Published at 21st of November 2020 06:26:38 PM
Chapter 5: 5
Clearly, he was waiting for her answer .
A cold sweat broke out behind Dalia’s back .
‘I, I’m screwed . ’
I thought things were going smoothly these days, but as expected, an ambush has hit me . But why of all things, such contents that you take from that book?
Dalia had a hunch . If she says something wrong now, the relationship between Hikan and Dalia will be over .
She worked hard in pretending to be the innocent sister, but then suddenly looking at the book that said transcendents are beings that are different from us?
‘Even I won’t believe in me either . ’
“Well, I’m friends with the Duchess of Blueport . I wouldn’t think like that…”
Fortunately, she remembered to make an excuse . She put her best smile .
“And I just wanted to know more about the transcendent . I want to understand my brother more . ”
“Understand?”
Hikan frowned his eyebrows .
Dalia nodded eagerly . However, her enthusiastic response did not change his expression at all .
“You’re talking nonsense . ”
He pushed the book to the chest of the fallen Dalia .
“This book is right, Dalia . ”
“What?”
“You and I are different beings . Even if you die and wake up again, you’ll never understand me . ”
Dalia shook her head hard this time .
Even if she thought about it, it was a tearful effort . However, Hikan looked at her for a long time with an unknown look .
Normally, he would have gone right back, but instead he took a step closer to Dalia .
As a result, Dalia’s body became stiff .
“It seems like you don’t understand . Do you know how our beloved maternal grandfather, the previous great Duke Pesteros died?”
“……”
He was killed in a mana frenzy .
It was a story that was hard to tell even though she knew it . Hikan said such a story casually and coldly .
“He blew up all this Pesteros mansion . He tried to kill his own daughter . Our mother . ”
Dalia looked up at him blankly . Hikan also saw her . He still had a cold face with no expression on his face .
“So, mother handed over the title of Pesteros to father . It was so disgusting that she couldn’t handle it . ”
“……”
“Our mother saw me and her father as being the same in nature . A man who will one day try to kill her . He was a transcendent and stronger than anyone else, but she couldn’t get out of it all her life . So she drove me away from the mansion . Then how about you, Dalia?”
His question came in at an unexpected point .
Dalia looked at him, blinking quickly . Hikan also stared at her with a grim expression .
“I asked how about you . ”
For some reason, I felt like I had heard a story that I shouldn’t have heard .
Hikan’s background, which did not appear in the original work . I never knew Dalia’s mother had kicked him out because Hikan is a transcendent . That’s why I’ve never seen him at the Pesteros mansion?
But this is not the time to worry about that . If she keeps her mouth shut here, Hikan will consider Dalia to think the same as the previous duchess .
She stuttered .
“I… . . I don’t think so . Brother, is my one and only brother… . . and a good person . ”
“…… . Yes, I guess . ”
It sounded sarcastic, and it just sounded weak .
Hikan’s gaze turned away from Dalia and looked in the distance . As if it doesn’t matter what Dalia says .
Perhaps Dalia’s desperate words did not reach Hikan at all . Hikan left Dalia alone and left the study .
Dalia stared blankly at the spot where he had left . My heart still thumped . On the other hand, strangely enough, I remembered the words of the Duchess Blueport that I heard last time .
“Being a transcendent is a solitary and lonely place . ”
Is it because Hikan, who asserts that Dalia will never understand him, seems lonely for some reason?
Dalia recalled a scene from the original . It was a conversation between the two after Hikan kidnapped the original female protagonist, Adrisha .
「It’s not too late yet . Everything can be turned around . We understand each other and…」
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「No, nothing can be reversed . You loving me or understand me, it will never happen . 」
「……… . . 」
「So this is the only way left . 」
It was only when I was playing the game that I swore with excitement saying that he was an unconventional icon . I only thought that the original female protagonist who showed sympathy for him was an angel .
But… . . did he have that expression back then too? Somehow Dalia’s mind got complicated .
While limping out of the study and walking down the hallway, she met her nanny . The nanny was startled and took Dalia to the nearest room, the drawing-room .
She had the maid bring a bandage and disinfectant to treat Dalia’s knee wound .
“Ah, it stings . ”
Dalia shed tears .
The nanny knelt down .
“How did you get hurt like this?”
“I fell while playing with a ladder in the study . “
“Goodness, Miss, you’re lucky that you got hurt only this much . ”
Of course, the nagging continued for a while .
Even after treatment, the nagging was not over . Dalia laughed and listened in one ear and out the other . Then, the nanny stopped talking for a while, as if she had an idea .
“Wait, I just saw the young Duke Hikan come out of the study, perhaps…?”
It was a good point . Dalia couldn’t make up a lie this time . The nanny’s eyes changed .
“Did he see you got hurt and just go away? He’s too cruel . ”
From the way she spoke, it seemed like Hikan had deliberately pushed her off the ladder .
Well, to nanny, Hikan’s first impression was a man who pushed recklessly into the room and told Dalia of her father’s death . The nanny, who is on Dalia’s side, naturally hated him .
‘I don’t like him either . ’
Dalia grumbled inside .
But somehow she couldn’t blame him because she remembered his lonely expression earlier . She defended him unknowingly .
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“My brother is a good person . ”
“But…”
“Someday, if I work hard, there will be a day when my brother will like me, too . ”
Actually, I didn’t want this .
“My poor lady……”
The nanny dabbed her tears .
Dalia was soothing her and saw someone pass through the half-open door of the drawing room .
‘Did he hear that? I’m glad I didn’t curse with the nanny . ’
Thinking that it might be Hikan, Dalia exhaled a breath of relief .
The book that I brought was also hidden in the secret diary box . I couldn’t believe that I had to suffer just because of this one .
* * *
‘……I did something useless . ’
Hikan regretted .
At first he was just going to scare her from doing something useless . But when he saw the big eyes looking up at him, he talked nonsense .
“Someday, if I work hard, there will be a day when my brother will like me, too . ”
And I heard useless words .
Even when he tries to ignore it, Dalia keeps on bothering him . He didn’t want to admit it, but from one day Hikan often thought of her .
Maybe from the day I first met her .
On the first day, there was a heartfelt desperateness in Dalia’s eyes, holding her hands together and looking up at him when he tried to throw her uninteresting gift, on the floor .
A girl who didn’t care a bit when she heard that her father had passed away .
Hikan has never been so desperate for anyone . So the look in her eyes made him feel weird .
But he shouldn’t .
He had to hate Dalia . There were plenty of reasons for that .
The family had been destroyed for decades just because they were transcendents, and Dalia was the success of the family after the failures .
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He turned his head and looked at the portrait of his mother in his study .
She was staring into space with a gentle smile . Even after she died, she didn’t see herself . (*t/n: I’m not too sure about this part . )
One corner of his mouth twisted up .
It’s just as he told Dalia .
His mother, the previous duchess, hated the very existence of transcendence after her father became like that . Enough to deny her own identity .
Of course she didn’t want her child to be transcendent . Since the child didn’t have to be smart and didn’t have to be upsetting, she just wanted him to be normal like everyone else .
But her first child is a transcendent . Hikan grew too fast to fit into their fantasies, too clever, and also independent and cold .
From the moment the Duchess began to overlap Hikan with her father, the destruction had already been expected .
Since then, the Duchess has complained to the Duke that Hikan is not like a child, that his eyes are scary, and that he is looking down on her .
Hikan is smart, so he knew what his mother wanted him to do .
However, he didn’t feel the need to adjust to it . What’s more, he had a tendency to return what he had received .
When Hikan was three years old, his mother’s friend’s son had come to visit the mansion . The whole time he is in the mansion, he keeps on messing with Hikan’s temper .
He tried to push the Hikan down and intentionally destroyed his favorite toy as a joke .
After a small scuffle, Hikan pushed him away . He rolled down the stairs and break his leg . He could have died, but was lucky to stop there .
However, her mother began to despise and reject Hikan even more, claiming that it was planned .
And Dalia was born . I don’t know how she was able to conceive a new child after she was diagnosed sterile after having him .
However, mother thought that it was a blessing from God .
And she wanted to get rid of him, the only stain in the family .
In the end, Hikan was ousted to a province’s branch family estate as part of his experience as successor . He lived there for more than a decade even after his mother died .
Like a ghost attached to this mansion, she still had a terrible influence on Pesteros even after she died .
She was very meticulous . Enough to convince her husband so that he will not let him in the mansion again .
So only after both of his parents died could he return to the Pesteros mansion .
On his return he made up his mind . He will never forgive this family for abandoning him so completely and thoroughly .
‘Yes, never, I’ll never love her . ’
It was like he was brainwashing himself .