The Word Affection
Watching A Da run off without any restraint, Yi Luo Xiang furrowed her brow and curled her lips in a look of disdain and confusion. Only after A Da disappeared did Yi Luo Xiang turn back around and say to Xin Yun with a frown: “Are all men like this? No wonder someone said that men are beings dominated by their lower half. For men, are women really that enticing? Are they not more or less the same?”
“This…” Faced with Yi Luo Xiang’s question, Xin Yun became less and less certain about how to reply. Although only a few months had passed, this girl’s growth was truly exponential. Up to this point, it was already very hard for him to look at her as a child.
After hesitating for a moment, Xin Yun shook his head and said: “I have no way of explaining this problem. Right now, I am just a bow and cannot be considered a man. That’s why I don’t understand what he’s thinking and feeling.”
Hearing Xin Yun’s words, Yi Luo Xiang could not help but frown. Quietly thinking to herself, she then looked at Xin Yun with a look of concern. She was afraid. She was truly afraid. She was afraid that once Xin Yun grew up, she would become a person similar to A Da. Once that day truly came, she really did not know how she should handle it.
Although she repeatedly comforted herself, saying that Xin Yun was not that type of person… She was unable to convince herself. Over this short period of time, she had seen too many men that were like this. It seemed as though there were no exceptions. Almost all men would become like cats that had smelled fish. In this world, was there a cat that did not like fish? Clearly, there was not… Since that was the case, what could she rely on to make sure that Xin Yun did not become interested in that fish?
Seeing Yi Luo Xiang’s worried expression, Xin Yun secretly pitied her. Although he had already made up his mind that he would not act wildly in this world, he also knew that no matter how he comforted her, it would not be effective.
In truth, Yi Luo Xiang still trusted Xin Yun, but some things were unrelated to trust. With the environment being like this, Yi Luo Xiang was unable to find peace of mind. Perhaps… as time went on, and the environment changed, Yi Luo Xiang would slowly be able to accept this truth, and she would also allow Xin Yun to live freely like the other men; however, she felt that this was definitely not what Xin Yun wished to see.
Yi Luo Xiang was Yi Luo Xiang. If she changed to become unlike how she was in his previous life, even if he received her, Xin Yun would feel sad.
To change Yi Luo Xiang into a docile woman that listened to Xin Yun would not be difficult, but once she truly became that sort of woman, would she still be the same cold and proud her of his previous life? Since it was no longer her, what was the point of a shell of a human?
Ever since he had received Yi Luo Xiang’s favor, Xin Yun was worried the entire time. He worried that Yi Luo Xiang would become unlike her, unlike the dazzling butterfly Yi Luo Xiang from his previous life. Right now… was when he should put forth some effort.
Xin Yun reached out and patted Yi Luo Xiang’s hair, saying: “Yi Luo, there’s no need to worry too much. As long as you have enough accomplishments, even if you wanted to chase me away, I would not leave. Do you understand what I mean?”
“Hm?” Looking at Xin Yun in confusion, Yi Luo Xiang’s expression showed that she was puzzled. She completely did not understand what he was saying.
Seeing Yi Luo Xiang’s confused expression, Xin Yun continued: “Right now, the reason you are worried that I will do something unworthy of you is, in truth, because you still related to your confidence. You cannot find anything that you excel at, thus you will worry that you cannot keep me, and that I will leave you. Is that the case?”
Faced with Xin Yun’s question, Yi Luo Xiang nodded sincerely. She was a smart person and completely understood where her problem lay. Over time, Xin Yun appeared more and more amazing. He was just a child that was nearly eight-years-old, yet he seemed to know everything, and he was quite powerful. He was truly like a god. Even the 30-year-old A Da listened to his orders. Although A Da might not have felt it, in the eyes of an outsider, Yi Luo Xiang knew that Xin Yun’s words were basically an imperial decree for him.
And comparatively, she, who was also seven-years-old, did not know how to do anything. She did not excel in anything. Compared to Xin Yun, she was truly nothing. She was nothing more than a burden, and this situation would not change for a very long time.
Seeing Yi Luo Xiang’s helpless expression, Xin Yun smiled and continued: “Right now, the problem is very clear. The reason you are worried is because you feel that you do not excel enough. Since that is the case, do your best to improve yourself. When you have become so amazing that I cannot leave you no matter what, the one that will be worrying will be me. Once it is like that, how could I dare do anything that would be unworthy of you?”
Hearing Xin Yun’s words, Yi Luo Xiang’s eyes suddenly lit up. That’s right… As long as she became sufficiently amazing, she would be worthy of Xin Yun, and she would not need to worry about such groundless fears.
In truth, it was not that Yi Luo Xiang did not trust Xin Yun; however, she had no faith in herself. People would change. Perhaps Xin Yun truly did like her right now, but once a long time had passed, and Xin Yun met more girls, nobody knew whether or not he would change. After all… they were both children. There were too many possibilities in the future.
“But…” Suddenly looking at Xin Yun, Yi Luo Xiang voiced her worries: “I want to become more amazing, but I don’t know the path forward. I don’t know what I should do to become more amazing. Can you tell me?”
Looking at Yi Luo Xiang, Xin Yun secretly laughed. As a seven-year-old child, she was already quite amazing. Aside from Xin Yun, who had been reborn, where would there be any other child that could compare to her? But… compared to the old guy that has lived three lives, she was too tender. There were many things that could not be replaced by wisdom.
While thinking, Xin Yun smiled and said: “There’s no need to worry. What you must do right now is rest properly. It won’t be long before I will guide you down a path for you to advance. Trust me… the future you will be much more amazing than me. I will be unable to leave your side. When that time comes, you absolutely must not cast me aside.”
“Ah!” Hearing Xin Yun’s words, Yi Luo Xiang was shocked at first. She then furrowed her brow unhappily, saying: “What sort of thing are you saying. How could I become even more amazing than you? Also, even if such a day does come, how could I leave you? In your eyes, is Yi Luo Xiang really a girl who is that quick to change?”
“Smack…” Hearing what Yi Luo Xiang said, Xin Yun fiercely slapped himself across the face. What sort of thing was he saying. He should be hit… He really should be hit!
Seeing that Xin Yun slapped himself across the face, Yi Luo Xiang felt a little distressed. That slap just now had not been a joke. Yi Luo Xiang saw it very clearly. Xin Yun had truly hit himself as hard as he could. The red handprint left on his face was not something that could be faked.
Hurriedly running forward, Yi Luo Xiang reached out her small hands in concern. Gently caressing Xin Yun’s cheek, she sympathetically said; “Why are you doing this. I’m not really angry. No matter what you do, I will not get mad at you. Why did you hit yourself so hard…”
Looking at Yi Luo Xiang bitterly, Xin Yun took a deep breath and said: “Did you know? Yi Luo… in truth, the one that has lacked confidence was me. The one that was afraid to lose you was me. That is the reason I said those words just now. It is the exact same issue as you had earlier. It’s all because we were worried about lacking in ability, thus fearing that we would lose each other.”
“How… how could that be! You are already so amazing!” Looking at Xin Yun, Yi Luo Xiang shouted this out in disbelief.
Shaking his head, Xin Yun solemnly said: “Don’t ask me how I know. Either way… Yi Luo, you will be incomparably amazing in the future. You will shine brilliantly and be revered. That’s why there is no need for you to worry about me casting you aside. The one that truly should worry is me!”
“Hehe…” Hearing Xin Yun’s sincere words, Yi Luo Xiang let out a sweet laugh and shook her head, saying: “You’re wrong. I am also wrong. At this time, I no longer have any worries. Thinking about it from another angle, I suddenly understand everything. Whether you like me or I like you is, in truth, completely unrelated to whether or not we are amazing. As long as I like you, no matter what you become, it will not change.”
While she spoke, Yi Luo Xiang gently hugged Xin Yun’s arm and affectionately said: “If you are the hero then I will be the hero’s wife in the future. If you become end up becoming a bandit, then I will be the bandit chief’s wife. As long as we can stay together, there’s nothing else that is necessary. Isn’t that right?”
Watching Yi Luo Xiang in astonishment and hearing her affectionate words, after a long time… Xin Yun suddenly let out a loud laugh toward the sky. That’s right… If Yi Luo Xiang’s feelings for him were built on the foundation of him being amazing, what was the difference between having these feelings?