Published at 12th of November 2020 10:19:23 AM
[Loved by her sister’s former fiancée] Ch 5 - I know I’m ugly
That day, the hard training of a bride began . Anastasia was so busy that she couldn't take a breath and was being beaten by teachers to learn, poetry, singing, dancing and to play instruments .
She was strictly prohibited from going out because she couldn't be injured . She was even forbidden to meet her six-year-old brother .
One night I was called into Anastasia's room . It is about three times larger than my room, and the furniture is luxurious . In a corner of the large room, my sister was sitting while embracing her knees .
" . . . I'm getting married, with someone I don’t even know the face . Even though I don't feel anything for him, I can’t reject the marriage . . . ”
"Don't worry . No matter who or how is the other person . Your sister will always be there for you . "
I couldn't say that he was a good person . I also do not know any man named Cyrus . My sister shook again .
" . . . I've heard so much rumors about him in social circles . Earl Granado is said to be a very shy, a slutty weirdo . "
"Does he hate women . . . ?"
"Yes . That's why he rarely comes to social circles, and always rejects whoever invites him to dance . ”
A solitary man . . . I thought it looked comfortable a life with such a man . He would leave me alone as he doesn’t like women . A poor noble like me, in a family that has no servants and a man that the only bad rumor says that he’s shy and rejects women… with a rich house with many servants at disposition who will make you feel like a normal noble . Even more, I am one who doesn't care for love . It's been a very hard life since birth, so habituation wins over sadness . It will surely be a better life than now . . .
It's more attractive than a grand ball for my birthday . . . I suddenly shake my head after such a dream . It is Anastasia who is the bride .
"I guess he’s going to be a strict man with his wife . Well, I don't feel like doing it . ”
"It's okay . Even if his character is a little poor, sister, you can laugh and forgive . If you study slowly even after getting married . . . he won’t have anything to reprimand you about . "
"I hate studying! See this Mary!"
My sister pulled my hand and took me to the closet . The closet, as large as my room, is lined with colorful dresses . From behind, my sister pulled out a wooden box . Inside were many costumes like a knight's uniform .
"What is this, no way sister, is it men's clothes?"
"No, it's -Women's crossdressing clothes- . I made it, isn't it wonderful that there's gorgeous one-line uniforms?”
As she said that, a strange thought hits me . She narrowed her eyes and shouted .
"Lovely! You Marie would look extremely good in this because you’re tall . ”
"This is that?"
"Huh, I guess it's something you don't want to know . But it’s true… I like and love women who look good like men, and women who dress as men!"
Anastasia hugs her costume and looks up into the sky .
I muttered in a low voice to myself .
"Sister, so you’re like that . . . "
"It's a secret to father and mother . I've found that I’m like that long ago and abandoned since my dream . I'm giving up . ”
Anastasia was laughing .
“It's so fun, I suggest you wear it . ”
Anastasia was very pleased with her inventions and closed her eyes .
"When I get married, I won’t be able to play anymore with you . I'll be a Countess . "
"……sister"
" . . . That’s how life is . If our family finally loses it all and I had to work . . . I wanted to open a shop in the royal capital . "
My sister threw her costumes into the box . She hid it again in the closet, closed the door, and said,
"Hey Marie . You are free to do whatever you want . "
My sister is cute, bright and loved by everyone .
She died before joining the Granado family . It is said that the carriage fell off the cliff .
I was sad . I loved my sister .
. . . but then… she would never come back to me .
Anastasia would also be surprised in heaven if she saw me now .
"Be obedient, Mary"
Dad tells me many times in the iron wagon .
"Let your body curl up and shorten your height . Try not to show that ugly face as much as possible . "
"Yes, I will"
"Forget your studies . It's badly seen for a woman to learn to be a commercial accountant . "
"Yes, I will"
"No matter what he asks, you answer that you don't understand . If you clap your hands, you know, most men will feel better . …… he’s a barbarian from a foreign country . He must never know that you were studying in a commoner’s school . ”
"Yes, father"
"And once the Earl divorces you, come back home . Don't try to find a job in the royal capital . Ugly women have nowhere to work . ''
"Yes, I know . "
"I'm saying this for you, Marie . I'm not as knowledgeable as you are, but I can manage to keep our family alive . "
"Yes, I understand . Thank you for worrying about me father . "
I nodded and smiled at my father . Father raises his eyebrows and sighs deeply .
" . . . Mary, you aren’t even cute when you smile . Really . . . if Anastasia wasn’t dead, I wish you were free . . . "
All this didn't break my smile .