I have a person I love.
Because we were born in the countryside, we have often played together because there were no other children.
Such gentle Oujisama, I have loved him.
Well, we could get along in the elementary school as my first love hadn’t come out yet.
I got estranged when Ruka-kun gradually started getting popular in the middle school.
Indeed, Ruka-kun’s appearances are beautiful.
Excelling in pen and sword, he’s a super boy. Convincing specs for girls to gather around him.
I didn’t want anyone to take him from me, I was self-conscious of my secret love.
I who is a shy person who doesn’t know what being assertive is, decided to take the last resort.
「Ruka-kun! Morning! You are lovely as always! I love you!」
I confess using the morning greeting which has become the daily routine.
He has walked away.
Right, I have decided to appeal like this every time.
Because I’m plain and simple, I have no other appeal points.
However, every time I misfire, the girls surrounding him start giggling at me.
I’m calm and composed in front of everyone, but as a matter of fact, I’m very embarrassed.
I crouch and hide in a shadow today as well.
The moment I tried to clap my cheeks to rebuke myself,
I was surrounded by people I didn’t know.
Looking around absentmindedly, the surroundings were characterized by a deep ocean blue stained glass.
It was so dark that I would believe even if I was told that I was in a church deep in the sea, it was a place where only a blue light came in.
「The summoning ceremony, success」
A beautiful silver-haired man said while shedding tears.
To my astonishment, I have been apparently summoned to a different world.
Of course, they treated me well and told me I could return when everything is done.
During that time, I could not help, but think about my beloved Ruka-kun and desired to return home as soon as possible.
But, the ordinary me with no redeeming features is saving the world.
Appropriate suffering, enduring, and pain were awaiting.
The purification of evil is done with a holy sword.
Although I say that, it’s not like they die when cut by the holy sword. It cuts only the evil, and the flesh will heal after the purification.
But, the feeling of cutting flesh didn’t disappear.
My hands became worn-out from rigorous swordplay practice, and I cried many times from suffering the mental attacks of the evil.
But, I endured the difficulties by thinking about my parents, friends, and Ruka-kun.
Besides, it wasn’t only painful things.
My friends were older than I, so they taught me and admonished me a lot of times.
I think it was the firs time in my life and probably the last.
And now, I have separated from such irreplaceable friends.
And returned to the dearly missed Japan.
「Something is different from usual」
「You think so?」
The air in my original world after so long feels heavy, it’s difficult to breathe.
I indeed spend ten years in the different world, but I changed my appearances back with magic.
And yet, why? I tilt my head while eating breakfast.
「Isn’t it a hairstyle? You look like an oneesan today」
「No, my hairstyle is the same as usual, isn’t it~」
The idle breakfast ends with such words, and everyone left for work or school.
I couldn’t express it in words, but I felt the burden of the summoning removed from my heart when I saw my family.
In that world, I had to live 80% of the time with my shoulders straightened.
My manners, speech, and appearances had to be strictly in check wherever I went.
By the way, from the remaining 20%, 10% is when staying in my room and 10% when camping with my companions.
I hear a sparrow singing in the mild weather of the morning.
The everyday way to the school is vague, but I still remember it.
Overwhelmed by the nostalgic feelings, I finally realize that I have returned to the peace.
The air of this world is poor, but it’s very peaceful, and there’s no life-endangering mission to run.
That world was a very nice place, but after all, being in my birthplace with no restricting social status, gave me the feeling of freedom.
As I arrive at the school, I greet my classmates I vaguely remember.
While they are probably greeting me as usual, I forgot which of the seats is mine.
You are joking, right? They told me while laughing.
I met Ruka-kun after ten years.
He suddenly stood in the hallway of the school.
I thought I might cry when I meet him.
Therefore, I couldn’t even go and greet him in his class (Of course, I forgot which class he’s in).
But, I have an extremely mysterious feeling.
No, I love him? I feel nostalgic and happy when seeing him.
It’s almost as if I was dressed in clothes soaked in lukewarm water.
That is incredibly mysterious, somehow, u~n…
Almost as if it was a wonderful place in the different world that disappointingly turned into a wasteland when I arrived.
Even though I was so happy to see him so much my cheeks became hot just a while ago!!
「M, morning~ Ruka-kun」
When I interact with an awkward expression and unskillful smile (Even though smiling was my specialty),
Ruka-kun displeasingly ignored me, pulled on a nearby beauty’s hand and dragged her away with long strides.
In an instant, my awkward smile turned into a wonderful smile.
U, uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, na, na, nai wa~!!!!!
No, nevertheless, that’s not an attitude to make towards a childhood friend, right!!?
「Fu, fuu~ calm down, calm down, me」
After murmuring for a while, I took a deep breath.
When I breathed a lot of air in, a lot of polluted air, I choked.
「Cough, cough! U, uu~」
And, whether the result of choking or entirely different cause,
A large tear dropped on the floor.
「M, my feelings of love, they disappeared…」
I finally realized that I felt completely different from the time before the different world.
That my feelings of love became feelings of past during the ten long years.