.
And then, on 11 November, word came down just after nine in the morning that a document had finally been signed and an Armistice would go into effect at the eleventh hour of that day. Not a victory. A truce to end the stalemate.
The news had left Rutledge in emotional turmoil. Torn between an unspeakable relief for his men and an overwhelming weight of guilt for failing so many of them-the thousands who hadn't lived to see this day-he moved in a fog of mental exhaustion. Faces, living and dead, seemed to crowd his mind, and the wording of the kind letters he'd written to parents of men he hardly knew, killed before they had had a chance to serve as more than cannon fodder, seemed to float in his brain. For more than two years, he'd seen himself as a dead man, like them; it was only a matter of time before he joined them. And now the war was ending. While he was still alive- As watches moved slowly toward the appointed hour, the fighting never faltered. And then-without fanfare or flourish-it ended. Men were standing in the trenches, half dazed by the silence, uncertain at first, some openly weeping. Exhausted, weary beyond the ability of sleep to renew their spirit, they were wary of celebration, lest it lead to another disappointment, another grief. Numbed and unprepared, they had nothing to say.
Then one or two men climbed warily over the top for the last time, moving to stand by the first rolls of wire, staring across the devastated landscape that was once the rolling green farmland of northern France, before tons of shells and thousands upon thousands of bodies had been ground into the earth by the madness of war.
Men began to touch each other, began to laugh with nervous humor, began to acknowledge that they were alive, that they had survived-and then looked around as if half expecting to find the shades of the dead staring sadly back at them. Soldiers came to wring Rutledge's hand and thank him for bringing them through. Others were hugging each other in a rising euphoria, and then stopping, as if not knowing what they should rightfully be doing. Ashamed of feeling at all.
A few Germans had come out of their trenches, staring at the English lines, their faces grim, their shoulders slumped with despair and relief.
Someone called across No Man's Land; someone responded in the other lines. And then it was quiet for a time, as if men who had fought so long and so hard had nothing else to do with their lives, and felt the emptiness of nothing behind them, nothing ahead of them.
Rutledge began to issue orders, parroting the instructions he'd been given. A single voice pitched to normal levels sounded strange without the backdrop of battle or the silence of anxious waiting. One by one his men turned to listen to him. These soldiers who would, if the war had gone on for another week, another month, have died soon, and by his hand-led out to fight and suffer while he himself survived-were finally going home.
War was was suffering. For the wounded, for the survivors, for their families at home, for the bled-out land around them and the dead horses and stark blasted trees that bore no resemblance to anything living. suffering. For the wounded, for the survivors, for their families at home, for the bled-out land around them and the dead horses and stark blasted trees that bore no resemblance to anything living.
As he spoke, it began slowly to dawn on him that he, too, was going to survive. After all, he would not die. It was such a horrific realization that he couldn't cope with it. His mind went blank, and even the voice of Hamish MacLeod, his constant and unrelenting companion since the summer of 1916, was stilled.
He had no memory of what happened after that. Where he had gone, what he had done, how he had managed to simply walk away. This man, bleeding in his motorcar long after the war had finished, knew more than he did. Dr. Fleming at the clinic must have known a little about the blank days from official reports. There had been compassion in the doctor's eyes, and it had hurt Rutledge more than the truth might have done. But Fleming had refused to tell him. It was, the doctor felt, far safer for his patient to come to it naturally. . . .
THE G GERMAN WAS watching him. "I saw you at that ridiculous bonfire. And again on the road, when you tried to run me down. As a matter of interest, why did you leave me, back there in France? I was still alive!" watching him. "I saw you at that ridiculous bonfire. And again on the road, when you tried to run me down. As a matter of interest, why did you leave me, back there in France? I was still alive!"
Rutledge said, holding on to reality with a grip that was iron, "I don't remember the end of the war. I don't remember you-or, yes, I do, a little, but only since the bonfire."
"You don't remember anything about ending up deep behind our lines? What the devil were you doing there? We looked up and there you were, standing within feet of us. Terrified us; we thought at first you were a dead man-some apparition out of hell! Someone spoke to you-"
Rutledge closed his eyes, and in the blackness there, like a flickering scrap of film, he found images. He had been walking-he had no idea where he was going, or why. And eventually he'd come to a road, for there were men all around him and voices buffeting him, making no sense- He had stood there, waiting to be shot . . . waiting for oblivion.
The German beside him was saying something, but Rutledge couldn't shut out the images now.
All he had wanted was for the pain to end. For the blessed release of a single shot. Instead, some half a dozen soldiers had turned toward him, a montage of faces with moving lips, defeated, tired eyes, and the filth of the trenches filling the cold November air.
One of the Germans had stepped forward, staring hard at Rutledge, then mimicking reaching for a cigarette to offer him. And then he took his hand back again with a shrug, when Rutledge made no move to accept it.
He didn't want a cigarette-he wanted to be shot.
An officer came then, looking closely at his irregular visitor. And then he was saying something to his men.
The two of them were walking side by side, away from the rest. Rutledge thought, He doesn't want to shoot me in front of them . . . He doesn't want to shoot me in front of them . . . and was content. and was content.
There were so many soldiers at first. And then the road seemed empty, and darkness was coming down. Not the darkness in his mind, but the early dusk of November. He found himself wondering if this was still the eleventh, and where the officer was taking him. One body lying along the road here would be anonymous, forgotten.
His sister would probably never know what had become of him. Just as well-it would spare her the shame- He lost track of time. He couldn't be sure whether he'd been following the German for a few minutes or for far longer. The only anxiety he felt was whether the man would lose his nerve and not shoot.
There was some sort of exchange-furious and loud-voiced. Unexpected, jarring. And as Rutledge struggled to make sense of it, there was a shot at close range.
In the split second after the report, as the echo faded, Rutledge gratefully waited for the pain, for the spreading agony and for the death that would end it.
But it didn't come. There was nothing- He turned toward the German officer, confused, unable to understand how the man had missed-and watched the German fall in slow motion to the ground, a dark red bloom opening on his tunic.
"No!" He had shouted the single word in disbelief. Somehow they had shot the wrong man- He had shouted the single word in disbelief. Somehow they had shot the wrong man- And then with the swiftness of habit, he was on his knees, ripping open the buttons, fumbling in his pocket for a dressing, stuffing it into the bubbling wound. But before he could staunch the bleeding, the German officer sighed and went limp.
Rutledge became aware that there was someone standing over them. Rutledge looked up, seeing him clearly for the first time. A refugee-an old man- "I need dressings-a doctor-un medicin-vite!"