This is where the story gets a liiittle bit messed up due to the black Soutarou. The next few chapters too, will feature a messed up Soutarou. So those of you guys that said you like Soutarou’s personality…might reconsider after these next set of chapters lol.
TL: clover
ED: clover
Two years had already passed since I realized my feelings for her.
I became a junior high school third grader, and Nee-chan became a senior in high school.
I had successfully behaved as a younger brother, and Nee-chan didn't notice my secret feelings at all.
We were doing well as a family — although.
"You, did you reject Ito-san from Class 4?"
On the way home from school, Yuusuke threw his hand over my shoulder and made fun of me.
As Yuusuke said, I was confessed by Ito-san the other day, and I just rejected her.
"What a waste. Before that, didn't you also rejected Yoshidsan from Class 1?"
"Wow, you sure know a lot."
"Rumor spreads fast. -But, why did you reject her? Ito-san, she's extremely cute."
When Yuusuke replied, I remembered Ito-san's appearance.
She was tall and smart, and either way she was a girl who was classified as beautiful.
Indeed, she might be a beautiful girl.
"There is no choice. Even though she confessed, I don't like her."
Nee-chan already existed in the center if my heart.
I tried to turn my attention to other things, but it didn't lessen my feelings.
"Even if you don't like her, don't you think you would like to have sex once?"
I kept my silence to Yuusuke's words.
If I was asked whether I was interested in sex or not, I would have to nodded my head. However.
"Such dishonest thing, I can't do it."
"You're too serious."
Yuusuke kept staring at me.
Then, he repeated 'What a waste' again and again.
"It can't be helped. If she's not good, why don't I recommend you some AV?"
"How idiotic."
"I know. Oh right, there is an AV actress that is very similar to your Nee-chan."
I stopped in my track involuntarily.
"……Tell me more details."
When I murmured, Yuusuke spurted out.
"You, you haven't cure your siscon yet?"
"Never mind that. So what about that AV?"
"I will tell you, so come with me."
The AV that was told to me by Yuusuke was awesome, to say the least.
"The resemblance is like a miracle…"
As Yuusuke said, the actress looked like Nee-chan.
Her face was not exactly the same, but her petiteness, her hairstyle, and her whole atmosphere were very similar.
When I returned home, I quickly launched my laptop and entered the movie site that was taught to me.
I purchased every movie where that actress appeared in an atmosphere that closely resembled Nee-chan.
Until now I was not very interested in AV, but these videos were incredibly arousing.
Among them, my most favorite was the AV with a tailored story, about a brother raping his sister.
The brother waited for his sister at home, caught her body and bound her to the bed and forcibly undressed her.
He licked up, kneaded, and violated every corner of his sister's body.
The resisting sister was given pleasures and reached her climax many times, and in the end she would seek out the younger brother's body by herself.
"……Haah……Nee-chan……!"
While watching the video, I reached climax many times.
I had never thought that I would have so much sexual desires inside of me.
After the movie was over, I overlooked the room full of tissues and I thumped my head against my laptop with a feeling of guilt.
—I'm the lowest. I was overlapping the AV actress with Nee-chan.
Even if I thought about it, it was not an action of a younger brother.
No, but this video was truly the best.
"Nee-chan absolutely couldn't know about this."
Well, Nee-chan wouldn't use my laptop without my permission.
While I was rearranging my clothes, at that moment, the door to my room was knocked and my heart jumped in shock.
"Soutarou, are you in?"
"Ne-Nee-chan!?"
I hurriedly close my laptop and stood up.
I made sure the pants' chucks were closed, threw the scattered tissues into a trash can.
Looking at the watch, it had already been around 5:30 p.m.
I didn't realize that it was time for Nee-chan to return home because I was concentrating too much on the AV.
"I have already called you many times, but you didn't reply at all. What were you doing?"
"Eh, no, I, I was studying!?"
—What studying.
While I inserted a tsukkomi in my mind, when I said that, Nee-chan nodded in acceptance.
"Oh, Soutarou is also a student. It's amazing that you concentrated so much that you couldn't hear my voice."
"Hahaha……yeah, well."
I laughed awkwardly. Nee-chan was simple-minded so I was saved.
"So, why did you call me for?"
"Oh right. Today's dinner, is pork cutlet okay with you?"
"Eh, aah. That's alright. I like pork cutlets."
"Roger that. Well then I'll make it. Wait a moment."
As she said so, Nee-chan tried to close the door of my room.
But before that she turned around, furrowed her brows with a slightly strange expression.
"Soutarou's room, isn't there somewhat an odd smell? Have you clean your room properly?"
"Huh!? I, I have. I'm cleaning it properly."
While trying to gloss over the stench of semen that was spitted out on my previous masturbation, my face turned pale.
"Really? That's alright then. Cleaning the living room and the kitchen are helpful, but you have to clean your room properly, okay?"
"I know. It's okay, I'll clean it properly. Rest assured!"
As soon as I said it, Nee-chan finally closed the door with a bang.
Oh, that was dangerous.
Making sure that the door was completely closed, I sat down while exhaling in relief.
If she knew about the truth, I would likely to be despised by her.
Besides, I was watching the brother-sister AV whose actress was similar to Nee-chan, and to make matters worse, I reached climax many times when I was trying to overlap them with myself and Nee-chan, it was bad in all sorts of ways.
—But.
I imagined Nee-chan, if the existence of the AV was leaked out.
Actress just like Nee-chan, the AV folder.
If she saw that, even if Nee-chan was dense like a rock, would she notice my feelings?
Confessed my feelings for Nee-chan frankly, pushed her down just like the AV, ravished her—
When I imagined it, I shook my head in a panic.
Calm down, me. What was I thinking?
Nee-chan was my older sister. She was my family.
If I did such things due to a momentary feeling, I would definitely regret it.
I didn't want to break this relationship. Such a thing, should just keep being a delusion.
"……I need air."
When I stood up, I opened the window of my room all the way.