He Qi stayed at the hospital for quite long time, every few days Guan Xin Mu would bring some dessert for her when she came by. She accompanied He Qi to chat for a while, in her observation He Qi's mood was getting better, but her eyes was still a little bit sad, so it meant she hadn't completely done with her grief.
The bedside of the sickroom hung up several wind chimes from seashells, blue and white porcelain, and glasses materials. It waved care-freely and made a beautiful voice, these all were from Zhan Shuo. He bought because He Qi loved the wind chime sounds. After He Qi lost her child, Zhan Shuo was also in gloomy mood, however, he said to himself to be strong. Every day he would come and be with He Qi, he was more gentle and patience than before, it made Guan Xin Mu's heart to soften that her blame and strong resentment of him gradually vanished.
"I don't know if I should be together with Zhan Shuo again." He Qi took the slice of apple that Guan Xin Mu peeled, she bit a mouthful, and slowly said it.
"A?" Guan Xin Mu surprised, and immediately with gentle voice said, "Is it because the child? Qi Qi, don't think about the unhappy thing again, forget it, you need to concentrate in getting better first, just think about the marriage later on."
He Qi laughed but didn't ay anything, she bit another mouthful of apple.
Guan Xin Mu really didn't know what to say at this time.
The door suddenly knocked, she turned her head. She realized that the person outside the door already put her head inside. It was a gentle and cute girl, wore a simple yet elegant dress. On her right hand she held a basket full of fruits, and her right hand held a bouquet of white flowers.
"Who are you looking for?" Guan Xin Mu asked.
The girl smiled, her gaze shifted toward He Qi, who was on the bed. He Qi turned her head toward the girl, they looked at each other, in her eyes appeared somewhat awkward and unavoidable disaffection.
The person who visited her was Zhan Shuo's ex-girlfriend Luo Luo. She came to visit to express her apology, then she indirectly express her demand to speak alone with He Qi. He Qi lowered her eyes, thought about it, then she told Guan Xin Mu: "Xin Mu, you go out for a while." Guan Xin Mu was suspiciously looked at Luo Luo, felt that she didn't any bad intention or picked quarrel, so she slowly went out, lightly closed the door.
Guan Xin Mu went to the automatic vending machine to buy herself a cup of coffee, and had a chat for a while with a little girl who wanted to buy sweets. When she back to He Qi's room, he looked the door was still closed. She couldn't refrain herself so she went near the door for a step, wanted to know after all what was Luo Luo saying to He Qi. But secretly listening to other conversation was not right, so she didn't directly stick her ear on the door.
After a few minutes, the door was opened. Luo Luo walked elegantly and supplely, Guan Xin Mu immediately get inside the sickroom. He Qi's face looked normal, didn't show any difference.
"What did she say to you?" Guan Xin Mu asked.
"She apologized to me, let me to not blame Zhan Shuo. Zhan Shuo is a good man, he needs to be treasure." He Qi's voice completely tired.
"Only that?"
"Then, she said if because of this matter, I give up on Zhan Shuo. She is also very happy because it means she will have another chance and right to pursue him again." He Qi said, she turned her head to look at the beautiful wind chime. "She is not a cruel woman, she is educated and well-balanced, good at understanding others. No wonder Zhan Shuo likes her."
"Whether she is bad or good, it is unrelated to you. She is his past, past is already pass. The one Zhan Shuo loves now is you. It is enough for you to understand this. Don't bring trouble to oneself." Guan Xin Mu sighed.
"In the past, I also thought I don't care about it. No matter who Zhan Shuo loved in the past, how passionate and crazy his love was. If only his future is me, then I was okay with it. But a moment ago, I faced with Luo Luo, I just realized I mind about it, after all women are have zero tolerance, including me." He Qi looked at Guan Xin Mu, and asked her, " Don't you mind about Fei Jun's past relationship?"
Guan Xin Mu was unable to respond, of course she minded about it, there is no one woman can completely don't mind about the past, especially now she still couldn't see clearly Fei Jun's heart.
"Before I know Zhan Shuo, I thought I should be in crazy romantic relationship for once. Then Zhan Shuo and I will be equal. He has past, I also have it. He could understand me and I could understand him. But he is my first love. I am a narrow-minded woman." He Qi laughed at herself, "So I can't help myself to not think about."
"You don't really think to break up with Zhan Shuo, right? For this matter, he clearly had a mistake, but he also didn't willing to have at this ending, moreover he loves you, he is good to you. He concentrates his thoughts and intentions for you. Why are you thinking to much?" Guan Xin Mu tried to enlighten her, "What do you need to think now is how to get healthy, how to let yourself be happy, forget all the unhappy memories? Happily be a bride."
"I will try my best." He Qi said softly.
When Guan Xin Mu wanted to go home, she caught a sight of Zhan Shuo in the corridor. Zhan Shuo was carrying a thermos mug, and hurriedly walked toward her. He smiled Guan Xin Mu, and politely said: "Thank you that you always come to accompany Qi Qi."
"Why are thanking me? Qi Qi is my best friend, of course I will come to accompany her," Guan Xin Mu said, "Zhan Shuo, she is not really in a good mood, you need to be more attentive to her."
"Em." Zhan Shuo nodded his head.
On the way back home, when she lowered down the window of the taxi to see the Gu Xi Ran's newly advertisement poster on cosmetic and medicine building. Gu Xi Ran is indeed a beautiful woman. In her mind wandered a question: "Why a relationship do not be a love at the first sight?" Because it was not really beautiful, so in many cases of males and females' relationship had past, Zhan Shuo had it, her Fei Jun also. He Qi's words before stabbed the middle of Guan Xin Mu's heart to felt the pain. She also minded about Fei Jun and Gu Xi Ran's relationship. Fei Jun kept on silent for his past relationship as if it was restricted area, one that she was unable to pass by. Sometimes she was taking more offense on why Fei Jun unwillingly said the inside of his heart and kept it as a secret, is it because in his eyes, she is a little kid? She was depressed, she wanted to pretend to be generous, yet inside her heard she secretly took offense of it, she didn't like that part of herself.
Fei Jun had a business gathering for the night, he contacted Guan Xin Mu to tell he would not be home for dinner. Guan Xin Mu simply ate the instant noodle, then she went back to her room to look at the newest season massage machine document. This massage machine had a lot of efficacy, and the operation also was somewhat complicated. She was a sales staff, so she needed to keep in mind the instruction, even she needed to memorized it in her heart. To memorized in her heart, it made her brain to be working hard. She took the highlighter pen and drew a line on the manual, it looked as if she was studying for school examination.
She was seriously concentrated, until she even didn't realized Fei Jun was already standing in front of her.
The neglected Fei Jun showed his helpless slight smile, then he coughed, Guan Xin Mu raised her head, carelessly said: "You are home?"
"What are you looking at?" Fei Jun took off his suit, pulled his tie, and lowered his head to see the manual book in front of Guan Xin Mu. He frowned with puzzlement and said: "These complicated things, are you certain that you understand it?"
"Could you not ridicule me just for a day?" Guan Xin Mu chewed an olive, "Don't you look down at me, last month I got third place in sales group?"
"You are saying that group of 4 people?"
"Five people!" Guan Xin Mu wanted to raise up her body, but Fei Jun swiftly used his hand to patted her head, and let her to sit down again.
"It's not really good achievement." Fei Jun continued, when he looked at how Guan Xin Mu tried her best and hardworking appearance, he remembered recently, she repeatedly worked over time. He couldn't help said: "If you feel to exhausted and hard, then don't do it?"
"Then what will I do?" Guan Xin Mu responded, she vigilantly said, "You want me to be at home and be a full-time job stay-at-home wife, 24 hours on your service?"
"That is also good," Fei Jun raised his brow, his voice was clearly enthusiastic, "If you really do it, I give you monthly allowance…. the basic salary is seven hundred, the percentage and bonus will be counted later on."
"Seven hundred? You have nerve to say it?" Guan Xin Mu protested, "I was a graduate from famous school, has a working experience, my english level is band 6, and I even passed junior accounting qualification certificate."
"Because I cover all you spending: food, clothes, living, and accommodation. Every month of your entertainment costs also counted to my card, so this seven hundred salary was not really low." Fei Jun took off his shirt, and opened the wardrobe to take out his pajamas. His sexy strong naked back was appeared at Guan Xin Mu's eyes, her face slightly burning hot.
"That percentage and award money is?" Guan Xin Mu gritted her teeth.
Fei Jun turned his head, profoundly looked at her, his lips slightly crooked up, and said: "Do once, I will give you a hundred?"
Guan Xin Mu pounded the pillow which she held before: "Fei Jun, you are bastard! Even you can't have a call girl with that amount!"
"Do you feel the little skills that you have is comparable with a call girl?" Fei Jun not hurried and not slowly responded.
"You You You! Wish! You! Get! Sick ! Early!" Guan Xin Mu yelled.
Fei Jun laughed, leisurely and care-freely went to brush his teeth and wash face. Before got inside the bathroom, he turned his head to looked the Guan Xin Mu who was panting with rage. With his deep and pampering voice: "I'm serious, if it is too hard, then no need to do it." Then, he closed the door.
Guan Xin Mu who was panting with rage before was surprised, why before she felt that Fei Jun's voice was somewhat soft and gentle to her? Can she really choose to be a little parasite. Could she comfortably laid on the Uncle Fei's protection, without investing any energy? That kind of life is beautiful, but it is a little bit boring. She groaned, it was still better to work and earn money by herself. Even though she didn't earn much, but it was about her pride. Then, she took her manual book back and slowly memorized it.
That night, Guan Xin Mu had a bad dream. In her dream, she was on the airplane, suddenly under her feet appeared a huge hole that she fell down. She was surprised and yelled loudly. Luckily she had a parachute behind her, she used her hand to do her utmost to open it. However the parachute was hard to open until she was on the ground… The dream felt so real, it seemed that she almost entered the bottomless chasm.
Guan Xin Mu screamed, yet she heard Fei Jun's soft voice. She tried so hard to open her eyes, she caught a sight of Fei Jun, who was concerned and worried about her.
"You had a nightmare?" Fei Jun wiped Guan Xin Mu's sweaty forehead with her hand.
Guan Xin Mu's heartbeat was really fast, both her hand and feet was cold, her throat was dry, then said: "I want to drink water."
Fei Jun turned his body to take the water, however Guan Xin Mu suddenly hugged him, and placed her head on his chest, she smelt his faint shower's gels scent: "Hug me for a while."
Fei Jun smiled, his long arm warmly welcoming and hugged her, lightly he patted her back. He was like a big stove, every time every time was so warm, it made her also felt the warmth.
"I thought I will never a nightmare again. When I was busy preparing the college entrance exam, I stayed till late at night to study. Every day I slept at two o'clock in the wee hours, plus that I was in the stained mood. That time I was difficult to fell sleep, always dream dimple. That kind of feeling was like there is someone who covered your face. I knew I was dreaming, but I couldn't wake up, four limbs of the body unable to move." Guan Xin Mu's voice turned softer and softer, "That time I was afraid that I will die on my sleep, I will not wake up forever like what happened in the movie. In the movie it was early morning, Papa Mama went inside to see their boy. The kid was already stopped breathing, he wanted to call his papa mama, to let them wake him, but he didn't have any energy."
"I am by your side, so you don't need to be afraid. If you have some wrong movement, I will wake you up." Fei Jun said.
Guan Xin Mu raised her head, inside her heart suddenly bubbled up a question, and she decided to ask him directly: "You will sleep by my side forever?"
"Sometimes I really didn't know how to answer this…. childish? question." Fei Jun frowned.
Guan Xin Mu's eyes immediately muddled, her arm slid from Fei Jun's waist.
"I will, I will forever be with you to welcome the other day sun." Fei Jun immediately said again, gripping tightly Guan Xin Mu's hand, interlocked their fingers, "Mrs Fei, don't worry, I will not get married again. You will also not marry again. We will be together forever."