Published at 22nd of January 2020 09:45:55 AM
Chapter 32: The Emperor’s Daughter Chapter . 32
I was afraid my sneak away would harm Serira, but she seemed fine . Maybe Caitel’s anger spilled out on Ferdel that day .
It was Serira herself who was the problem .
Serira, who greeted me at Solay Palace, had red and swollen eyes . I was sorry to see that, but the greater problem was that she stuck by my side ever since . That was all the time except when Caitel had me .
“Princess, don’t you do that ever again, okay?”
Washing me and wiping the water out of my body, Serira spoke with a stiff look . Her questioning voice was rather stern . I nodded, holding the toy she had returned to me in my arms again .
Serira had found this pretty ball .
A ball plated with gold and emblazoned with all kinds of arms in the red seal . When she saw this, she was so surprised I was gone and she almost passed out .
“No matter how precious the ball is, you shouldn’t just go out like that . This world is scarier than you think . ”
I knew that .
I was not proud of it, but I got killed last time at that scary world . I thought I’d log in to heaven, and I was a little surprised when I logged in to another world . It was also amazing how my memories remained intact . Of course, that did not excuse my past indulgence .
Yeah, that was my fault .
‘I’m sorry, Mom, so don’t be angry . Please?’
“You’re not going to do that next time, are you?”
Serira smiled softly at me . I felt so sorry, but I could not see her eyes at all . She set my eyes on her . At her bright smile, I nodded really hard .
‘No, never . I will never do it . It won’t happen again . ’
Serira laughed at my reaction . The smile was a fondness I had seen in quite a long time .
“Yes, that’s all right . ”
Perhaps because he lost her husband, Serira seemed to feel fear of losing anyone else . That was a fact that could easily be known if it wasn’t this time . I didn’t think deep enough about it, but now it’s so pitiful .
Even though she was wise, she was still just a human . If the pain of losing the person she loved most wouldn’t budge her, then that love was a lie .
“My princess, don’t you dare leave before me . Don’t . Okay?”
It was a voice that seemed calm, but I couldn’t hide the small tremors hidden in it . It was the kind of question that could not be easily answered, but I nodded as if I were a marionette driven by a clear thread because Serira wanted it .
Something murmurs from the heart . The tip of my nose was burning hot, but I didn’t care . It’s natural to look back on one’s parents and feel sad .
It’s just a little sad .
They raised me up to twenty-five years old, fed me and put me to sleep . Then I died without anything to reward them . Even if it’s not my will, it’s true I did the wrong thing of leaving before my parents . Of course, I still had siblings left, but that wouldn’t make up for my loss .
A man who had left always had no words .
Even though I left, it would have been floating around and soon be gone, but I had deep resentment that I didn’t leave any last words before I died . It would be nice if God felt sorry for me and let me see that faces only once .
That would be great . I wanted to say I how much I loved them once again .
“Are you crying, Princess?”
Tears were streaming down my cheeks before I knew it . I was embarrassed and leaned over the warmth of Serira’s arms . I inhaled her scent as she hugged me .
I love you, I love you, I love you . I wanted to tell them that for just a second . I wanted to tell that in my parents’ arms too .
What a heartless daughter I was . I didn’t go to see them because ‘I was too busy’ . Sometimes all I did when I went there was to give irritation and resentment . I didn’t even say that common loving words because I was too shy . I told them, “I will do my filial duty,” and, “I will do well,” but all my promises had been buried in my death .
I felt choked at the thought of my parents who would still miss such a poor daughter .
I wished they could endure like Serira . I hoped they didn’t suffer too much . I didn’t want my death to be a big shock to my parents . I really hoped it wouldn’t be . I hadn’t done anything for them but left a wound . What a poignant tragedy it was .
I couldn’t heal that wound again .
“What’s wrong with my princess all of a sudden?”
I could see now why I had come to love Serira so much .
Yeah, that was it . That was it .
Unspoken enlightenment and unspoken attraction .
Yes, Serira looked like my parents . It’s not her looks, her personality or her habits; its not these things . It was how she was left behind . Sending someone she loved away and remaining alone .
I had no choice but to love her, me who left first .
“Therira . ”
When I called her, she pulled me out of her arms and saw my eyes .
Green eyes . Pretty eyes resembling a deep forest .
My eyes were swollen before I knew it . My head hurts, too . The feeling of tears drying up was also quite refreshing .
“Yes, princess, say it . Huh?”
Instead of talking, I grabbed her hair . I leaned my cheek against Serira’s pale cheeks . It’s warm . It wasn’t as cold as it looked . I closed my eyes feeling her warmth .
Regret was too late . I must be so stupid to feel that painful feeling so suddenly, but no more .
No more… No more .
I didn’t want to regret this anymore . I should be really good this time . I didn’t want to regret it . I would not regret after I lose everything I was holding in my hand .
“Why is my princess whining so much today?”
Serira smiled . The smile she gave me while taking me off her arms felt so beautiful .
Something poured up to my throat .
That was the perfect moment .
“Mommy!”
Serira’s body stiffened at my voice . Her expression hardened . I opened my mouth again, facing her eyes .
“Mom, Mom!”
How much did I want to call her mother?
Someday, I would call her mom . I would call her that, promising myself every day . However, the words stuck in my mouth, and I could not say it . Finally, the words came out .
The reason, that had been blocking my throat, preventing me from doing, so but it was after the word had already come out of my mouth .
I felt that I couldn’t even call her as my mom now or never . Such desperation drove me away .
“Mommy…”
I wouldn’t regret it again . I wouldn’t let go of what I had in my hands . Yes, this life had not yet been a stage to regret . Let’s laugh more, and be happier .
More… I want to say how much I loved her more .
I mumbled a little, cuddling in the arms of surprise Serira .
“I yuv u . ”
My poor pronunciation did not convey my will properly, but a smile on the little word was enough . Serira laughed, and before long, her eyes were dripping with tears .
‘Don’t cry . Huh?’
“Oh no, is this tears?”
However, she couldn’t stop the tears from flowing . I raised my hand and wiped the tears from her cheeks .
Serira laughed as my tiny hand wiped away her tears . It was a laugh of trying to hold back tears, so it was a very funny look . Still, no laughter came out .
‘Oh, It’s a problem . ’
I couldn’t believe she still looked so pretty to me .
Holding my mom’s hand, which was weaker than I was, I made a small resolution by myself . I would never let her cry because of me…
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