Translator: Doggotranslation
“Mo Fei, do you know the most important thing between friends?”
Mo Fei lowered her head guiltily, “Sincerity…”
“Yes, but were you being sincere to me? Why did you become friends with me? In other words, what is your motivation for being friends with me?” I forcibly suppressed my emotions and said indifferently: “A tree without roots is nothing more than a wooden stake. Do you think it will grow branches and leaves? What you plant has never been the seed of friendship, but you expect it to take root, sprout, and grow into what you want. Do you think it is realistic? ”
Mo Fei fell silent, and her tears fell again. I pulled out a few tissues from the box and handed them to her, and said lightly: “I know you feel guilty and want my forgiveness, but this can only prove that you have always been unable to understand what I am thinking in my heart. Today, I can tell you very clearly that between you and me, there is no such thing as forgiveness.”
Mo Fei’s body shuddered, “What… do you mean by this?” She asked with a trembling voice.
“If you plant a tree, what grows will be a tree. But if what you planted was not a tree, naturally, it would not grow into a tree in the end,” I forced myself to say it. Not looking at Mo Fei’s expression, I gritted my teeth and carried on: “You never treated me as a friend sincerely, whatever I thought about our relationship was, was my own problem. So what right do I have to blame you or hate you? The only thing I can choose is not to continue to be friends with someone who has been lying to me and to stop being a doll in her hand.”
“I never thought of you as a doll!” Mo Fei was probably getting too emotional, her voice became a little bit louder. After realizing it, she hurriedly calmed herself down, but she still couldn’t stop her tears from coming out of her eyes, “I’ve thought about it a lot these days, and I finally figured it out. Chu Nan, I admit that when you came to the company for an interview a year ago, I accepted you partly because of you… You and my dad are somewhat similar in temperament and appearance, so I have good feelings about you. But that’s only a small part of the reason, it just made me have a slightly deeper impression of you than others.”
“Uncle hopes that I will take over Fengchang, so I need to train my own team. You know how many people in the company are staring at me and want to hinder me. Even if I choose those who have just graduated from college and have almost no social background, after the survey last month, you also saw that some people were arranged to stay in the general operation team by the Zhang family. Whether you believe it or not, when I hired you, I really didn’t treat you as someone special…”
I laughed rather self-deprecatingly, “So, you only started to treat me as someone special recently? But does this have anything to do with me being played like a doll? Ms. Mo, what I care about is not why I entered Fengchang, but whether you used me as your father’s substitute.”
“Probably… I did,” Mo Fei lowered her head. “The assistant who was fired by me was placed next to me by Fang Kefan from the Development Department. I was finally able to find a reasonable excuse to fire her. I naturally wanted to fill the assistant position with someone whom I can trust. This is why I insist on setting up the general operation team…”
The Fang Kefan mentioned by Mo Fei was a woman who was famous for both her abilities and coquetry. Her father was originally one of the company’s executives and the same generation as Mo Yizhi and Zhang Li. However, he has passed away for many years. This Fang Kefan could be regarded as a legend in the company. It was said that she originally came from the public relations department, but because of her good interpersonal skills and ambiguous relationship with the vice-chairman Zhang Li, she who was less than thirty years old actually became general manager of the development department. Strictly speaking, she and Zhang Li were just using each other for their own gains. But Mo Fei classified her as someone who was working for Zhang Li, which was not all wrong.
But I felt that Mo Fei had digressed, “Why do you want to tell me this? Does it matter to me?”
“Yes!” Mo Fei nodded affirmatively and continued: “When I was considering an assistant candidate, you happened to show up. Then there was my mother’s incident. Because of me, you had a fight with other people, but in the end, I slapped you. But not only did you not hold a grudge against me, and when you heard my story, you even took care of me when I was drunk…” When saying this, Mo Fei’s face was extremely red, even both of her ears also turned red because of embarrassment. Her voice was so low that it was like a mosquito noise, and she began to say intermittently, “actually, although I was very drunk that night, and I felt very dizzy, I can still remember what… what happened. I thought you would take advantage of me, but you didn’t….”
I was sweating very hard…
It turned out that Mo Fei remembered it all! It was just like when I was drunk that day, although she was drunk, she still knew what was happening around her clearly.
Mo Fei raised her face slightly and looked at the glass in her hand. Her eyes were covered with a layer of mist, and a sweet smile appeared at the corner of her mouth as if she was immersed in her old memories.
She said softly: “At that time, I was very moved. It was a feeling that I’ve never felt since my dad left me. Those who want to approach me are either because of my uncle’s money or my appearance, but you are different from them. You don’t care about your job or covet my body. You made me feel that you are such a pure and nice person that I couldn’t help but remember my father…”
I was pure? I was speechless. I didn’t think I was qualified to be described using that word. After all, when she fell in the bathroom that day and before I pulled up the trousers for her, I also secretly took a peek at her private area… It was not that I didn’t covet her body, it was that I didn’t dare to…
“After all that said, you still regard me as a substitute…”
“I just want to tell you that I really regarded you as a colleague, a friend, and wanted you to be my assistant, and then…” Mo Fei hesitated: “It’s not like what you think. I did not deceive you from the beginning.”
I smiled bitterly: “Since last month? Is there any difference? ”
“Of course there is a difference!” Mo Fei suddenly stared into my eyes without any timidity, “Chu Nan, I came to you just to ask you a question. You need to answer me first, and then, no matter what the result is, I will tell you the difference, okay?”
Mo Fei’s brave and shy expressions seemed contradictory to me. She suddenly became as unfathomable as the sea, as mysterious and illusory as the starry sky to me. I didn’t know what she wanted to ask, but I had a feeling that the question would be like a whirlpool in the sea and a black hole in the universe. It may sink me and swallow me.
“There is only one problem between me and you,” I said calmly: “Have you ever regarded me as the shadow of your father?”
Mo Fei was dazed and stared at me silently. Then her head lowered guiltily, “Yes…”
“Then your question is no longer important,” I said calmly: “I am not, and I don’t want to be a shadow of someone else. You were just my supervisor, and I no longer work for Fengchang, so I hope you can give me the freedom to choose, thank you.”
Mo Fei said agitatedly: “Why? Just because you feel that you were deceived by me? ”
My heart trembled, and I didn’t deny it.
Mo Fei bit her lower lip tightly, her sorrowful gaze seemed to see through my heart, making me feel guilty. She murmured: “I do want to be cared for by you. I like your meticulous gentleness, just like how my father cared for me before he passed away. I admit that I enjoy that feeling very much, and I am even obsessed with it, but I am not a fool who would deceive both myself and others. My dad is no longer alive. You are not him. I have always understood that when I was with you. Yes, I felt confused and hesitated before. I even suspected that I was suffering from a mental illness, especially during the two days when I decided to invest in Heng Xiang with you. I thought that I had lost my mind. I didn’t know why I would deceive you. I’ve thought about telling you. But watching you work hard for me, I didn’t dare to say it, and… I, I actually felt happy. I felt very happy. After being alone for so long, I started to like the feeling of relying on you. I know that I was very despicable, so I dared not explain it to you. Until my uncle found out about it and wanted to expel you, I finally knew that I could never hide it anymore… These days I kept asking myself, why would I lie to you? What exactly are you to me? Colleagues, friends, or the shadow of my father? Now I finally know the answer…”
I faintly guessed what Mo Fei’s answer was. I subconsciously slapped the table, and cut off what she wanted to say, “I don’t want to know your answer!”
“Why?” Mo Fei was unusually calm, and said softly: “Are you afraid?”
On my forehead, a bead of sweat slid down my cheek, and I laughed hard, pretending to be calm, “Afraid? What am I afraid of? ”
“Afraid of Cheng Liusu, afraid of yourself,” Mo Fei suddenly held my painful and numb paws, her rippling eyes shot directly through the bottom of my heart. “Chu Nan, have you never lied to me or deceived me?”
I became timid inexplicably, afraid to look at Mo Fei’s eyes, “What did I lie to you?”
“You like me.”
The words were extremely shocking, but I was prepared. This was the answer I had predicted she was going to say. Looking at her indifferently, I firmly said: “The person I like is Cheng Liusu.”
“I know, that’s why you refuse to forgive me, that’s why you have to leave Fengchang.” Mo Fei clenched the hand I wanted to withdraw and said confidently: “You like me, but you don’t want to like two girls at the same time, so you give up on chasing me!”
“Mo Fei, don’t you think you are full of yourself?” I sneered coldly, denying what she said, but my heart was in a mess. Mo Fei was not here to ask for forgiveness as all! She was clearly here to ask for an explanation!
“I am not full of myself, at least not in front of you,” Mo Fei sighed sadly, “Otherwise, you would not choose Cheng Liusu and leave me.”
“I will say it one more time, what I like is Cheng Liu…”
“I like you!” Mo Fei once again said a shocking sentence. Although I had already faintly guessed that this was her so-called answer, what she said was still like a lightning bolt fell on the top of my head. I was completely stunned…