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Modified version of the previous Chapter 27.

CSWH Chapter 31: His Feelings

"……oh, Rui. You've come at a good time. I'll be adding these documents and these ones too. Both of them will be due three days from now."

Seeing the mountain of documents that was placed before me as my father spoke carelessly, I felt killing intent well up momentarily. I suppressed that killing intent and nodded.

After all, the reason why father was transferring the documents to me was so that I could learn more through practical experience.

……it's just that from my point of view, knowing that father could finish all of these in a single day if he put his mind to it made me feel quite downhearted.

"I understand, yes, that I do. In exchange, don't head into town today and please obediently stay at home. Since last time you gave me documents, there were several that I had to confirm with you, but couldn't."

"Ahh……fine, fine."

Father nodded in resignation.

"For now, I shall take care of these."

I left the room holding a similar amount of documents as what I had brought in……in fact, the amount might have even been a little more than that.

Feeling the weight that pressed down heavily on my arms, I involuntarily let out a sigh.

Going out into the corridor, I walked towards my room.

Suddenly, the view of the tower from the window entered my line of sight.

It reminded me of the young girl called Melly that I met there.

……I had received notice of the bandit subjugation while I was helping out my father.

I thought that it would be great if they were the same bandits that were the subjects of her revenge.

……however, at the same time, another question sprouted from that thought.

Just how would she feel about that……I wondered.

She had said……even if there were only things to lose, and nothing to gain from it, revenge was the only thing she could choose.

……that being the case, what about after she finishes taking revenge?

The moment I heard her say that, that was the very first thing I thought.

Pouring her everything into achieving a single goal, while throwing away everything else……what would happen if her goal were to disappear despite doing all of that?

The more she put into it, the greater the sense of loss would be once she were to lose that goal.

When I thought that, I became worried for that girl.

About that girl who was dangerously single-minded, continuing forward in a straight dash towards her goal.

If, the reason why she shed tears in frustration at having lost to another, and the reason why she was able to smile at being able to advance forward on her path, was purely for the sake of the goal called revenge, then—

Then, the moment that revenge disappears, what would she cry for, and what would she smile for?

I wonder if that sense of loss will torment her?

It wouldn't cause her to break, will it?

I became worried about that.

I turned my gaze back to the documents once more.

Though I am worried about her, I will not be able to go to the tower in the near future.

Because I also have my own goal that I am dashing towards.

Even so, ever since the notice came, I made time on several occasions to visit the tower, but was unable to meet her in the end.

……that is why I at least left a letter there.

Since it was the first time I wrote a letter for something outside of a formal setting, I was considerably perplexed over what to write, but it was a good memory.

It was just three lines.

Just how much did I hesitate over writing just those three lines?

The next time we meet, I think it would be good if she could at least get mad at me.

As long as she doesn't become crushed under the sense of loss, close her heart, and lose her emotions, then it is fine.

Rather than that, I feel that it would be much more preferable if she became unreasonably angry, while grieving at the fact that her goal was snatched away.

I wonder, just when was it that I began to feel that her lively face was endearing?

Just when was it that I started to feel that I wanted to look at it forever?

Rather than an aristocratic child that barely shows any emotion on their face, only making a soft smile; I felt that she who cried, laughed, and became angry……I saw that she, whose emotions changed so honestly, was exceedingly vibrant.

"……excuse me, Rui-sama. Romel-sams is calling for you."

A single servant called out to me, whose feet had come to a stop.

"Father is-? ……understood. Sorry, but leave these documents in my room for me."

"Certainly."

……in any case, let's hurry up and clear up the work in front of me.

Refreshing my feelings, I headed towards father's room.

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