Published at 28th of November 2020 09:39:17 PM
Chapter 26
Chapter 26: And then She Remembers .
I( Ore), Kayo Hinazuki, was a high school boy with no special characteristics besides being a Yuri game lover .
I lived happily as a Yuri gamer, but as a human, I was a quiet shy person . Embarrassed by my own hobby .
Especially when I became absorbed in the yuri game . When I played “Flower of Eden” I forgot to eat, I forgot to sleep . . . and I even forgot how to live . If you want to laugh, then laugh . I do plenty of self loathing myself . My greatest shame .
Aside from that, 12 years ago, I(Boku) became the eldest daughter of the Regnart family . This became my second life .
My past memories came back to me when I turned 3 . From then it sprouted in me .
To be honest, I didn’t realize I was in the world of “Flower of Eden” for a long time . After all, it was insane to think I had . Besides, I never heard of the name Shiran Regnart in the world of “Flower of Eden” . So it was impossible to predict .
It may be surprising, but there wasn’t a lot of confusion about my gender at first .
It’s true it was a different one than my previous life, and I did remember that, but it’s also true I was born and raised as a daughter of the Regnart family . There were alot mistakes as a 3-year old child . But like all humans, you learn as you go .
I continued to grow as a girl, named Shiran .
I was around 5 years old when I met my first friend Iris .
The Regnart family and the Glendes family have always been close . So it was natural we would often spend time with each other . Everytime we met, we’d go off and play together .
When I entered the elementary school section of Manjurkia academy with Iris, it was the first time I realized that this was the world of “Flower of Eden”
After all, the story takes place in the middle school section of Manjurkia Academy .
It was at that time, I began to feel like I was a stain upon this world .
I, with memories of my previous life as a man, should not come into contact with characters from that Yuri game . I don’t want to be the only man who gets caught in a yuri . With that in mind, after enrolling, I tried to keep far away from every other classmate .
Obviously if you do that, you would naturally begin to drift away from people, but seeing as I’m an impurity, it can’t be helped .
However, it was my childhood friend, Iris, that never left me alone .
She was a more delinquent student, so she was naturally outcast in this girls school . So it was perhaps due to a sense of comradery that it further glued us together .
Before I noticed, it felt natural for Iris to be beside me .
Because she was so special, and came to my side when I just wanted to wallow alone, before I knew it, those feelings naturally began to grow . Eventually past friendship . . . I began to fall in love with Iris .
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I became aware of it much earlier than most . Perhaps due to my mental maturity . All thanks to my memories of my previous life .
But honestly . . . It was a love I can not accept .
Are these the feelings of a girl named Shiran?
Maybe it’s just a false love, influenced by my previous life as a man .
As long as I couldn’t help but deny the possibility of it just being a corrupted one, I could never indulge in them .
I just wished I could erase this love . But it’s impossible . Every year these constant feelings grow . These damn emotions .
By the time I was about to graduate from elementary school, this unacceptable love was about to overflow .
I just wish I could forget . Forget those stupid memories of my past life . Then I could believe that these feelings were real . . .
It was the eve of admission to middle school, that a stupid thing happened . The night before it, I was deep in memories, cringing at my past life . . . It’s so embarrassing, I just wish I couldn’t remember it . Perhaps it was because of the stress that I couldn’t suppress my internal tantrum . Carelessly hitting my pillow, I slipped and fell off my bed . Hitting my head violently . After a terrifying rumbling sound still burned in my mind .
Was it because I was thinking about such a silly thing, or was it just a coincidence?
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If I had lost my life, I was just hoping I would just disappear, and not have to remember that embarrassment anymore .
But my consciousness did return . Yes, it did . . .
I think it was because I hit my head . But fortunately or unfortunately my wish came true . I did forget a segment of my memory .
However it wasn’t the part I hoped for . Rather it was the worst case . What I lost was the memories of living 12 years as Shiran . . . The ones I lived in this world .
The largest misunderstanding . The worst case .
I just had to forget right on time . The time where “Flower of Eden” began . I forgot my 12 years, and even became a ready made character, called “Follower 2”
12 years of being alive, being raised as Shiran . The distress I felt . These past months . I’ve lived in ignorance of it . But now I remember them all .
I see . . . So that is how I was able to dance that night? Well it makes sense . Mother has always been strict with these pleasantries, she had me practice hard since I was little .
In addition to that, it feels like it helped in other places .
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For example, why did Magnolia and Iris, who would have never known the past me, not feel uncomfortable? If a completely different person possesses your master or best friend, wouldn’t they act or seem strange . However if I was originally myself, that is a different story . For a young girl that has always had a bit of my past life, very little had changed .
I don’t think it’s necessary for me to even explain this to Cosmos-san .
But then I noticed something . I lost my memories of growing up as Shiran, but I also lost my love for Iris . I became friends with her again, and no matter how much I liked her, it was a strong platonic friendship . She was my best friend . With just my memories of Kayo Hinazuki, it seems that there were no romantic feelings towards her .
I understand . In this world, with the memories of my life I had as Shiran, I was firmly in love with Iris as a girl .
Those feelings weren’t influenced by my previous life, but because I grew up in this world with her, I now know .
By remembering the memories I had forgotten, the two emotions of friendship and love ignited in me . The accumulated love I had as Shiran, and the fierce friendship I made as Kayo . The feelings merged . . . It became one big emotion .
Ahh . I want to see Iris soon .
For that reason, I need to regain consciousness . I can’t stay in this pitch black world forever . I’m sure Cosmos is already worried .
In that moment of wishing, a light began to shine .
It’s time to wake up .