Rating: PG-13?
(This chapter part is currently unedited)
Seeing Qin Shuhan smooth skin exposed, Lu Anwei stood immobile in surprise for a moment before sharply turning his head away and rasped out, "Shuhan…." Lu Anwei himself is also only 23 years of age and is right at the age where he is very hot-blooded, so he is currently putting all his energy into restraining himself.
"Don't forget, I'm older than you, you don't need to teach me what to do! I'm the teacher!" Qin Shuhan muttered with a pout, she just past her 26th birthday this year as compared to 23 years old Lu Anwei, she is older than him by 3 years! Thinking of this, Qi Shuhan eyes shifted around guiltily, the her now, does it count as her robbing the cradle ah!
"….." Naturally Lu Anwei knows that Qin Shuhan is a little older than him, but to Lu Anwei who have experience near death situations from young in the military, Qin Shuhan's mental age much younger than him.
"I don't care! I have already decided to sleep with you today! Qin Shuhan bulldozed ahead, after all she have already undressed until like this, so she must definitely grab hold of Lu Anwei! Qin Shuhan who came back from studying abroad seek after equality between both genders and has the belief that girls who are in a relationship without equality means that they would be taken advantage of easily. Nobody is at an disadvantage, she is already 26 years old, it is her own decision to do whatever she wants.
Hearing Qin Shuhan's words, Lu Anwei does not whether he should laugh or cry, she wants to sleep with him? This girl is really…
Qin Shuhan did not give Lu Anwei anytime to reject her and immediately hugged him again and kissed him, successfully blocking off all of Lu Anwei's refusals.
Gradually, Qin Shuhan's body softened and under Lu Anwei's possession bloom into the most beautiful flower….
The bright sunlight shined through the thin window drapes into the room, and a small head unstably popped out of the blankets. Qin Shuhan sleepily looking around her own room and realised her body hurt like after she got into a fight, when she flipped open her blankets to sit up. The originally white and soft skin was filled with love bites.
"Ss…." Qin Shuhan sucked in a breath at the pain, her face blushing slightly.
She looked around her and did not see Lu Anwei anywhere, a glimmer of disappointment flickered through her heart but there was nothing she was unsatisfied with, after all she willingly and slept with Lu Anwei. Also, both of them are adults, so there was nothing about anyone being forced.
She flipped open the blankets and crawled out of her bed to wear a pyjama while enduring the pain. Walking forward in her slippers, she turned around and saw the bedsheet stained red by blood Qin Shuhan face went hot with embarrassment and quickly pulled off the bedsheet, crumpling it into a ball and threw it onto the floor, planning to wash it after she took a shower.
Exiting her room to enter the bathroom, images from last night flashed across her mind like an old film roll making Qin Shuhan feel so embarrassed that she squatted on the floor hugging her knees for a long while before standing up again. She washed up simply and exited the bathroom to enter her room again. It was only after she finished wearing her clothes that she realized that the bedsheet that she was planning to wash has disappeared.
Qin Shuhan left her room to go downstairs and caught the sight of the bedsheet that she was planning to wash was already washed clean and hung up on the veranda to dry. Then, hearing sounds coming from the kitchen led Qin Shuhan to subconsciously frown, is Mum back already?
Just when Qin Shuhan was in a daze, Lu Anwei walked out of the kitchen carrying a bowl of porridge he had just cooked and said to Qin Shuhan, " you finished showering already? Come eat this while it's still hot."
"You…" Qin Shuhan stared at Lu Anwei in surprise and said, "you didn't leave ah?" She assumed that Lu Anwei has already left! Seeing Lu Anwei suddenly appear in front of her, Qin Shuhan was stunned for a moment and felt her heart fill with warm, what should she do…. She is loving this man even more than before!
"Where should I leave to ah?" Lu Anwei carried the bowl to the dining table, "quickly come and eat the porridge, be careful it's hot." He is not very confident in his cooking skills and a little nervously watch Qin Shuhan eat the porridge he cooked one small mouthful by one small mouthful. When he saw that she did not dislike it, Lu Anwei felt relieved.
"You…." Qin Shuhan felt a bit shy as she ate the porridge and sneak glances at Lu Anwei who was focussing on her with all his attention.
"Let's talk!" Lu Anwei had a heavy heart, his original intention was maintain appropriate distance with Qin Shuhan, but things have already become like this and it was definitely impossible for the situation to return to its original state. His mind is in a turmoil, he is a man and as a man he must be responsible, no matter if it is towards the country or to his family, it is all the same!
He can only tell her everything about his status and identity, and hope that Qin Shuhan can understand and accept him. If it was not possible, Lu Anwei would not selfishly cling onto her, although he loves her very deeply, but if she refuses him, then he would not force her…..
"What is there to talk about!" Qin Shuhan cannot help but admit that when she saw Lu Anwei's awkward expression, her heart throbbed with pain. She knows very clearly in her heart that it was her who forced Lu Anwei to sleep with her, he had already rejected her so many times, but it was her own wilfulness. This morning Lu Anwei did not leave before she woke up and even washed the bedsheet, and cooked breakfast for her, Qin Shuhan was already very happy.
From the beginning, she never had the intention to let Lu Anwei be responsible for her, but Lu Anwei is a man of honour, and now Lu Anwei must be thinking of being responsible for her. For him to be responsible for someone he does not love, it is hard enough for him!
Thinking until here, Qin Shuhan choked up and her eyes went slightly moist with tears. She feel so ridiculous, there are so many people who love her chasing after her and there is not a single one that she likes. She herself managed to fall in love with a man but he does not love her….from the start, Lu Anwei has been rejecting her, and has never once said that he loves her. Since then, what is the point of forcing him to be responsible for her? She had already forcibly had him for one whole night, she should be contented already right?
So, since it is all her own unrequited love, then she does not mind personally drawing a full stop onto this originally loveless relationship!