"My dear fellow," he said, his jowls wobbling as he shook his head, "I am far too ill to have the slightest idea what we should do."
At the foot of the bed, Captain Sturt shifted his weight. "I understand your difficulty, sir," he said carefully, "but I must ask you to reconsider your-"
"But one thing I do do believe," interrupted the general, "is that we must believe," interrupted the general, "is that we must not not leave here and move into the Bala Hisar." leave here and move into the Bala Hisar."
He wore a heavy woolen dressing gown with a tasseled waist cord. A fur-lined robe lay on his knees. He peered into Sturt's scarred face like an old dog that hopes he is still loved.
"Sir," Sturt attempted, "the men will all starve if we-"
Elphinstone raised a trembling hand. "Our honor will be forever forfeit if we abandon our cantonment," he intoned. "Can you not see that, my dear Sturt? Besides, we shall never arrive there without dreadful losses. You have already seen what these Afghans are capable of. Think of your wife and mother-in-law, Sturt!"
"Sir," the younger man protested through clenched teeth, "we are less than two miles two miles from the Bala Hisar. That is no distance at-" from the Bala Hisar. That is no distance at-"
"I am far too exhausted to speak about it anymore." The general reached, wincing, into the pocket of his dressing gown. "Here you are, my dear fellow," he said, holding out a folded paper. "Take this letter to Sir William. It contains all my thoughts on our present situation."
The three men in Lady Sale's dining room looked up when Captain Sturt entered.
"It is no use," he said bitterly, handing the letter to Macnaghten. "General Elphinstone would not let me finish a single sentence."
" 'Winter is advancing,' " Macnaghten read aloud. " 'We find ourselves in a state of siege, with every man in Afghanistan arming against us. We have little food and no forage left, and our water and communications have been cut off. Our animals are starving, and great numbers of our troops are sick or wounded. We have no strength left to attack even armed civilians, and none to defend ourselves. Worse, we have no hope of relief from any quarter.' "
He raised his head. "All this is true," he said sourly, "but it is largely his fault."
" 'As no further military action can be taken,' " he continued, his eyes on the letter, " 'you must must come to an agreement with the enemy for our withdrawal to India. Honorable terms are better for our government than our being destroyed here.' come to an agreement with the enemy for our withdrawal to India. Honorable terms are better for our government than our being destroyed here.'
"Honorable terms? Withdraw to India!" Macnaghten refolded the letter and threw it onto the table. "That is exactly what Elphinstone and Shelton have both wanted all along." Macnaghten refolded the letter and threw it onto the table. "That is exactly what Elphinstone and Shelton have both wanted all along."
He raised his head and looked cheerlessly at his three companions. "Gentlemen," he said, "our army, even our most senior officers, have given in to fear. I have done all I can to encourage this flaccid force to do its duty, but I can no longer hope for a single successful military action on our part. I must now follow a course that will bring utter ruin and disgrace upon us. Tomorrow morning I shall ask for an audience with Akbar Khan.
"I can tell you this, Lamb," he added sorrowfully, "all our reputations are forfeit now. History will not treat us kindly."
The front door banged open. Voices cried out for assistance. Sir William arrived in the passage in time to see his deathly pale wife being carried into the house.
THAT NIGHT as she prepared for bed, Mariana did not wish to recite the durood. All she wanted was to draw the covers over her head and shut out Fitzgerald's begging eyes and the horrors she had seen, but Munshi Sahib had told her that self-discipline was the key to proper living.
"Weakness," he had said mildly, "comes from lack of attention. A man who rushes here and there, ignoring his duty and his promises, forgetting the needs of others and obeying the selfish demands of his own heart, will never find peace."
Munshi Sahib had found peace. She saw it in every gesture he made, every word he uttered. In the teeth of this murderous time, in the cold, with almost no water and little to eat, he had never failed to maintain his usual, unruffled calm.
Had he or Haji Khan, she wondered, ever given in to passion or panic? Had Shaikh Waliullah or Safiya Sultana? Had Hassan?
She knew the durood by heart, so there was no need to keep her lamp burning. She blew it out, and lay down.
"You must always recite a durood while sitting," Munshi Sahib had told her. "Otherwise, you may fall asleep before you have finished."
But she was too cold and tired to sit up. She tucked her quilts around her, and began to recite.
Her eyes began to close at the seventh repetition. At the ninth, she felt her breathing deepen.
Only two more ...
As she began the eleventh repetition, a picture unfolded in her mind's eye of a desert landscape. It lay, wide open, before her, its rolling surface as white as snow. Ahead of her, a full moon hung in the eastern sky, its silver light falling upon the ground, illuminating the path she was to take.
She must go forward, toward the beckoning moon, for joy lay somewhere ahead.
She was not alone. Camel bells chinked beside and behind her, revealing the presence of invisible others, but in her waking dream she did not turn her head to look at them.
Following the moon's path, she walked straight ahead, her feet sinking into the sand. Joy filled her heart, and lightened her steps.
Yes, she thought drowsily as she drifted into sleep, that was the message of Haji Khan's durood: for those who practiced these recitations, even the worst of times could not entirely erase hope, or the beauty of dreams.
What a pity that Munshi Sahib, the great interpreter of visions, had been taken away to the city....
December 23, 1841 As he followed Yar Mohammad and the borrowed donkey along the frozen Kohistan Road, Nur Rahman glanced nervously through his peephole at the crowd of horsemen and foot travelers around him.
On previous occasions, he had hummed to himself as he hurried toward the city to rejoin his dear old Munshi Sahib, whose health was improving a little each day. But on this morning, the atmosphere on the road had changed. His plan to fetch chickens, turnips, and round red pumpkins faded, engulfed by a steady stream of men who poured out of the city and over the Pul-e-Khishti bridge, all of them traveling north.
What news had sent them from their homes on this cold day, their faces hard and intent, speaking little as they moved, alone or in groups, in the direction of the British cantonment?
Nur Rahman wished he were already at Haji Khan's house, boiling water in the samovar for Munshi Sahib's tea, instead of on the open highway.
"I do not like your boots," he said tensely to his shrouded companion. "People will see that they are foreign."
"Never mind them," the English lady replied sharply. "Tell Yar Mohammad not to walk so quickly. I can hardly see out of this chaderi as it is. I am certain to fall on this slippery road."
For the past four days, every time he had seen the Englishwoman, she had pestered him to take her to visit Munshi Sahib and Haji Khan. For four days he had fended her off, using every excuse he could find, but she had won in the end. Now, forced to bring her to the city, he sweated beneath his disguise.
The air was clear. A bitter wind rattled the branches of the trees along the road. Travelers of all nationalities were, of course, to be seen, but the people Nur Rahman feared were his fellow Pashtuns, who streamed past him by the hundreds.
For months, Nur Rahman had been afraid of discovery by Painda Gul's Pashtun relatives, but in the presence of these warriors, he felt a shiver of real terror. Who knew what horrors their long knives might inflict on him if they discovered he had been buying food and carrying it to their enemies?
A tall man with a skullcap and a long beard turned to his companions as they strode by. "Why has Sirdar Akbar Khan waited so long to make his move?" he asked in Pushto.
A second man shrugged. "He wished to test the infidel Englishman's honor one final time."
A third spat onto the ice at his feet. "What need is there for tests? These English are all liars. I say Macnaghten should have been killed months ago."
Nur Rahman turned to the Englishwoman. She, who spoke only Farsi, could not have understood those words. "Hurry," he whispered urgently, reaching out a damp hand. "We must hurry." hurry."
NO ONE had even glanced at them, but still Mariana bent her head and pulled her chaderi closer over her chest. There was no point in adding to Nur Rahman's agitation.
She had lengthened her steps when he urged her to walk faster, but for all his anxiety, and in spite of the armed men who strode past them or clattered by on horses, she felt safer on the Kohistan Road than she did within the ramparts of the British garrison.
Here, only a thousand yards from the cantonment, with its frightened population and starving animals, the landscape looked calm and prosperous, and the people robust and healthy. Judging from the bounty that Nur Rahman brought from the city on his borrowed donkey, the markets must be full of lovely, fresh food.
Cold rose through the thin soles of her boots, causing her feet to ache, but no amount of discomfort could reduce her excitement.
She had wanted for so long to make this short, thrilling journey....
After breakfast, claiming a headache, she had pretended to go and lie down, and then had escaped the house. Poor Aunt Claire, who was none too well herself, was unlikely to investigate that story, and in any case, Mariana would return well before lunch. Then she would need only to tiptoe silently past Aunt Claire's bedroom, hide her chaderi, and climb into bed.
Her heart lifted. Soon she would buy fresh food for her family. Even better, she would meet her long-absent Munshi Sahib and Haji Khan at the same time. at the same time.
She had never realized that the two men were such good friends.
She breathed in the clean air, grateful for Nur Rahman's regular visits to the beleaguered cantonment, for the two wise men who would soon offer her their guidance, and for her beautiful, saving dream. That otherworldly vision had offered her something she badly needed in this time of deprivation and suffering: hope of a future far from the bleak cantonment, a road to take, and peace at the end of the journey.
Haji Khan, it seemed, had chosen the correct roll of paper, after all.
Each night, before she slept, she relived her dream, imagining rolling desert, silence broken only by the chink of camel bells, and a lamplike moon hanging in the eastern sky.
It seemed impossible that she had not yet described it to Munshi Sahib. What a great moment it would be, when she presented her vision to him and Haji Khan together!
Of course Nur Rahman had already told her that the old man might still be too unwell to speak to her. "His breathing is not good," he had said, as they set off from the cantonment, Yar Mohammad leading the donkey, Mariana and Nur Rahman following behind. "He needs me at his side every moment, to give him hot drinks and put heated bricks by his feet."
Haji Khan, too, was a powerful man. Given the choice, even if her munshi were not there, Mariana would be a daily visitor to that dark, perfumed chamber near the Char Chatta Bazaar. Everything about the room-the respectful silence of Haji Khan's followers, his caged songbird, even the intricate embroidery of his wall hangings- suggested secrets to be uncovered, languages to be studied, and a way of living to be tried.
Everything about him and his house reminded her of Hassan.
She fingered the gold medallion under her bodice. He must have had his reasons for sending it to her, but whatever they were, they had not prevented him from abandoning her in a time of desperate need.
She should never have wasted her time hoping, or writing those letters She frowned at the passing crowd. It was true that armed men filled the road to the cantonment, but how enticingly Kabul beckoned from beyond the river, its smoke rising lazily on the breeze, its markets full of root vegetables, pomegranates, and carefully preserved grapes A body of Pashtun horsemen clattered toward them. Their leader, an elderly gray-bearded man with a wolflike face, sat loosely on a bay stallion, one hand holding his horse's reins, the other resting on his knee.
He might have felt Mariana's gaze, for he turned in his saddle and glanced thoughtfully at her, his eyes resting on her riding boots. A moment later, he spoke softly to his horse and trotted on.
"Hurry, Khanum," Nur Rahman urged.
Perhaps, she thought as she quickened her steps, something would come of Sir William's latest negotiations with Akbar Khan. From her uncle's vague references the previous evening, it seemed that a new offer had come from that quarter. With luck, all would be settled by the evening, and within a week or two they would be on their way back to India.
AS MARIANA was making her way toward the city, her uncle stood in Lady Sale's dining room, watching Sir William Macnaghten gather up his papers.
"I am concerned about this meeting of yours, sir," he said carefully. "I am suspicious of Akbar Khan's sudden change of heart."
Macnaghten looked as if he had not slept for a week. "You may be right, Lamb," he said wearily, "but in these past ten days I have come to my wits' end."
"I cannot fathom," pressed Adrian Lamb, "why, after flatly refusing to give us either amnesty or provisions for our departure, he has suddenly offered us so many concessions. And, if I may be direct, sir, you you have intrigued against have intrigued against him him in the past few days. Is it possible, sir, that-" in the past few days. Is it possible, sir, that-"
Macnaghten gestured impatiently. "My dear Lamb, what else should I do in this situation? The only way to gain advantage now is to sow dissension between the tribes. Besides, I have done no more than offer cash payments to the Durranis and Ghilzais in exchange for abandonment of Akbar's cause."
"But we have no hand to play, sir." Adrian Lamb's voice rose. "Why has Akbar offered to supply us with food until next spring? Why has he promised to rule Afghanistan together together with Shah Shuja, his enemy? Even more puzzling, why has he offered to kill Aminullah Khan, his ally and friend, the man who arranged for Burnes's murder? I fear that Akbar may not think it beneath his honor to trick you. After all, these people have very different ideas of-" with Shah Shuja, his enemy? Even more puzzling, why has he offered to kill Aminullah Khan, his ally and friend, the man who arranged for Burnes's murder? I fear that Akbar may not think it beneath his honor to trick you. After all, these people have very different ideas of-"
Macnaghten raised a silencing hand. "Perhaps the chiefs I approached have taken the bait, and joined us. Perhaps that is why he has proposed such favorable terms." He smiled. "Although I found it quite disgusting, I was pleased to be offered Aminullah Khan's head on a platter. I refused, of course, but I must say it would have given me great pleasure to see that palsied old ruffian dead." He sighed. "I suppose arresting him will have to be sufficient for now."
Adrian put out a pleading hand "Akbar Khan's offer amounts to a betrayal of the Afghan people, sir. They They clearly do not want Shah Shuja to remain on the throne. I cannot believe they will accept Akbar as a paid employee of clearly do not want Shah Shuja to remain on the throne. I cannot believe they will accept Akbar as a paid employee of our our government. And why should they tolerate our presence here for the rest of the winter?" government. And why should they tolerate our presence here for the rest of the winter?"
"He has made us an offer," Macnaghten said patiently, "and now I must investigate it. For us to remain here for a few months, fully provisioned, then leave in the spring with our heads high, would be the best possible ending to this story.
"Do you remember, Lamb," he added wistfully, "how great our dreams were for this country?"
Adrian Lamb nodded. "I remember, sir."
"I shall take Lawrence, Trevor, and Mackenzie with me," Macnaghten continued, as they walked to his waiting horse. "And of course I shall have a cavalry escort, and Shelton's two regiments are ready to storm Aminullah Khan's fort and arrest him.
"I shall enjoy that," he added as he mounted his horse. "Well, good-bye, then, Lamb. With luck, you shall see me again in an hour or two. And if I should not return," he added quietly, "look after my wife, will you?"
WHEN MACNAGHTEN and the three captains met by the cantonment gate, there was no sign of a cavalry escort, only a few Residency guards hugging themselves against the cold.
Macnaghten frowned. "Where is everyone else? Where are Shelton's regiments?"
"They are not yet ready, sir," replied Captain Mackenzie. "The cavalry also did not parade in time, but they should be here soon."
"Soon is not good enough. I cannot afford to be late."
Macnaghten spurred his horse unkindly, and started for the open gate, causing the other officers to trot hastily after him. "This," he said darkly, "is the same slackness I have had to endure since the very start of the outbreak."
"And are you certain, sir," asked one of the three accompanying captains, "that there is no risk of treachery from Akbar Khan?"
"Of course course there is risk, Lawrence," Macnaghten snapped, "but what can I do? The general will not fight, nor will the brigadier. No help is to be expected from any quarter. For six weeks our enemies have visited every possible inconvenience and deprivation upon us. They have been playing with us, and have not fulfilled any of their promises, but nevertheless, I must take this final chance. there is risk, Lawrence," Macnaghten snapped, "but what can I do? The general will not fight, nor will the brigadier. No help is to be expected from any quarter. For six weeks our enemies have visited every possible inconvenience and deprivation upon us. They have been playing with us, and have not fulfilled any of their promises, but nevertheless, I must take this final chance.
"I would rather risk a hundred deaths, Lawrence," he declared, "than suffer the disgrace we all must endure if we retreat from Afghanistan with dishonor."
A large carpet had been spread over the snow on sloping ground out of the wind. An unclean crowd of silent tribesmen stood ranged about it in a half circle. Among them six or seven chiefs on horseback spoke to one another.
"Akbar Khan seemed quite pleased with the pair of pistols I sent him last week," Macnaghten remarked, as he and the three other officers approached the waiting Afghans. "Let us hope they have given him reason to be kindly disposed toward us."
After formal greetings had been exchanged, all the men dismounted, and a smiling Macnaghten was handed onto the carpet.
Behind him, one of the captains had refused to sit down. Instead, he crouched on one knee, watching tensely as the chiefs and the host of other, wilder onlookers crowded closer and closer.
"Sit down, Lawrence," hissed Captain Trevor, "and take your hand from your sword. You are making it appear that we don't trust them."
Ignoring this exchange, Sirdar Akbar Khan, the handsome eldest son of Dost Mohammad, leaned comfortably on a large bolster and gazed with lustrous brown eyes upon the Englishman beside him.
"I must ask you, Macnaghten," he said gently, "if you are quite ready to carry into effect the proposition we have offered you."
The Envoy smiled easily. "Why not?"
The sirdar smiled approvingly in return. "Come, then," he said, moving to rise, "I must take you to Aminullah Khan's fort."
"But why?" Macnaghten stiffened against his bolster. "I am not yet ready to arrest him. My regiments have not arrived."
The sirdar, his beautiful eyes on the Envoy's, did not reply. The tribesmen edged closer.
"It is a trap, sir!" Lawrence reached for his sword.