"Bess-"
"Do you remember some twenty years ago, there was a scandal about a steeplechase where a favorite lost to a horse with no record of winning-and suddenly in this one race, he was a phenomenon, ahead of the field by some ten lengths? And much later, it was discovered that the horse who won had actually taken the place of the one legally entered in that race? My father was angry when the truth came out. He'd had a wager on the favorite."
"As I remember the substitution wasn't discovered for five years."
"Exactly. I think this must have happened when Lily Mercer was found dead. The wrong boy was blamed, because it served everyone's purpose for him him to be sent to an asylum." to be sent to an asylum."
"That's a rather strong accusation. The police don't often get things wrong."
"And they didn't. It was a child in that house. Only, the real killer was protected, and the scapegoat was not missed by anyone."
Simon was silent for some time. And then he asked, "Has this boy-the real murderer-killed again?"
"I don't know," I answered honestly. "Circumstantial evidence says he may have. I'm not a policeman, I can't prove what I believe."
"You're too close to the people involved-too close to be objective."
"And if I'm sent to France in a fortnight, it will all be swept under the carpet again, and an innocent man will continue to be blamed for something he didn't do."
Simon turned to look at me. "Are you in love with this innocent man?"
I laughed. "Hardly." The laugh faded. "But I see the injustice here, and I'm helpless to change it. And what about the dead girl? What does she deserve? Even her family abandoned her, in a way. She wasn't the victim, she was the problem, to be swept under the carpet as quickly as possible."
"You were ever taking pity on the halt and the lame and the lost."
"I know. I've seen so much death, Simon. I'm glad I took up nursing-I've been able to do something about the war by saving the lives of wounded men-but there are things I'll remember until I die, and memories that come in the dark, when I'm trying to sleep."
He got out to crank the motor. "You should have been a son, Bess Crawford. It would have made life much easier for the rest of us."
"No, it wouldn't have done any such thing. You'd have been following me into battle to keep me safe."
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
I TOLD TOLD P PEREGRINE that shifting Lady Parsons's belief in her own judgment was going to be an uphill struggle. "And one I don't think we're likely to win." that shifting Lady Parsons's belief in her own judgment was going to be an uphill struggle. "And one I don't think we're likely to win."
He got up and began to pace. "I don't even know what I believe. Logic tells me I could have done it. Honesty says I probably killed her. The problem comes back to what I remember. And memories are difficult to refute."
"That's probably because you were drugged to keep you out of the way and manageable while in London. And it turned out to be a godsend, that you were acquiescent to whatever was asked of you."
Stopping at the window, he lifted the edge of the white lace curtains that my flatmates and I had hung there, idly glancing out. And then his interest sharpened, and he stood there, watching something or someone in the street below.
After a moment, he said, "Come here, will you?"
I went to stand beside him, reaching to pull the curtain wider so that I could see the street. But he caught my hand, pulled me in front of him, and said, "No. Through this crack. Don't disturb the curtain!"
I could feel him behind me, tense as a steel rod, and the hand on my shoulder was gripping it hard.
"I don't see anything," I said uneasily. "The street. The houses opposite, the carriages and motorcars and people-"
"There. At the house across the way. There's a man loitering there. See, the one with the cane."
The house he spoke of was closed up. The children had been taken to the country for safety from the zeppelin raids, staying with their grandparents for the duration of the war. Mrs. Venton was nursing burn victims at her sister's country house near Winchester. Her husband was serving in the Navy, the gunnery officer on a cruiser.
I looked again at the man. He was moderately well dressed, but the cane he was carrying caught my eye. "That's not a cane," I said, intrigued. "Well, it is, if you like, but I recognize it. My grandfather had one-it's a sword stick. A twist of the handle, and the blade slides out."
"Your father has set someone to watch over you. What have you told him?"
"Nothing-truly, I haven't betrayed you. I wouldn't. Besides, the general view is that you must be dead."
Just at that moment, Mrs. Hennessey came out of our house and crossed the street, her market basket on her arm. The man stepped out of the shelter of the Venton porch and tipped his hat to her.
I could see then that he was older than he looked, his head bald save for a ring of graying hair like a laurel wreath worn rather long. He looked more like a hopeful poet than he did a menace. And perhaps that was by design.
Mrs. Hennessey listened to him for a moment, then shook her head. He asked other questions, and she again told him no. After that he let her go, walked in the other direction from the one she took-and just as he was about to pass out of sight, he turned and came back again to the porch across from us.
I moved away from Peregrine and the window. "I'll collect my coat and walk out. See what he does. Whether he follows me or stays where he is. We need buns for our tea, and the bakery is just in the next street. You've been there."
"What if he stops you, as he stopped Mrs. Hennessey?"
I smiled as I pulled on my gloves and reached for the market basket we kept in the flat. "I'm forewarned, aren't I?"
Peregrine was uneasy with my going. "I still don't like this idea."
"No, I want you to see that I had no part of this watcher, and that we're both beginning to imagine things."
Before he could argue, I was out the door and down the stairs.
This house had four floors, three of them let to people like my flatmates and me-in need of a base in London but seldom there to enjoy it.
I went down the stairs and out the door without looking in the direction of the watcher-if that is what he was. Instead, I walked briskly to the corner of our street, turning toward the small shops huddled together on the main road.
When I got to the corner, I risked a glance behind me, and to my surprise, no one was following me-and the watcher had vanished.
"Tsk. I've come out into the cold for nothing," I said to myself. But I had come this far, and I went to the bakery to see what was available. We were all doing without the niceties by this time, and it depended entirely on what the baker had been able to find in the way of sugar and flour and eggs as to what was for sale. He put all his resources into bread, which everyone needed, and what was left over went into the tea cakes and buns and an occasional surprise, like the Sally Lunns on sale last week.
We weren't as fortunate today. I bought bread and looked at the pathetically thin arrangement of sweets on trays that now dwarfed the selections and that used to be filled to overflowing with good things. There was a little white gingerbread left, and I bought two cakes of that for our tea.
Mr. Johnson, serving me, said, "You aren't at the Front yet, Miss Crawford, nursing our lads? They must be heartsick without your sunny presence."
He was a string bean of a man with thick white hair, black brows, and a pleasant disposition. I didn't think I'd ever seen him in a foul mood.
"Alas, they must wait another week, Mr. Johnson. I've no word yet on where I'll be sent."
"If you see my grandson, God forbid he should be hurt, but if you do, tell him I send him my love."
It was his greatest fear, that his grandson would die in the war. A fear that too many people shared.
"I promise," I told him as he handed me my tidy little square of cakes. And then someone else was holding his attention, and I went out the door.
The man, when I approached the flat, was walking back up the street, toward me. But he stopped to watch a small boy trying to make a toy horse set on wheels crest the uneven cobbles of the street. I went on to our flat and opened the door.
Peregrine was standing there, his face a thundercloud.
"He came into the house," Peregrine said before I'd even crossed the threshold. "I watched him cross the street, heard him climb the stairs, and he went to each door, listening and then trying the latch. I'd locked your door. But I could hear him fumbling with it."
"Then he wasn't sent by my father. My father knows which flat I occupy. He must be looking for someone else."
"You saw Jonathan in Tonbridge. You saw Timothy in Owlhurst. You called on Lady Parsons, the rector, and the doctor. Someone set a watch on you."
"No, I was circumspect. Except with the rector and Lady Parsons. I don't see either of them running to Mrs. Graham, telling tales. I gave your brothers-and Dr. Philips-the impression that I was still concerned about Ted Booker's unhappy death."
And then it occurred to me that we had counted Ted Booker among the six dead. Because Lady Parsons had survived.
"Dear God. Peregrine, what if we were right about the killing continuing? And I let it be known I was concerned about the Booker suicide...."
He said nothing, but behind his dark eyes, his mind was racing. I could see it in his face.
"Then I'm still in the clear," he said finally. "That is, if they still consider me dead as you said. But you are most definitely in danger."
He tried to persuade me to go home, where my parents could protect me until I left for France. Here, alone in London, I was vulnerable. If, that is, the man watching the flat was indeed here because of me.
And before long, through me, someone would surely discover that Peregrine wasn't dead in Winchelsea but alive and in London. That would never do.
"Don't you see?" I said to Peregrine. "The first order of business is to get you safely out of London, and I don't know where to put you. Not at home-I won't involve my father or Simon in this business. They'll do something rash."
I wouldn't put it past either of them to kidnap our watcher and make him tell who had hired him, and why. They had served on the Khyber Pass-kidnapping there was something of a local pastime. Not among the British, but the wild tribesmen who lived on either side of the pass had no compunction about treating their foes as they were accustomed to being treated in their turn.
"I can protect myself."
"With the doctor's pistol? And this time you will will hang. Be sensible." hang. Be sensible."
He rubbed his face. "I wanted nothing so much as to leave that asylum and get at the truth about that night in London. Afterward-well, if I didn't like what I learned, there was a way out. And then when I was free of the gates, trudging through the cold night, I was tempted to turn back. Much as I hated the asylum, I was afraid. Of the night, of myself, of what lay ahead. I told myself I might never have another chance, and so I kept walking. It took more courage than I ever knew I had. And I don't know much more now than I did when I started this search. You've done all you can-all anyone can do. But there are more questions than answers still."
I asked, "If you could prove you were not the murderer, and you were set free, what would you do?"
He dropped his hands. "I don't think I'd ever considered the future. But then I met Diana. I'm not in love with her. But I saw in her what I'd missed."
"You know that if you were cleared, and you could return to Owlhurst, the army would be on your doorstep tomorrow. And you'd be sent to France or somewhere to fight."
He considered what I was saying. "I'm not afraid of dying."
"War isn't about dying so much as it is about horror."
He shrugged. "Living in an asylum, I knew what horror was."
We came back, then, to the man standing patiently in the cold, waiting.
For what? For me, for Peregrine, for answers?
"I came to believe it was Arthur who had killed Lily. I didn't want to, but the facts pointed almost as strongly to him as to you. Now I have to ask myself if he could also have killed the others-if it's true they were murdered. But if we count Ted Booker among the six, it couldn't have been Arthur, could it? If it wasn't one of your brothers, who, then? Robert Douglas? But he was with your mother the night Lily died. I'm not a policeman, Peregrine, I'm not trained to sort out the sheep from the goats."
"Robert Douglas?" Peregrine's voice was bitter. "He's no murderer. He's just made a habit of looking the other way. That's his failing, if you like. He swallowed his pride and his self-respect when he followed my stepmother to Kent, and he knows the price he's paid to stay near her. He's willing to live with that. He was kind when he knew she wouldn't care. He sat with me at my father's funeral, and held my hand when I cried. He brought me cake on my birthday. When he took me to the asylum in her stead, he told them that if I was mistreated, she would see that they answered for it. He persuaded Inspector Gadd to insist on a warm meal, a bath, and fresh clothes straightaway. Little things. But he wouldn't take my part to her face."
It had been Robert who had insisted that the dying Peregrine be cared for at home.
"Then we can't expect him to be an ally. All right, we'll set any other suspicions aside and concentrate on Lily. Why was her family given money to leave England so quickly? So they wouldn't make a fuss and bring you to trial? And why was Mrs. Graham so persuasive, convincing London that you should be committed to the asylum for observation as soon as possible? Because she feared that once the shock wore off, you'd remember too much? And why bring in Lady Parsons and the others, unless it was for the same reason-to see you in such a state that they were convinced beyond any doubt that you were the killer?
"What's more, I begin to wonder why you were drugged to keep you quiet in London. You could have been shut up in your room there, just as you had been in Owlhurst. The only explanation is that your stepmother really did want you to see a specialist, with an eye to having you committed, even before the murder. And you wouldn't have been in your right mind. Another thing-her own state just after the murder. If you'd really been guilty, she'd have jumped at the chance to be rid of you. She was beside herself because it was one of her sons, and in the midst of her horror and grief, she saw the only way out of her nightmare was to put the blame on you. And if you're right about Robert, he stood there and let her do it."
He had listened carefully. But at the end he said, "She told me that if I caused any trouble, then or in the asylum, that I'd be taken away and hanged. I believed her. I didn't know any better."
"In prison, they wouldn't have kept you drugged. And at the asylum, if you tried to tell anyone that she'd slept with Robert Douglas or that one of your brothers was not your father's son, they would put it down to your madness. And if you remembered too much about London, they wouldn't listen. After all, the police had what amounted to your own confession, that you wanted your knife back after using it to kill the girl. You said yourself that little effort was made to help you get well. You were in that place for a lifetime, and even if they had restored you to sanity, the only option was a prison cell."
Peregrine shook his head. "You make it sound logical. But how do you explain the dreams?"
"I don't know," I told him truthfully. "But tomorrow we're leaving London. In the dark before dawn, if we have to. There's one person I can think of who would keep you safe. I don't know why it hadn't occurred to me before. And I promise you, as soon as I have leave again in France, I'll find a way to prove what I just told you. And the watcher will have nothing to tell whoever hired him. He'll be called off."
"I dragged you into this at the point of a gun."
"That's water over the dam. Let it go."
"Do you still brace your door with a chair at night?"
I opened my mouth to deny I ever had done, and then said, "No. Not now."
Peregrine smiled, and this time it reached his eyes, but he said nothing.
We ate what I'd brought from the bakery, and I cleared away the dishes. Peregrine watched me, and as I dried the cup that I'd used for my tea, he reached out and took it from my hands.
It was the cup with Brighton Pavilion on it, that exotic palace that the Prince Regent had built for himself not so very far from here, his cottage at the seaside.
"I'd like to see that," he said wistfully. "It's very un-English."
"If we can clear your name," I answered him, "I'll take you there myself."