“If it weren’t for me, he wouldn’t have died… It’s all my fault…”
Yun Shishi felt completely defeated and broke down in tears.
Youyou’s heart ached to hear her crying like that.
Now that Uncle Xingze was dead, he was even more worried that Mommy would live in guilt forever.
In this world, the heaviest and also most unbearable burden is guilt.
He was grateful for Gu Xingze’s sacrifice, and his heart ached for Uncle Xingze’s devotion to his mommy.
But it pained him even more to know that his mommy would forever live in self-blame.
Yun Shishi pursed her lips as her tears fell uncontrollably. “At least, let me see him one last time! At least, let me see him again. It’s okay if I can’t actually see him…”
Hua Jin took a deep breath and said, “Alright, let me think of a way!”
Twenty minutes later.
Yun Shishi came to the entrance of the morgue, with Hua Jin’s help.
With Qin Zhou’s “verbal instructions”, the two were let in, leaving Youyou and Little Yichen waiting outside.
Yun Shishi could not see anything. Hua Jin helped walk her to a certain spot and then stopped.
She knew that she had probably been brought next to where Gu Xingze was placed.
She sucked in a breath of cold air and stretched out her hand, trying to feel around. Her fingertips touched something spine-chillingly cold!
So cold.
Unbelievable.
Why does a person’s skin turn so cold after he has died and lost his warmth?!
Touching his icy cold skin, Yun Shishi found it even harder to suppress the pain in her heart as tears threatened to fall again.
“Xingze… ”
Of all the words in the world, the only ones that she could mouth were but two that carried all the weight of the guilt she felt. “I’m sorry…”
Her body fell weakly to the ground as she knelt by the bed. She fumbled around and grabbed his hand. Those slender fingers were extremely cold, without a trace of warmth.
She grabbed his hand, but received no response.
She was filled with the hope that, in the next second, his hand would quietly hold hers in return. Then, he’d sit up on the bed and smile mischievously. He’d scratch her nose and tell her, “I was just teasing you, silly!”
She wouldn’t be angry at him!
However, all these were wishful thoughts!
She knew very well that he would never wake up again.
But…
She still had so much to tell him.
A thousand words choked up in her throat. She couldn’t speak them, but they wouldn’t go away.
“Xingze… ”
Yun Shishi choked. “Wake up. Even if you give me just a few seconds, I only want to tell you that I will never forget you!”
Will you forget me?
Will you keep me in your memory, even if it’s only for a second?
“Yes, of course I will!”
Yun Shishi was filled with regret. She should never have given him the answer she did back then, an allowed him to misunderstand.
However, she thought that he would stubbornly refuse to close his eyes after hearing that answer. She did not expect him to believe her and now he had gone away forever with regrets. She could not bear it. She really wanted to tell him…
“I will never forget you! Xingze, do you hear me? Can you hear me?”
Yun Shishi said in a contrite tone, “I’m willing to use ten years of my life in exchange for a glimpse of you. Open your eyes and look at me, okay?”
Hua Jin could not bear to look at what was happening.
He knew that Gu Xingze’s name would probably be engraved in her heart forever.
He reached out to hug her, only to hear her crying even more heartbreakingly.
“Xingze… Xingze…”
Her crying was like a knife stabbing at his heart.
Hua Jin could not help but tear up. He squatted down and held her shoulders. “Shishi, just treat it as if he’s asleep. Let him have a good sleep, let’s not disturb him.”