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Keep quiet.
"Mirthy."
Ugh. He’s awake again.
"Where are you going, Mirthy?"
He was looking down at me with his unique red-colored eyes.
Maybe he saw the point of my feet heading out. He used to make me uncomfortable only by his eyes, even though he was just a child.
I just smiled, ran to him obediently, and hung on the end of the bed.
"What? No, no. I am not going anywhere."
"Mirthy, you are not going anywhere, aren't you?"
"Sure. I am here beside you."
Like this, I will survive and leave for another country when I grow up.
For this, I will make more personal connections!
I will never care about the position of the queen!
Because in this novel, this red-eyed boy will become a tyrant who kills every single sibling, regardless of their age or gender!
"You are my favorite brother."
I smiled like an angel and rubbed my face on his hand.
I blinked my eyes hard to make him think I looked cute.
If I did not have such an adorable face, it might lead to a negative result.
Seeing my action, he gently winked at me. Wow. A little boy acts like an adult man.
I was blinking my eyes because I got nervous, not excited.
He started smoothing over my hair like he was taking care of a little one who is the cutest and most precious.
Even though he was still a kid who needed to be cared for--he could not know he would chop my head when he grows up.
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When you are born and hit by someone on your hip, you get to cry. Waa! And when you are just one year old and hit by someone on your head, you get to cry. Waa!
I cried ‘Waa' the second time after I was born.
It is awkward to anyone the time when they are born.
However, no one remembers the time when they were born.
Nonetheless, I had to remember my second time to be born exceptionally.
Do you want to know the reason? Because I got hit by someone one more time.
"Waa! Waaaaaaaaa!"
"Ugh, it's so loud. She is so crafty to get attention as if she’s an adult."
To be honest, I did not realize who she was. My vision got blurred, and I felt my dizziness worsen.
What is worse, I got hit by her hand on my head and was still feeling the pain. From her hitting me like a hammer, I caught by instinct that she was so powerful. I tried to move to get out of harm’s way.
"How could this baby have chubby hands …… She does not look like the queen. I mean she does not look like her mother at all."
I thought it was weird that I couldn't really move.
When I tried to move, I would see chubby hands of a baby, waving in the air.
I wanted to hit her back twice because I got hit. But I couldn't do this. Instead, I just wanted to see her face to know who had hit me. When I tried to see her and move my body, I felt something's wrong. My body was short.
It was very short. Too short, compared to my past body.
"How poor Queen Milleotre was …… She just died like that …… We can understand why the king does not like Princess Mirthy."
When I tried to stand up with great effort, she hit me again and made me lie down.
Waaaaaaaaaaaa!
This time I felt so hurt. Really hurt. What's the problem with her? Why can't I move? I was so sad and was about to burst out crying.
But, this sadness disappeared right after she mentioned ‘the name' of someone.
"The king doesn't have any luck with wives. His former wife died too, while giving birth to the Prince Euphil Raize."
…… Euphil Raize? Milleotre? Mirthy?
Right when she said that, I realized something was wrong.
"Ah-ah."
She glanced at me. I could see how she felt annoyed about me.
She approached me and put a pacifier into my mouth.
"Yes, yes. Mirthy. That is your name, princess."
Then, she laughed like she couldn't understand herself.
"How could a year-old baby remember this? Why am I telling her this?"
One year old. Mirthy. Princess.
Instantly I stop my thoughts of revenge toward her and tried to stand up myself. I just opened and closed my eyes over and over.
And, I saw my hands. The baby hands that waved just before my eyes.
Then, I burst out crying again. There was no way to express my anger except for crying.
Oh shit, am I in a novel?
You may be happy to be in the novel, if it is a normal novel, and you are the princess in the novel, and you are the most beautiful in the fictional world.
However, if you should be ‘Mirthy Raize' in the novel, your thoughts would be changed. Because she is the beautiful princess that died young.
To be precise, her half-brother ‘Euphil Raize' breaks out in revolt and kills all his siblings including her. At the same time, the number one knight in the kingdom, who loves her, dies.
Everyone said he is the number one knight in the kingdom, but actually, he is the second. Because the number one knight is Euphil.
People could not make songs to pay their respects to the poor dead princess and the battle of those two knights. But, I have not forgotten about the character Mirthy even for a second and have had thoughts of her steadily since I’m her in the novel.
Yes. She is me! I am Mirthy!
I was reincarnated into a poor baby who will die when she is nineteen years old by her head being chopped off!
Oh, my goodness.
"Ah-ah."
I flipped my chubby body over. It made a sound, and she glanced at me. But, she turned her face away from me, saying, ‘Whatever.'
I felt like I had a headache.
Nobody loved me. I do not care about that anymore. That's already what I know. The most important thing is my life is not the maid's kindness.
Anyway, I know while I am not given the kindness from anyone, the number two knight falls in love with me, would stop by to see how I am doing in the novel.
This is what I know from reading it before.
But it is futile. Because, even if that knight is on my side, he cannot beat Euphil. This is true according to the novel that I have read.
Whew!
‘Wew.'
I made a second sound, and she paid attention to me and came to me.
She was not kind, though, she did what she needed to do. She was so horrible that she hit a year-old baby, but she provided the meal to me.
"What's the matter, princess? Are you already hungry? You ate food just two hours ago. This is why you’re so chubby."
Is my chubby body a big deal? I believe a baby is so cute when they are chubby.
I was about to explode with anger … But I hold in my anger and opened my eyes wider. Then I closed my eyes slowly, over and over.
"Neh … Neh."
To tell you the truth, I was not hungry.
No, while I was saying it, I actually became hungry. Anyway, I needed to be alone to think. If she’s going to bring me food, I would have the time to be alone.
I blinked my round eyes and beamed at her, saying ‘Ahh.' Then, the maid instantly loosened herself. Look at her. My strategy works this time, right?
"I know, I know. In a minute. I will bring some food for you."
Then she pinched my cheeks as if she was annoyed. Waaaaaaaa! I burst out crying, feeling the pain on my cheeks as she then left for the kitchen.
The name of the maid is Ante.
Apparently, she needed to beg for wood chunks from a guard in the palace for me here. It's not a good thing to her that she needed to serve me here.
At first, she must have been happy because she became a maid for a princess. However, when she found out—it’s like she stepped onto a mine. I felt sorry about that, but I couldn't be sympathetic since she harassed me.
While Ante was not here, I had to think quickly.
Because……
"Here you are, princess."
"Ahhhhhhhh."
After eating something and now full, you feel sleepy.
"ahhhhhhhh."
Oh no, I began to feel sleepy……
I fell asleep right away.
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It took so long time to make a plan. I had not known that it's so hard for a baby to think.
When I thought for a second, I became hungry and sleepy. There were many times when I fell asleep while turning over my body.
Is this the life of a one year-old baby? I didn’t know everything about a baby, but suddenly I felt pity for all babies.
Among them, I was surely included.
This is the result of what I came up with.
I am not sure, though, it seems Euphil's mom was also dead. Because she was called the ‘ former queen'. And apparently, the reason why I was abandoned is related to the queen—the only queen who was loved by the king. She was dead right after she gave birth to me.
What a small-minded man. How could he think the baby killed her mother?
The king might have the same feeling on Euphil. Even though he might not have loved his mother, he might have the same feeling of a baby who led his mother to her death.
The difference in age between Mirthy and Euphil is five.
Now Euphil is six.
I have wished all the time that I'd be at an age when I could walk as soon as possible.
‘The winner in this kingdom is Euphil. Therefore, I have to make Euphil love me!'
I know that the number one knight is useless. This palace is also useless, which will be eventually abandoned. I never want the title of a bad luck princess. All I need is the life that will continue even after I grow up.
‘I have to prepare for this.'
I made a promise to myself. I looked at a place where I thought would be the palace where Euphil lives. I looked at the place as if I wished he could feel my love.
My plan was all about this:
‘I will make Euphil love me!'
Yes. For now, I need to show my kindness to the powerful, crazy man to survive. I have to do anything for my life to continue.
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I decided to have pity for Mirthy in the novel, instead of myself. I've already lived out my own life once. That was my life limited to 22 years.
Put simply, my past life was a time-limited life.
This is so unfair. One time I was dead at 22, and now my destiny is to die at age 19.
I wanted to check if this is a dream or real life by pinching my cheeks. Turns out, I didn't have to do that. Because the maid Ante kept pinching my cheeks and hitting my head with her hands, so there was no way for me to not know this is not a dream. She made me feel terribly hurt.
In my past life, I lived my entire life with a rare disease. The disease could be cured. But, I didn't have the money to pay for the medical treatment.
My life was of a petit bourgeois (lower middle class.)
I was abandoned. I was sent to live with my relatives, and my cousins used to ask me, ‘Hey, when will your mom come?' Since then, I had been of a mere ‘petit bourgeois.’
I became shy and tried to not attract anyone's attention. In all of that time, I had not wanted to be a burden to them.
As soon as I heard I had a rare disease, I began to regret all the past years that I was living under pressure. If I had known that I would die like this, I would have done anything that I wanted to do. I would make many friends and go out with many men. I would travel to a nearby place at least one time because I didn't have much money to travel a lot or go abroad. My mind was full of these regrets.
It was so awful that I was going to die.
I spent the days being short of breath, spitting blood, and had a burning feeling in my stomach, and not being able to endure ending up falling down.
And one day, I saw Ante's face when I opened my eyes. The past life is why I do not care about Ante's unkindness. Because I got used to others unkindness.
As soon as I grew up, I tried to leave for another place to be independent. This is what I have already done in my past life. Probably it would be easier for me whose a princess to try this again. In this second life, this cannot be a big deal.
Social position? Princess? These are worthless to me. Anyway, I was going to die. It's just like a rare disease in my past life.
I clenched my small fists. I was determined to leave this palace before Euphil broke out in revolt.
No, I need to get permission to get out of here.
No, I don’t need anyone’s permission. I don’t care about the position!!! My future sons and daughters will never know I was a princess!!! I will speak out loud and leave this place.
‘You are the king, Euphil!'
After I proclaim this, I will leave for good.
For this ……
I looked around and gave a sigh of resignation.
Ante turned to me and looked at me as if she thought I was weird. I ignored this and started to toddle.
Yes, four years of my life went by quickly.
I already became a five-year-old girl.
As you know, a five-year-old girl can walk as she likes. I mean I can do and act like a human being now. Although I stammer a little, I can now speak my mind. I thought Ante couldn't pinch my cheeks because I can speak. But, the reality was different from what I thought.
I still remember what Ante said.
‘Princess, whatever you speak out is useless. Nobody listens to you.'
I knew this already. But, saying that still hurt me deep inside.
End of Chapter one!
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