After she finished speaking, she stomped out without waiting for Su Yi to react. She rushed straight out of the City Lord Residence without a pause.
Who cared about being Alliance Head? Who cared about his Seven Great Saint Tribes? Who cared about some City Lord, Disseminating Tassel Fragranceโฆ
What did any of it have to do with her? She had only coincidentally transmigrated to this world into Li Xueyiโs body. The real Li Xueyi was already dead, so why did she have to bear so much!?
The more she thought about it, the more she felt wronged by everything that had happened. Several times she had almost lost her life and had to stifle her anger for no reasonโฆ
She was seriously tired of this kind of life. When she thought about the tranquil moment from this afternoon in which they just watched smoke rise from chimneys, her nose started stinging. She wished so much that time could have stopped at that moment.
She didnโt blame Su Yi, she didnโt blame anyone. She only blamed herself for being too weak, too simple, too rashโฆ for never considering the consequences of her actions and not being able to see through the essence of things; for thinking of everything in terms that were too simple, for only thinking of today and not the future.
She thought that she might as well die. After she died, maybe she would transmigrate back.
Even if she couldnโt transmigrate back, after she died she wouldnโt have to be involved in these things anymore.
She crouched down beneath the eaves at a corner of a street. This world was large, yet it was difficult to find a place that truly belonged to her, that was her home.
Where should she go now?
Or should she just wait here for Su Yi to come find her?
However, right now, he was probably randomly throwing stuff in the City Lord Residence while swearing never to care about her again.
Maybe she should just wait for Liu Zhiyuan to come after her and off her with one slash. Then everything would be over.
โLittle Xueyi?โ Just as she was quickly giving up all hope in life, a familiar voice came from above her head. She looked up and saw that Feng Wu was currently walked through the street holding an umbrella. She tilted her head back further to look at the sky and discovered that at some time it had started raining.
Perhaps Feng Wu saw that Tang Doudouโs eyes were red because she hastily closed the umbrella and crouched down under the eaves next to Tang Doudou to ask, โWhat happened? Why were you crying? Who bullied you? Tell Big Sister Feng Wu, Iโll help you teach him a lesson!โ
โItโs nothing.โ Tang Doudou looked at Feng Wu, then buried her head in her arms again like a turtle. She couldnโt cover up her sobs as she spoke. โBig Sister Feng Wu, you should just go. Thereโs no need to mind me.โ
โHow can I do that?โ Of course Feng Wu refused to do so. She lifted Tang Doudouโs head up and asked worriedly, โWhat exactly happened?โ
โNothing, really.โ Tang Doudou knew that Feng Wu was worrying about her, but she really didnโt know what she should say. There was no way she could say that she had transmigrated over, that she wasnโt the real Li Xueyi, right?
Setting aside the question of whether Feng Wu would believe her or not, even if she did believe it, what would change?
There was only one Li Xueyi. No one would let her off and allow her to leave this so-called Jianghu just because she wasnโt the real Li Xueyi.
She finally understood what was meant by โpeople within the Jianghu didnโt have the freedom to act independently.โ
Sometimes, even if you didnโt want it to, life would still continue. Tomorrow, the sun would still rise the way it did every day.
โAiy, child.โ Feng Wu sighed and didnโt continue to try to persuade her. She simply stood next to her and silently watched the rain that had already grown heavy. Rain fell and flowed down the eaves, making pattering sounds and blurring the scene ahead. In the rainy night, even the brightest lights in the city turned dim and hazy.
โBig Sis Feng Wu!โ Tang Doudou felt very apologetic when she saw Feng Wu standing next to her, but she didnโt know what to say.
She bit her lips. She wasnโt the type to be immersed in her sorrow and worries even if she hadnโt finished thinking through things. Moreover, how could she not be moved when she saw Feng Wu silently keeping her company like this?
โLittle Xueyi.โ Seeing that Tang Doudou had taken the initiative to speak, Feng Wu once again crouched down and looked into Tang Doudouโs eyes earnestly as she said, โI know what youโre thinking right now, and I also understand how you feel. After you lost your memories, you became different from how you were before. However, I like you as you are now, because you now know what it means to smile, to suffer. You seem much more human.โ
โYou want to leave all of these conflicts and entangling worries to go live a nice and simple life, right?โ
She had been alive for almost a hundred years; how could she not be able to tell what was currently troubling Tang Doudou?
โIโฆโ
โBut there are simply too many things that are binding you down like countless thorny vines. It hurts to struggle, but also hurts when you donโt struggle.โ
Feng Wuโs words were exactly right. Tang Doudouโs mood had just improved but now she felt distressed again. It didnโt just hurt. After hurting, she still couldnโt struggle free. It was pain layered on pain.
โHowever, isnโt life simply like this? Any place where there are people, there is a Jianghu. If the Jianghu was metaphorically compared to those thorny vines, even if you struggle free from these vines, you would still enter another patch of vines.โ
โRather than trying to struggle painfully, why not make yourself become strong and sharp!? Cut through the entangling vines! Then, even if you enter another patch of vines, youโll have nothing to fear!โ
Thatโs right!
Why did she have to struggle? Why didnโt it occur to her to just cut through it!?
Fleeing from things would only make things more complicated. Matters would only be resolved if she faced them. As long as it was a problem, there would be a way to resolve it!
These words immediately made Tang Doudou feel enlightened. She looked towards Feng Wu gratefully. โThank you, Big Sister Feng Wu. I understand now!โ
Only then did Feng Wu give a gratified smile and offer Tang Doudou her hand. โLetโs go, come to Big Sisterโs place and tell me what happened.โ
โEn!โ Tang Doudou replied happily as she placed her hand in Feng Wuโs palm. However, she almost instinctively retracted her hand when she felt that chilling cold. She knitted her brows. โYouโฆโ
โWhose life is easy ah!โ Feng Wu sighed as she pulled Tang Doudou up from the ground.
Tang Doudou suddenly recalled that Su Yi and Feng Wu looked completely different from their ages. Could it be that their current states had something to do with why their hands were so cold?
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Credits: Translated by Chiyomira, Edited by Dray
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