"Wife, I want to eat meat” 《娘子，我要吃肉》Chapter 48 Wang Yun Feng did not mind: “He is your son, if he doesn’t live here where else could he live?” He didn’t say adopted son, instead he said son, this was his intention to remind Xia Ling Mei of Xia Fen’s status. Beneath the surface Wang Yun Feng was a stubborn person, he wouldn’t allow his own blood wander about outside, even if he was only an adopted son. What’s more, regardless if it’s Xia Ling Mei or General Xia, anyone knew, Xia Fen wasn’t a child just picked up from somewhere. This little point, maybe even Xia Fen himself knew. Xia Ling Mei became quiet. Her silence was like a kind of noiseless protest, oppressive, muffled, making Wang Yun Feng at a loss what to do. Wang Yun Feng took a yielding tone, softly saying: “Unless you’re at ease with allowing Fen Er being by himself outside, what would we do if something happens? From young he grew up by your side, the only time you’ve left him, not half a year later he hurriedly came to find you, almost to be separated from you between heaven and earth. Have you thought about it, the fall from the cliff this time could have caused you mother and child to separate from each other! He’s only six years old, he still doesn’t know anything, without you he really will become an orphan, no one can worry about his life in his place, no one can tidy up his terrible messes in his place, feel wronged, feel happy, be at a loss, there is no one who can share the burden with him. How could you bear for him to face the elements outside by himself?” Xia Ling Mei pursed her lips. Naturally she hated it, even if Xia Fen became more independent, more people by his side to take care of him, but he was her child, he was the flesh and blood she had carried in her womb for ten months before giving birth to him with difficulty, even the past seven years, Xia Fen was Xia Ling Mei’s everything. However, to bring Fen Er into the Wang family, it was matter she had never considered before. Everything of Xia Fen, before he was even born, was already decided by the Xia family’s elders. It couldn’t be changed just by saying so. Xia Ling Mei dug her five fingers into her palm deeply, bitterly laughing: “I must bear it, Fen Er isn’t an ordinary child, he has an alertness and understanding other children doesn’t have. He can distinguish the different scents in a forest, good at following a track, when he was living on the sea, he had already experienced life and death. You’ve already seen it right? When he gets violent killing someone, the colour and lustre in his eyes slightly change, his hand and feet become even more nimble, an unusual concentration, his manner…almost self-taught, the intuition of a wild animal, able to quickly attack the lifeline of the enemy, striking fatally. For this reason, fifth uncle once personally coached him in martial arts, under common circumstances he is flexible, a brave and scheming child. But, once he is caught up in a life or death situation, the blood inside of him boils as if, he would become blood-thirsty, he wouldn’t be able to control himself from killing, at that time the style he uses is no longer the Xia family’s martial art skills, rather the even more direct even more cruel killing moves self-disciplined from the battlefield.” Xia Ling Mei couldn’t help shuddering, in exceptional pain: “Fen Er, he enjoyed the bloody battlefield, fifth uncle said he was an Asura born for the battlefield!” Wang Yun Feng’s frowned: “You never mentioned this to me before.” Xia Ling Mei bitterly laughed shaking her head: “Apart from some of the elders, not a lot of people know about this. Even the sailors in
the barracks, they also only think he is a child highly skilled in martial arts.” She turned her head, as if recalling the past: “You must have had questions, last time we were chased, there were so many people following beside Fen Er, why was he the only person covered head and toe in blood, and the way those assassins were died…almost most of them had their heads separated from their body? The shadow guards and guards had all been rigorously instructed, even if it was assassination not very many would cut off people’s heads, that sort of death required too much energy and was too grim, if there wasn’t a great hatred who would want someone’s head? Leaving someone’s corpse complete, is a respect to the enemy.”
“You’re saying, Fen Er likes cutting off people’s heads?”
Xia Ling Mei almost staggered along dropping into the depths of a chair. Currently she was a mother in exceptional pain because of her child, she was very indecisive, even more she blamed herself, why her child had become a homicidal maniac? Was it her fault? If her child did not follow his mother into battle, would he not have become an Asura?
Wang Yun Feng still had a question: “What you’re saying is the fighting at the risk of one’s life on the battlefield, granted we were chased last time, from the start he didn’t want to take peoples’ lives.”
Xia Ling Mei took a step breath: “Only at a life or death situation, when he’s surrounded by people attacking…I’ve seen it several times, fifth uncle also became aware, afterwards he specially observed and probed him. They dropped him alone on a pirate boat, at that time he was only three years old…” Unconsciously, Xia Ling Mei was already silently crying, her heart appeared to be bound by iron chains, more and more tightly: “He’s so young, he still doesn’t know anything, he could only open his innocent eyes lifting his head to look at the enemy evilly grinning around him. They almost hacked him to pieces under their swords. After…only in a blink of an eye, he became like a thoughtless wild animal, with one bite breaking the other person’s throat. So much blood came spraying out of the stench of the human body, soaking him into a bloody person. He wrested away the other person’s sword, thunderbolt not even reaching the ears, as quick as lightening, direct and efficient he chopped off numerous heads of people.”
In the middle of the nightmare she stared at Wang Yun Feng, like a helpless mother seeking a god’s redemption, but there was no god, she could only time and time again fall into the slurry of mutilation: “A ship full of pirates, more than a hundred people, he by himself inone day and one night, killed everyone.”
Wang Yun Feng felt the pit of his stomach was extremely heavy, he finally understood, why when faced with the stench of blood, Xia Fen wasn’t scared at all. He was like a general who was soaked in battles all year round, standing on a pile of skeletons, disregarding all human life.
“Fifth uncle said, Fen Er is a child born for the battlefield, his whole life must be spent killing.”
Wang Yun Feng head throbbed: “But at Bailu academy he hasn’t killed anyone.”
Xia Ling Mei slowly took a breath, wanting to pour a cup of tea, holding the teapot she couldn’t stop shaking pouring the tea onto the table. The tea was tepid, but her hand it felt extremely ice-cold.
Xia Ling Mei did not speak, Wang Yun Feng had already thought back over Xia Fen’s words and actions during those days once, the more he thought the more he was shocked, he blurted out: “Is it possible that he is studying?”
Xia Ling Mei was stumped, quite a while before saying: “Yes. His killing on the battlefield is an intuition to survive, now, he simply does not need to worry about his life, therefore he’s started to get in-depth with the Xia family’s martial arts, trying it out…killing without seeing blood.”
Not knowing why, just these five words made the sole of Wang Yun Feng’s feet cold, a chill directly rushing to his forehead.
Killing without seeing blood, was very easy for those literature officials who love to argue pointlessly. The glib talk was their sword, not seeing blood they could make the other person alive as good as dead.
For the imperial family, murder didn’t require a knife, they only need to give the instruction, automatically there would be someone wielding a knife in their place to knock down all barriers. Power was a blade, there was nothing to fear in killing one person, executing all of someone’s relatives was actually a great murder.
And Xia Fen’s killing without blood, was targeted at one person, slowly it will become a group of people. Xia Fen’s without blood was to inflict unseen injuries to people, directly attacking the person’s internal organs, make your internal organs shatter in a flash and die, and can make you be in extreme pain daily, suffering day and night until your internal organs couldn’t bear it anymore and die. This was even more cruel than chopping someone’s head off with one slice, even more inhumane.
Xia Ling Mei had learned a lot, although she had not been by Xia Fen’s side this month, but the shadow guards still reported to her each and every move the child made. She naturally saw the purpose of Kong Xian and Wu Sheng’s guidance in his martial arts. Xia Fen at the Xia residence, his civil and military training was not the same as the son of a first wife, but also not the same as a bastard who was bad at studying good at art, he simply didn’t have an appointed instructor. He was by the shadow guards side, learning from them these hidden, obscure, cruel skills to kill to save someone.
Wang Yun Feng was disconcerted.
No matter what he also never imagined his own son was a homicidal maniac.
A literature official’s son was actually a killer!
If this was found out by the other officials of the court, apart from Xia Fen, even Wang Yun Feng would be mocked and ridiculed to nothing by everyone.
This point, the Xia family knew, Xia Ling Mei knew even more the difficulties in this. She wasn’t scared Wang Yun Feng would be harmed, she was afraid her only son would become the blade in the enemy’s hand, placing the Wang family and Xia family in the middle of hell. She could only decide: “Fen Er cannot come to the Wang residence, he isn’t your----“ she bit out the two words “son.”
With a bang, Wang Yun Feng’s palm almost flipped the entire rose wood table: “Fen Er is my son, it doesn’t matter if you won’t admit it.”
Xia Ling Mei was startled, a shudder practically ran from head to toe. Her lips trembled, shocked she looked at Wang Yun Feng. Is he crazy? He unexpectedly said Xia Fen is his son. Does he know if Xia Fen’s surname became Wang, as his father, Wang Yun Feng will have to take responsibility for all of Xia Fen’s massacres? The Xia family can arrange for a way out for Xia Fen, besides Xia Fen’s future had long ago been prepared, the aids and advisors of the Xia family had already researched how to protect Xia Fen at an earlier time, and a method to make Xia Fen into the sharpest blade of the Xia family.
The Xia family had strength, and had the courage to cover up everything of Xia Fen’s!
The Wang family couldn’t, not talking about the imperial censor Wang Yun Feng, even if it was Wang Yun Feng in the capacity of the Wang clan leader, he still couldn’t.
A this point, in the first three years of marrying Wang Yun Feng, Xia Ling Mei had long been very clear about the Wang family’s background. She knew, and understood, that’s why back then she could only agree with General Xia’s arrangements, complying with the decision of the Xia family elders, no one could change it.
Wang Yun Feng grasped Xia Ling Mei’s shoulders firmly, stressing: “Fen Er is the Wang family’s son of the first wife, he has to recognise his ancestors and return to his clan.”
Xia Ling Mei was expressionless: “I don’t agree, Xia family also doesn’t agree.”
“He is my son, your Xia family has no right to steal him away.”
Xia Ling Mei struggled free of his hold: “You are unable to protect him, everything of his will be destroyed in the Wang family.” Amongst this, including you, including me, including everything of the Wang family.
Wang Yun Feng suddenly smiled, firmly saying: “You admit it, Fen Er is my child.”
Xia Ling Mei’s heart slowly sunk, she calmly looked at Wang Yun Feng’s face: “Yes, he is your son. Fen Er is that word Fen, I imagine you understood the meaning from the first time you heard it.”
She pushed him away, resolute and decisive: “Fen Er, granted he is your son, he still doesn’t belong to the Wang family.” She stopped, no longer looking at Wang Yun Feng’s shocked and scared out of his wits face.
Xia Ling Mei walked unsteadily, step by step to the room, looking around at a loss. Perhaps, not only was it impossible for Xia Fen to return to the Wang family, even she Xia Ling Mei, may also need to leave.
When there was no one, Xia Ling Mei then unloaded all the strength from her body, covering her face, let the remorse unwillingly seep out bit by bit.
His son, her Fen Er…
It was her fault, it was her fault, everything was her mistake.