Published at 22nd of January 2020 09:45:36 AM
The feeling of being in someone else’s arms was strange .
When I was lonely, wanted to cry, and wanted some emotional affirmation, only then would it feel so comfortable and cozy . However, just like in the case now, when I was so bored to the point where I wanted to go outside and have some fun then it’s not so uncomfortable . In fact, it was all too annoying . Not to mention, the warmth could feel a bit consoling, but it could be quite unpleasant too .
Oh, so what I was trying to say is…
I want to sit alone!!!
“I, I am so jealous . ”
Ferdel shook his hands and looked at me . What’s wrong with him this time? As I tried to wriggle in Caitel’s arms with my face as if I had lived for the last two years of my life, Ferdel wiped away some tears in his eyes . Oh, by the way, Dad, could I sit alone? Your arms were very annoying . I was not a toddler anymore . Did he really have to be so overprotective of me like this?
Oh, wait . I was just two years old . Shit, that might explain it .
“Ah, Ria . ”
Oh, no . It started again . As I thought, Ferdel wiped his tears as he held his hands . Ugh .
“How could she be so lovely? She’s like an angel in disguise!”
Why was my instinct always ended up to be true? This time, I was very lucky to be in the arms of Caitel, so I turned my back on Ferdel . Sigh .
Hey, that level of endearment is considered criminal . Of course, I knew I was irresistibly cute and pretty, but he shouldn’t love me that much . He should wake up! I was already with my dad…
I couldn’t make you my father!
Oh, I suddenly wanted to see Silvia . Obviously, I met Ferdel earlier than her, but I loved Silvia more . Hah, this was the difference in favor among races . Silvia and Serrira were species called mothers . One couldn’t beat mothers .
When I had come to think of it, it truly was strange . After all, Silvia was 22, so she was younger than I before I died . Strangely, she was like a mother to me nevertheless . A very nice mom . Was it simply because of her aura? Of course, the different level of vision by height had affected this conclusion I made . Well, now I was really treating Serira as my own mother . Oh, anyway it’s so boring . I wanted to sit alone!!
“Papa . ”
I clung to Caitel .
‘Let me go now . Please? Let me go, you punk . ’
I even punched him in the chest, but Caitel just looked down at me casually and turned his gaze right back to his paperwork .
‘Hey, don’t ignore me!’
I was in his arms but I just kept getting ignored…
How did I end up like this?
I looked at Cito Caitel gave me earlier . How could I play with this? I was not even a real baby! Ha, I shouldn’t have been running around like a crazy lady . Sob Sob .
“Boo hoo!”
A few moments ago, it’s been a while since I last visited Caitel’s lounge, so I started to run around but fell over . Of course, I fell and got my knee ripped off . Looking at that, I just thought I got hurt or sick often these days . However, all children got hurt at least once when they grew up . Right? I was the only one who didn’t think it was a big deal .
It hurt, but I thought it would be okay because I didn’t cry, but I was the only one thinking that way . Ever since then, Caitel trapped me in his arms to stop me from running away .
God damn it, at least let me sit alone! I had tried to argue, but it didn’t work . In the end, I gave up and sighed, leaning against papa’s chest with the face of an old man who almost finished their life . Ah, I was so bored .
“Caitel . ”
“Why?”
Ferdel then came in, saying he had an issue to report . For some reason, Caitel was very grumpy about his appearance, but Ferdel didn’t mind . Thus, this is the situation . Oh, it’s boring . It was a real pain to be stuck in my father’s arms . In the past, there used to be a thrill of whether dad would kill me or not . However, not anymore! No!
Now I felt like he would never let me go unless I stabbed him in his waist . Oh, I didn’t know anymore . I should have just gone to the garden . Why did I decide to come to the office? Sob, sob .
At that moment, Ferdel opened his mouth with a serious face .
“Can’t I have a princess sit on my lap, too?”
… that was the question he asked so seriously?
“No . ”
Caitel immediately refused as if it was not even worth thinking about . He’s in the same boat as I was . Sob, sob .
‘Hey, cheer up, dude! And I’ll cheer up too . ’
Ferdel, who asked with little to no expectations, stood firm in his position .
“Pap”
I said with a sweet voice . The same voice I used in my previous life to get something I wanted . However, Caitel looked down at me once and refused with a cold heart .
“You too, no . ”
Ah, he didn’t even know what I was going to ask for!
“Papa!”
“No . ”
Hey, this crazy bastard, I hadn’t said anything yet! What’s wrong with him? Stop stopping me!
“I want to sit by my…”
“No . ”
Did I just felt a murderous intent? I thought I knew why people killed people .
This bastard .
I just crossed my arms and sighed . Hey, I was a lot bigger now, so I should be heavier, right? I was really heavy! Very heavy! Were you not heavy when you were the same age as I? Oh, how did I end up like this? My heart bled .
Ever since I got really sick from a cold last time, a lot had changed . After that day, Caitel would never let me do what I wanted if Seria said no . That’s too much! Secondly, he wouldn’t let me stay outside for too long . Most of all, if I got hurt for even a little bit, he would get overprotective of me like this .
I was 25 years old! I didn’t deserve to be trapped like this! What was happening! Huh?!
Since all I could do was to look at Caitel’s face and wiggle around his arm, I caught his hair instead to have a bit of fun . I wonder if dad found it annoying when I pulled his hair like this? However, the only feedback he’s giving me was no feedback at all . I would show him what it’s like to play alone . His red silver hair shone beautifully in my hands .
Since I was bored, I would start braiding his hair . I would braid it in a star shape!
“So, what are you reporting about?”
“You’ll know everything about it if you read my report . What else do you want me to say?”
“Then get out . ”
Heartless Caitel . He was his only friend . He shouldn’t be too harsh to him! I tugged his hair and told him to use better words . However, it didn’t work even for a bit to Caitel . Just turning it over like I was messing around with my hair… Oh, being ignored by him was such a sad thing .
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